thevirginsuicides it's very very cult. (not many people will warm up to it) and a little trashy, but not all the time, and very different from neverwhere/ things I've been reading lately. I stumbled upon it while doing my philo summative- the one on euthanasia, and went on wiki to look for the definition of suicide, which linked to the virgin suicides, a r-rated movie with kirsten dunst and josh harnett. So it turned out that the movie was based on a book, and I went to look for it. It's about four sisters aged 13-17, who are eventually driven to suicide. The book is taken from the point of view of neighbouring adolescent boys who are intrigued by the girls and their seclusion. It is the type of thing that adults say will "give you ideas", since the first sister kills herself at the age of 13 over a boy. 0_0 and the rest kill themselves partly because of the grief and partly because their parents have been overprotective. The author sets the story in the 70s, (I like things like that; see summer of the swans and dancing in the cadillac light) with the boys being middle-aged men recounting their experiences. It it a social commentary of suicides and the emotional/ psychological turmoil that teens undergo, and might not be appropriate for younger readers, and may not appeal to a lot of people.
more tomorrow.

inconsistency right so after kino crystal and I went window shopping, while geeru and michele were enjoying their purchases at coffee bean, and charisse mooched in kino for more reading. We discovered that prices in takashimaya decrease as you descend; the shops on the same level as kino were practically empty and had really really nice things with crazy prices and we looked pretty strange walking in uniform. So down we went, to moderately-priced stores- warehouse! and looking at shopfronts but stood out very nicely in a bridal fair which had a grey floor that was supposed to match the white on the dresses, I think. back to coffeebean and got a pink lemonade! which was surprisingly sour. well, just for me, because crystal finished half fairly quickly. and then off to hmv with michele, where I gawked at the prices (again), at austin powers goldmember, and at a $7.95 spirited away vcd. I finished off with a brisk walk back to the library at orchard to look for the virgin suicides/ a book to keep me sane, but instead met matthewchan and andrea/ laura/ mel(anie), though not in the same group. hightailed to bishan for my german results, but got to sleep in a darkened auditorium with __ in the background and no results. Mostly Martha was a very slow german movie (with subtitles) that I could sleep and still follow the plotline- my legs were killing me by now and sleep was excusable (.") and that was the end of end of eoys.

grr. emo rants up ahead. I smell like cheese. being a geek today, I went to the central lending library to look for the virgin suicides and spent 1/2 an hour sitting on the plush seats looking at the illustrated version of mirrormask, which came in a heavy books and art by dave mckean, with whom neil gaiman collaborated. It's just the story boards of every single frame, but it came with a foreword by you know who and email records of first drafts and everything. The footlong hardcover was too heavy to bring home, so I sat and read, which was nice to do when it was all quiet at ten in the morning. I went to search for the virgin suicides, and it turned out all copies not on loan were in the library at esplanade. all copies of anansi boys not on loan were there too. >:( so much for running all over for a single book. will probably go to the esplanade on wednesday to get that and anansi boys to keep me sane from rereading everything I have. left the library with sirthursday and neverwhere, and a reading of wolves in the walls, which is a picturebook for young children and could be lovely reading aloud. It took a lot of me not to sit one of the running kids in the library down and start reading, complete with sound effects. It must have looked pretty funny for a person my age to look at the section for junior readers for wolves in the walls and sirthursday. Actually it would be tons easier if I just bought everything I wanted in kino on friday with my christmas vouchers, but I wasn't sure if the virgin suicides and anansi boys were worth spending money on.

I feel fairly bored after eoys, and I must sound like that, but I have to catch up on tcamp, cap application and next year's stuff, because mum doesn't want me to fumble like I did this year and the year before that. Still keeping biochemphysicslit- will be a huge challenge to keep up. I have lots to catch up in terms of german and chinese><" which I cannot mess or I would be dead as a doorknob. starting off with the procrastinator's handbook, but neverwhere is a thousand times more appealing.

note to self: radishii [story], http://inkstain.inkquill.net/isf/archive/28/pariah.html ,
nanowrimo.org and I think I'll talk about thevirginsuicides, which turns most people off at first (haha me.)

Let me tell you all about friday! even though it's 1230(am) and I should be sleeping early for once. but this will be quick. <15 minutes.
I am typing on my grandaunt's windows 98 computer and it's very fun actually, with its supersized font and elderly- friendly giant mouse. Only fun when a report isn't due. The internet connection on the other computer doesn't work right now because my mum forgot to pay the internet bill --" or just another effective way of getting me and my sister off the computer for extended periods of time.
Friday was when the eoys ended! so after the drama at jblock, crystal charisse michele geeru and I went to subway, where we were promptly greeted by a whole bunch of rgs people. Which was good because the fastfood place beside subways was empty :D the fast food industry is a highly lucrative business and you don't know exactly what's in that burger so go underdogs! and places which still care about the health of the customer. But subways is in a way a fast food place, at least it has veggies that you can taste. after that we went to kinokuniya[sp?]! to browse and browse but at least michele and I got fragile things! by neil gaiman. Crystal and I went to look in the art section, and concluded that kino was where one could spend one's entire afternoon in.
>< eek this is pretty brief but will continue later.

I messed up geog. very badly. but I won't have to look geog in the face for the rest of my life! Actually 2 years of studying geog isn't very long, but I alwaysalways do badly in geog because I fail to memorise the diagrams properly and actually study, so it's all my fault. But geog would be pretty useful if I ever decided to work at greenpeace, for example, which I have considered doing. Because working at greenpeace without a geog alevel is pretty useless, because its all humanitarian issues and stuff. (. .) I don't even know what exactly is it they do [I am useless!], but they dabble in all kinds of things, especially environmental issues so obviously someone has to use geog. And my entire point of this is that I will never ever ever get a job involving environmental conservation because I am not continuing it for the rest of my secondary school life- and if you don't do geog in sec3 and 4, you can't do it in JC right? so yes, no more geog, unless I take humanitarian studies 101 or something in university. Butbut my gpa is much more important! and I don't really like geog, to be honest. You might ask, how can someone who is so into conservation not like geog?! honestly! but conservation is a weenie bit of geog and I find the rest of it boring): (sorry andrea and joyce) Though it is fairly easy to do the essay questions and mcq in geog, I always flunk the structured questions! the ones you actually have to study for -_-' at least there are no structured questions in history, which I initially decided on doing, instead of physics.
But I think I will adopt the very inconvenient method of trying to juggle tripscience lit for a month or two to see how I manage, and then switch to history if I suffocate. Mum firmly believes that I will have no life/ job /future if I don't do triple science, and what can I do, work in the ura? look at all the a*star people! they all major in biochemistry, biotechnology, [insert variant] No one majors in english literature or history! To which I go: "All those smiley people in the paper will become research assistants and have less of a life unless they take their major to the phd level, which takes a ridiculous amount of funding and time! I don't want to be a college student forever trying to pay for tuition and pass my finals!" you get the point. Although I obviously will not have the ability to go that far, much less get a scholarship from a*star, and I am thinking in extremes- I could stop somewhere in the course of getting my phd, get a job, and then continue.
>< its 1230 already and this teacher keeps on coming in to see what I am doing (I'm in 210) so wish me luck for math! and congruence and similarity and the crazy proofs and ratios.

I'm in school! and chinese is over. ovarrr for the rest of the year xD though my tuition teacher wants me to work on it during the holidays, so): will attempt to construct this post in 10 minutes. and speed-type. but usually hurried posts aren't that good. and are usually made of crap. I am being/ writing like my sec one self because I just wrote a very childish essay on the protagonist being sad with not being able to work with her best friend and then blaming the teacher for not participating herself, because the teacher rearranged the pt groups in class. Everybody is having hiatuses now because of the eoys, but I am not! well this is rather a semi-hiatus because I don't update as frequently, and my posts are much much shorter and shrink in comparison to charisses'. What's the plural form of hiatus? hiatuses or hiatri? horcrux/ horcri XD
I don't think I'll be applying for cap, even though I really want to, and even though i'm going to write the application samples anyway. Because I am too much of a wimp to ask ms ng for a teacher review. maybe I'll just tag on to somebody else's application and she can do it at the same time as that person and I don't have to go look for her! but with her review I dont think I'm going to get in anyway. I would like to do a cap RS on harrypotter and do a theory analysis- type thing. and write an editorial of my own! I'm not even sure that comes under cap rs but that's the least overwhelming thing; as compared to fps. seeing crystal rush her reading/ writing every tuesday has influenced my desicion to a great extent. or I can not apply for everything (and not go for the cap cluster activities) and just do rs on my own- on harrypotter editorials. a paring-theory editorial! lol
okay I've exceeded my tenminutes time limit- its 15 minutes now and I have to rush off home to mug for history and lit- will write more on friday.

hello. it is 4 am. I am rushing RS. It is a very unwise desicion to rush RS. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I am driven to my very extreme and am going to resort to cheap coffee to stay awake in school (and sleep in assesmbly). I hate windows 98 and my grandaunts' computer with big elderly-friendly font and funny layout and tempremental disposition. Though I'm using the normal computer now, which eases the stress just a little. I hope my printer dosn't bail out on me. If it does, tomorrow (or today, rather) I will be down with a serious case of sleep deprivation, and I will faint if I go to school. Or I will stab the printer in a fit of blind fury. With my pen. The last time it happened, I flooded it with praises of adoration in a bid for it to take pity on me and actually start working. The printer, as of today, is a living thing with moodswings.

I notice during math, while everyone is having those wavy square-ish chips, I am having my apple crisp granola bar. (very loserish, I know.) Which is one of the nicest granola bars there are- it's not crumbly, it fills you up nicely, and it smells very genuinely of apples and cinnamon. Unlike the atkins diet smores bars lying at the bottom of my fridge which do not remotely taste like smores; rather mashed cardboard with the barest hint of sugar. Why I do not eat crisps like everyone else: firstly, I tend to get broke quite often, and would rather spend my money on something more permanent, i.e. books/ cds etc. Secondly, crisps aren't exactly vegan with everything else added, and since I am in the transition stage of becoming vegan (more of that later), I do not partake of crisps. Although sometimes my human instincts get the better of me and I end up stealing laura's food.

lalala. Okay in reference to the last post, hardcore potter fans seem like a fairly small group of people. Those who fancy being hardcore, I have a couple of PotterPackages for your enjoyment.

The OxyCore(kol!) PotterPackage:
1. 3 episodes of Mugglecast/ Pottercast for your listening pleasure
2. 5 fiction links provided by crystal, sihui, geeru, charisse, and siling
3. A Harry and the Potters link for study breaks
4. a Spinner's End and The Underground Lake editorial
5. The Harry Potter series books 1 through 6 for supplementary reading

The Hardcore Potter Package: (for those who prefer a crash course in all things harry)
1. Jay Tryfanstone link
2. Episode 50 of Mugglecast
3. An editorial of choice (preferably on snape/hocrus theories)
4. The Harry Potter movies one through four for a summarised version of the Harry Potter series

PotterPackages provided (free!) upon request. I appreciate feedback on what should be taken out of/put in these packs.

I feel materialistic! Which is not a very admirable trait. But I have a inane desire to own certain things, i.e. 40s peeptoe heels of reasonable height, skinny jeans, tunic-ish top to layer with, and a dress. All these things require money, a holiday job might help. Anyone wants to hire an able-bodied youth with um 8 years of formal education? Or I might take a WEP, but not the 8am-5pm, 20th nov to 31 dec ones, even though the pay is enviable. I might just give tuition/ babysitting/ admin services/ I can even walk your dog for you! or sweep the floor, wash dishes etc. Anything that comes with a salary! Part-time preferably because of ttskit and other stuff. I feel awful, money-faced, and greedy. or thinking in extremes. I have not been acting very responsibly lately. And forgetting things. and I find my enthusiasm for anything waning, being lethargic for no reason at all. sm does not help and the prints won't go awayyy. I have devised a system where 1 hour of study time can be exchanged for 1 hour of going- out time, in a valiant attempt to cajole myself to study properly and NOT FAIL. Any study strategies proven helpful are welcome. I don't know what to talk about. I am just wasting space. and I have to come up with things for my cap application that ms ng probably won't recc. though nothing has been inspirational of late and my vocabulary is decreasing so I'd better hurry off and do those vocab mcq books that we used to do in p6 but I personally find reading more effective in increasing one's vocabulary.
ohoh you have to see the official OotP stills on mugglenet- umbridge resembles a certain Josephine Queen. haha immature me. and there is no one particularly drool-worthy, unlike GoF ): dan looks horrible and is at his worst- I really hope his acting skills haven't disappeared with his locks.