I'm at school now and it isnt a very convenient time to be using the computer. I feel sick. um as in not *coughsneezehackwheeze* sick but 'im feeling funny' sick. though I wish I had a tummy ache to take my mind off the real sick.

I got 25/30 for math, which is what I got for the last test. (quadratic graphs I think)and it comes out to be 83.33333 percent on my calculator. and 25.5 is 85%. hahaha I think I'll go get myself an icecream or something since I expected to do a little better and could have put in more effort- though I was doing math all through the national day holidays. At least I passed geog. Which isn't really something to be happy about, since I could have gotten better marks if I had studied properly. and not blanked out): I hope I do well for history.

Speaking of academic stuff, I went to the mit talk yesterday after school and um it was mainly to dream a little bit (well a lot, considering what you need to get in) and to see what it was like, since I was all over the bio lectures they posted on the web. There were many foreign students there, and it seems they really plan ahead and know exactly where they want to go, which made me feel very guilty. 14 is not young to start planning for your college education, and there is some extent of planning need to get in to mit, or any other reputable instituition. Considering the chances and criteria, there is practically a 0% chance I'll get in, so yeah my head is in the clouds and I don't know where my feet are going. It seems like you need:
1. consistent academic records (nil)
2. a leadership position (none to speak of)
3. participate in a international competition like the math/ chem/ bio/ physics olympiad (nope)
4. play a musical instrument/ dance/ theater/ sport (I have a GRADE 2 in violin and very limited dance background)
writing this has made me sicker.

FA comp tomorrow- goodluck esther jane siling :D dont freak, yeah(: and even though lots of yearmates can't be there, we will still be supporting you in our hearts! haha it sounds like mouldy cheese.

I apologise for my absence. It has been a depressing week-> pts, tests, getting back tests, etc. and on top of it all, I got sick. Running a temperature puts you into a very surreal mood, especially on monday when I had pe. And you're into 'I have to take more liquids' mode and feeling fairly sleepy, so getting to sleep on time isn't a problem((: And when you're learning bio and sick at the same time, you're more worried about who might catch what you've got than how feverish/delerious you are, which is good. Having a fever makes one do stupid things. I drank so much water I had to pee almost every hour! --" It started with a sore throat on friday and today is wednesday and I'm fairly ok! yay but I'm still sniffling.

Thankyou everyone for all the birthday smses/ tags/ presents/ cards :D and happy birthday to all august babies! My birthday didn't exactly come smack in the exam period, this year- a first! I got a blackforest cake with lots of cream, and if I get at least a 85% for math (I reallyreally hope I do!) I 'll go get myself a spicegirls cd. Yesyes the spicegirls are so 90s, but um retro is in! i.e. spicegirls are in! This is not a very convincing argument. Or I'll go get anansi boys/ thursday for my reading pleasure during the september holidays, even though the september holidays are for mugging. Because I can't afford christina aguleria[sp?] , Panic! at the disco, Snow Patrol cds etc.

I apologise for the brevity of this post, but history is tomorrow and I cant fail so I'll update after that. yearmates are love!

I'm the only yearmate online. Because everyone is at pop chalet! (except me juan yruoxi wruoxi yunhan hweefang) They're probably still awake and playing mahjong/taitee/watching a movie or something. *sigh* I really really really wanted to go for pop chalet. But mum says I have to stay home and study and that it is 'uncontrolled' and 'far away' since there aren't any adults present and it is in pasir ris.- I live in Newton. 60 noisy people will be carted away in the middle of the night by demented psychopaths who want to suck your blaahhd. I missed pop chalet last year so next year will be the first time I go for pop chalet- if I ever will be allowed to. Come to think of it, pop chalet is like an enormous sleepover for the entire unit heh. But I think mum has reasons and my non-existent gpa is very valid evidence. I also have a severe lack in responsibility and general sanity; therefore mum doesn't really trust me to get home in one piece. (and with a sound mind)

ndp! <3210! Some people demonstrated excessive public displays of affection. tsktsk. and some other people got a little wonked. 'little' is an understatement. Public displays of affection (pda for short) put me off to an extent. I mean go ahead and do your thing, but not in plain view of everybody who pass by. I lose my appetite over these things. -_-" It corrupts little children- when I was little, I used to see people snogging in movies and in public. It was kind of weird for me- I tried to snog my year-old sister. It gives kids the wrong idea of how they show their affection to others and also seems as if these people are oblivious to whoever's around them and their personal (dis)comfort.

Today I learnt how to play taitee! ( I never know how it's supposed to be spelt) From bubbles adele and sheepoling. It's a lot like poker, except that you get more cards. Because speech day goh ended at 1230, our year slacked and finished the pop presents till 3. I helped joan write the ma'ams letters and it was fun((: and we apologise if we were in any way repetitive. I tried to learn how to play mahjong, but all I can grasp is that it's a lot like poker, which involves getting the right combination of cards (or tiles) by putting them down/exchanging some with other people. And we sang highschoolmusical numbers which I almost got sick of, as well as the tear-inducing popitem song:D and then everybody went to the chalet, with pillows and snuggle toys in hand.

German test today was, shall we say, not very pleasant. As always. I find that escapism helps with someone as sensitive as me. Having an eternal apathetic expression helps you feel apathetic towards what bugs you, as well as ensuring that you don't blubber at any moment, however inconvenient. I should have stayed awake in lessons. I should have studied harder. I should have just paid attention. Not that saying these things now will miraculously help me get a higher score, but maybe it'll help me not fail for the next test/end of year. I can't afford to fail anything anymore, but I just did today. this is stupid and pointless and will not amount to anything substantial. Back to being apathetic, there are also many downsides, many of which I experienced today. Firstly, you tend to be very irritable, which is ironic because being letting things get to you as much. Secondly, having a 'whatever' attitude may result in a lack of responsiveness, espcially when being called. Thirdly, one may appear to others as being aloof, arrogant, and way too uncooperative to work with, resulting in the genral lack of apathy towards you. (i.e., 'daoing') Therefore, I conclude that being apathetic will not solve the problem at all, so please do not try this at home.

ohmygoodness neil gaiman has sexual references in stardust and smoke and mirrors! That means it has content not suitable for my level! I won't read neil gaiman anymore and persuade others to boycott his literary works, including his website and livejournal, as well as any short pieces in anthologies. Why wasn't stardust marked nc-16 in bright red letters? Why was I allowed to borrow it from the library without being arrested? Why isn't kept, well guarded in a Restricted Section, and why wasn't I asked for my I/C? I am not even supposed to mention this here because neil gaiman's writing is too mature for my young, innocent, 13 year old mind. I am also revealing private information that I shouldn't. But I will go to all odds to make this clear to all young people out there: Neil Gaiman corrupts. Do not read.

Pop is tomorrow! or should I say- pop is tomorrow)): it is very very very quick. And i don't feel worthy of ___. jiayou yearmates for goh!:D

It's been some time. erratic blogging schedule.
a chorus line!

The singing's reallyreally good, but there's not much dancing in this number. According to wiki, it's the 4th longest running musical behind cats, less miserables and the phantom respectively. And it's coming back to Broadway soon! I want to look for the dvd, but in the meantime, I'll keep myself satisfied with the stuff on youtube. (Most of which are amateur high school productions; don't bother looking at those.) To be honest, I've heard of A Chorus Line but didn't know what it was about till I wiki-ed it. Oh there's a 1985 movie so I'll try to look out for that. It reopens this year on October 5th at the Gerald Schoenfeld Theater- haha I don't know where that is but yay it's opening again:)

lollipop
This Saturday! Which is so incredibly fast... this year I have more faith in the year that is taking over, and they are worth leading the unit- haha probably because I know the ma'ams better. I, however, am not exactly ready for leadership- wait scratch that- not ready AT ALL, emotionally, and in terms of my ability. I think some of my yearmates would be very suitable for *ahemahem* posts; and I hope that they get the acknowledgement that they deserve. I am sorry yearmates, for missing so many goh practices, it's just that mum's been putting the pressure on me lately to study 24/7 to be able to manage triple science (hello, if pigs could fly) and she's convinced that having once a week trainings are a bit too much. I know perfectly well that that was not an excuse, and I should take responsibility and start scoring reasonably well so that she will be assured that I can manage. About CAC, jiaying seemed like she really wanted the lanyard, but if it demanded the kind of effort RS demands, I think that we, as yearmates could help share the workload and make it easier for the people participating. I feel like having a syf gathering. and am thinking of trainingcamp, of all things. and how the sec1s haven't had an overnightcamp before. but I have faith! and hope and love and joy.

lightning on the wave's been getting draggy. and I'm only on chapter 18 of book 1! I will have patience and persevere. andand you absolutely have to go take a look at the fall/back to school catalogues of delias, urbanoutfitters and target.