I would be lying if I said I wasn't emo after that. I am making this an issue! which is bad bad bad but I can't help it. I think some people are taking it very well. Yeah I agree with yingling in the sense that not everyone can be a good actor. (me included) Tomorrow is our first training without the ma'ams, and for some reason it has only sunk in now, partly because last week was kind of stressy, what with chem, math and all. I have a feeling it'll be kind of shaky at first but of course yearmates we can do it! Though it'll be weird not to see the ma'ams at training.

Outbursts are terribly inconvenient that they come at times when you most not want them to come, and when you will them to come it doesn't last very long. Usually I skim through blogposts (I wish I could do that with frankenstein) so hopefully other people will do the same. I don't want to overanalyse things because sometimes it can be emotionally tiring and provoke an unintended flood. Observe that all these sentences are not connected or even remotely linked; no wonder no one comes to drop by, but I'm not complaining- I like the benefits that come out of a not-so-promiscuous blog. No really I'm not being sarcastic-- it kind of means that I have the liberty to write more heh. As in say things I wouldn't normally say if it weren't more public. Although I should still be on my guard and know that something posted on the internet is accessible to anyone that wants to come and not leave a mark.

I think today I'm just posting for the sake of doing so; listening to mugglecast's second book 7 discussion (!) and pottercast's first discussion as well. I can't get enough of discussion! because people in school are kind of tired of it/ getting tired of my fangirling XD / have too much work on their plate (I should do something about my mountain of work actually) I like amy winehouse by the way, she has an amazing voice and a old-school style not unlike nat king cole (she's influenced by tony bennett, who sounds like nat king cole) and isn't afraid to not sound like other artistes her age.

It's been a long time-- 12 days! since the last post. I have so many things to talk about. but probably I'll end up talking about none of them and doing a dumpy plugging post on the latest book/ movie [insert pop culture offering] I haven't been posting lately because of cac and the stupid last minute things; most of the time I spent on the computer was on chempt/ editing other people's things/ my things.

Firstly, a press release! not that it would need one, of course. More like an official statement. Because when something happens I go blogsurfing to see what other people thought, you know. So, I'm of course disappointed and I'm really sorry to let all of you down. I know I should have done better; should have worked earlier, made eye contact, but what's done is done, and I'm trying to do a post mortem of it all. (like what some people did; trying to stare down the poster and someone's comics XD) but yeah it's important to do it when things are fresh. I feel kind of liberated, actually, and after wallowing a little it's not so bad. And don't blame yourself when it isn't really your fault. (I'm talking to you, not myself XD)
On a lighter note, I got to say hi to some people! and scope out the standards; things we're up against; also had some experience with my self-discipline (or lack thereof) and persuasive editing. also... human relations haha. and learnt from the juniors as well. I don't think this will have any significance, though, but someone links me, so. I mean if you want more specifically feel free to comment/ tag /email :D
Plus I got to know people better through it all; thanks to everyone for supporting and helping in any way(:

today I will be filling this space with... rambly things!
I think our year should spread the load a little? Actually yeah we've tried to do that already- but based on our numbers I think the load will be easier. Although due to my position what I'm saying or whatever I put here, won't relatively have much weight. Honestly that also leaves for less self- censorship but of course I should be mindful on what I put here because anyone can read it. Today I went rather dr phil on some people, reading too much into what is to come and I think I dug a little too deep into the emotional black hole. This comes from being hypersensitive and reading too much Frankenstein, where shelly gets exhaustingly poetic, and where victor can rant emo-ly for almost one chapter... but I digress. We have vowed to improve relationships with the jellybeans and I hope that will go well because it is vital to have trust on both sides and not witch.

okay the spicegirls!


OotP review continued! right lets skip skip skip to the part right at the end- you know when harry asks luna about sirius? and when luna is putting up lost notices? and then luna says something along the lines of- "things you have lost may turn up when you least expect them" ( I forgot the exact quote) but she was saying that as a metaphor to her lost shoes/items but also as a reference to sirius, because harry was, at that point, highly distraught about his death. But but at the end of the 5th book it doesn't play out that way, with luna saying that they (her mother and sirius) were just hidden behind the veil, with an implication that they would return. In both scenes, there are ideas that sirius is still alive in some form, although coming back as the form of a ghost would be highly unlikely, when we see harry talking to nearly headless nick at the end of book 5. In the movie, though, the implication that sirius would return is more certain, possibly to enlighten movie-goers who haven't read the books, but also, could it be a subtle hint as to which character gets a reprieve in book 7? Because if they put this teaser scene in the end, might it be significant in later books/movies? (Pirates of the Caribbean 3, anyone?)

Oh and in the scene where sirius dies, do you remember bellatrix saying 'avada kedavra' and then sirius falls over? If you didn't know what avada kedavra meant (i.e. the unenlightened movie-goer) you wouldn't have known sirius was about to die or have understood the gravity of the situation, but probably when harry starts to yell hysterically you know. But in the time frame between sirius getting hit by the curse and harry yelling, you think sirius was just hit by a normal spell that is reversible, because in movies, (especially fantasy children ones), everything becomes right in the end. I think this is very good for people, because it then encourages them to read the book :D and be enlightened.

I was also quite mad when they didn't blow up the huge ministry of magic statue. After they spent so long doing a pan of it when harry goes for his hearing, you might have thought it would become significant later in the movie, but noooo the blowing up doesn't happen, only the glass tiles shatter and harry gets covered in dust- not as dramatic as I had hoped. I mean the statue is symbolic of racial equality in the books, because the magical beings are all looking adoringly at the wizard in the middle, because some wizards think they are better-off than half-bloods. This would add so much more depth and significance to the movie as this prejudice mirrors the prejudice we have today, and is, in a way, a political comment. *end review*

p.s. please don't spoil me before the 21st!

I watched it!!! though spoilers abound so I'll make it highlightable below, but because I have these irritating blue curly things I have to bump the review down so that people who haven't watched it don't spoil themselves by accident. In the meantime, I'll entertain you with some moderately emo stuff.

cac is in two weeks! *panics* we have made... moderate, though very slow, progress. We've done the content to put on the poster, but not the poster itself. The poster is the most most important thing because if we don't have anything to show for our efforts, they won't have anything to mark. I mean if you look at the fa people, they're (kind of) worried and they're 5 weeks away from the real thing, but obviously it's different skills they're working on and it's a different kind of panic but still I think I should have greater progress. haha I'm being obnoxious, not mentioning yingling and khaingzin but they're yeah working hard as well. (this sounds like an afterthought) and we've heard a little from other schools too.

Review!! *Spoiler Alert* yeah I watched it :DD haha repetition for emphasis. I likedliked what David Yates (the director) did with the opening scene; it was so big picture and different from other opening scenes and artsy (a little) and epic;- remember harry playing with his wand under the covers? (okay that sounds wrong) But yeah it was macro to micro when previously it was micro to macro.
The dementor thing was good(: and harry's surprise that mrs figg was a squib was played out fairly well. BUT I was kind of miffed they didn't put dumbledore's howler to petunia in it, though it couldn't have taken more than 3 mins [?] or so to develop that plotline and the connection, because it is so vital that the movie-goer realises that petunia isn't as ignorant or one-sided as she seems. Rawr. I mean if they really didn't have time, they could take away the small "harry being emo" part on the hogwarts express which is so useless. As in we already know harry is angsty and mad and all, you don't have to emphasise it so much; and harry isn't the only one being frustrated either- look at ron and hermione. *end of spoiler*
It's getting late, will probably post more later. (I usually don't keep this promise)

I've been reading The Curious Incident of the WMD In Iraq, and it's a parody of Mark Haddon's A Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time. It's like the british version of the farenheit 9/11 reader, featuring tony blair. It's a much more enjoyable and easier read than the Farenheit 9/11 reader, with the book structured like a novel, with a rising action, conflict, climax and all. (though it might seem a far stretch to some) I also like the humor in the book, which is british-y and mostly centres on the assumption that tony blair is stupid. (like christopher in A Curious Incident) So actually the jokes aren't that witty, but the author references a lot of songs, not all which I know about.

I went to look for this song that tony was supposed to have listened to in his youth- he was in a band- it's called Smoke on the Water by Deep Purple. It's very old-school, the kind of rock featured in the School of Rock, and mr m izar played the guitar bit on the last day of school last year. haha 210 people might/might not remember this. We also sat in a circle and sang avril lavinge and backstreet boys, if that jogs your memory. (how embarrassing for me to mention all this) /end digression.

It's been some time since I last posted. I mean I didn't even notice a month passed. I suppose that's because I've been rather apathetic these few days. Today I went home with nothing to do, since I quit german (my grades, duh) and I was/ am feeling bored. Even though technically I'm supposed to spend this time getting my grades up, and being on top, but how much more on top can you get? Not that I'm really on top but I think when I had things on I had more motivation to do homework, and now it's like- can I have something to do? Actually I should really pick up tips from felicia and mug, say chinese, over twice or something. That would really make a difference. Actually though really the point is for me to plan my afternoons properly, now I've got all this spare time, because a lot of times I find myself thinking of what to do next.

I have nothing to talk about, because I have blocked all thoughts from permeating and distracting me. Usually when I have nothing to do I burst into "What is this Feeling?" out of tune, and irritate cat, who's sitting beside me, or whoever happens to be around me at that time. I like wicked and it's songs- I've almost got the lyrics down pat. Though my initial thoughts right after I saw it were that wicked was very... shallow, and its plot was weak in some places, and was a tad cliched. But of course I was converted by nat, crystal and chanel, who were squealing all about it right after and who can resist fangirling?! Although deep down I still feel wicked has a larger fanbase than phantom purely becase it is more accessible and american. [elitist!] Though when you think carefully, most musicals don't have a lot of depth. (how much depth can you fit in 3 hours?) They have great songs though, and dancing. I read the programme (yes I have it! squee) and it says the dancing in wicked was choreographed by a tap person. They weren't as technical as compared to phantom, or say, chicago, but very showy and dramatic. I mean very appropriate for wicked, what with green elphaba and all. And its props are the best of all the theater things I've seen, with the gears and trapdoor and the part in "Defying Gravity" where elphaba is raised by a harness. Before watching wicked I thought it was a rather low-profile musical (a huge understatement!) and nothing to yell about but "I have been changed for good!" ohoh and Oliver Tompsett is a much better Fiyero than Adam Garcia (who was incidentally in Cyote Ugly), as seen from the vids on youtube. Though I was sad that I didn't get to see Kerry Ellis as Elphaba ):

ohoh I can compare this for english but I am spending too much time on the computer, and might post later/ in a long time