5:04am

why did I put facebook under my selfcontrol block when I want to talk on the anthro fb group -_-‘
ok well at least I’ve got selfcontrol on.
can’t sleep tonight or I’ll be screwed~ #royally
didn’t really do much in the day, as usual.

going to print out the encouraging tweets and tweets of people telling me to study and put them up sometime :P 

ahaha I don’t know why I watch these things but for some reason this makes me feel uncomfortable. *should be studying* heh. I’ve blocked twitter so things that usually go on there are going on here.

sometimes I play dumb to get people to like me. Or in an attempt to get people to be friends with me. That’s how people think I’m thick! woohoo! idk, when I get too smart-alecky sometimes people find that off putting. Does anyone else do this? Especially when you don’t know the other person that well. I notice that my mum does this as well, play dumb in front of anyone she doesn’t know that well. She pretends not to know things, and laughs a lot, and avoids anything referring to what she works as. She likes them to call her “Mrs Chen” even though she hasn’t changed her name, and she uses her maiden name on official things like credit cards. Sometimes she pretends to be a housewife. She pretends like she’s a rich guy’s wife, even though my mum has been promoted to a higher position compared to my dad, and earns just as much as him, if not more. I don’t find my dad having to pretend that he’s a househusband or whatever, even though my parents work in the same profession.

But then again I find my dad’s profession being discussed less in small talk because he tends to ramble about COE prices or traffic rather than his job. With my mum, her profession is like this big pink elephant in the room that she tries so much to hide that to me, it’s obvious that she’s hiding it. 

It’s been said that it’s a “woman” thing, that because people don’t like girls who are smart so girls play dumb.

sometime there will be a conclusion. *goes away*