I flunked physics. i know the maximum im going to get is 5 anyway. and no its not because the paper was too hard or i didnt study enough, it was that i didnt have time. and i owe crystal a great many things for attempting to wake me up. and the thing is, I slept at 10.30 last night, of all nights, and i slept. that is how stupid i am. and the most annoying thing is that physics was something that i had been spending time on all weekend, and which i finally understood, and it was the only paper i took since p4 that i was sure that i would have a good chance at. pfft. mum is going to be mad at me again, and my gpa is probably going to be a maximum of 2.0, what with german and all. maybe i was overconfident. but its nobody's fault but mine anyway, and i shouldnt get too worked up and should focus on studying for math and chinese. and crystal said yeah right im going to study all weekend with the alluring computer with its kol, fanfiction and everything else. self-discipline is something that I seriously not have, along with a proper sense of hardworking-ness. i can almost picture mrs quah's evil smirk when she sees my paper. I am officially miffed.

on top of everything, i lost something. my freaking carelessness. and i have been looking all over for one whole week and i still cant find it. grr >< I must be the whole person in the entire__ to have lost it. this paragraph is a waste of space since you dont know what i lost. but some people do! ok right rants can go crazy sometimes. and although it might help in finding the lost object if i publicised it here, but i dont want some people to know i have lost it. unless of course, you have guessed already.

raah mum wants me to take three sciences, and two humanities. thats english+ chinese+ amath+ emath+ chem+ physics+ bio+ history or lit+ geog+ german(if i dont quit that is) = 10 subjects. and i was thinking that chem and bio + lit and geog would be a good choice since it says on the paper that only one humanities subject is allowed for people who are taking 3 science subjects. according to my abilities (if i have any) i dont think i can do physics. honestly. and since i havent decided my career choice as of yet, i think i would take lit and geog. grr i am uninitiated in this subject- does everyone take triple science? am i setting my sights too low? because crystal is taking all the science subjects, and all three seems like a very popular choice. speaking of subjects, i have looked at this college handbook that prepares you from the ninth grade (now) and you have to take the sats, and advanced placement courses if you want to get anywhere decent. maybe im thinking waay too far ahead. but college sounds fun doing the classes you like and the things you are good at, living away on your own and meeting all kinds of people.

tatah. and maybe my views on politics later.