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My head hurts right now. I could take a panadol. But sometimes it doesn't work. Aspirin worked for my fever, but I had a bad tummy ache the last time I took it... before reading the enclosed pamphlet, where it said it had gastrointestinal side effects.

It's a pulsating kind of pain. Not quite throbbing, like when say you hit your thumb with a hammer, but a milder form.

Recently, when I don't really have goals for the day, much less the week, because there isn't school, I feel that I have a lot less to talk about. It's kind of a floating-in-limbo sensation and you feel detached from things.

Though normally I have to try hard to detach myself and take my real mind away from the things present, it's a lot easier to not be there now. When I detach myself it is when I do not pay as much attention to sensory experience, and ignore the superficial feelings and initial humaness that is awful and distracting. It's like taking my mind away and putting it somewhere else on purpose, you know, when you take your brain and just put it into another box.

Haha this reminds me of when holy people walk on hot coals, and they say that they have to prepare themselves mentally to ignore primitive mortal feelings and ascend into a higher self. Though what I do isn't quite it, even though there are sometimes metaphorical hot coals that I stop myself from feeling.

And then the description reminded me of the feelings people describe when they get high on drugs like lsd... which is somewhat how I feel when I don't sleep for long at night, and when I'm very awake after I get up. Awake in this otherworldly sense, as if I were seeing the world through another set of eyes. Though of course I haven't tried drugs, and I don't know what it feels like.

Maybe it's just called excessive daydreaming.