decided to separate this from the kindle post because it would make that long and difficult to read.

right. oh more about tcamp, since you're swinging by: I think the last minute proposaling was very very worth it(: and the agonizing. [okay no more comment till later]

I am very proudly doing this on a school computer, because the internet at home got cut off :( the last time I had access to the internet was when I went to this internet cafe at balestier[sp?] shopping centre, which charged only $2 when I went for one and a half hours :D because the other place near city hall- something called stamford court- charges $3.50 an hour. You can't do gaming there though; not that they block it; but it's a house rule I think. haha does havencitystories count? Though admittedly it's getting boring. Why go to a cafe when you can go to school, you might ask. I can youtube to my content at the cafe, and I don't have to wear a uniform.

oh dear. I am sounding boring. Lately I've read-- A Haunted House by Charles Dickens, which was quite funny actually, but difficult to finish because of the language. Then I moved on to The Right Attitude To Rain by Alexander Mccall Smith, which started out longwinded and boring, but turned out to be quite a pleasurable read, and I'm glad chele recommended it to me.

I identify more with the protagonist, isabel dalhousie, a 38 year old philosopher, than with vicky austin, a teen, from the madeline l'engle books. This is very strange. Does it mean that I'm old?? Vicky Austin is someone that I would like to be, but she isn't a very realistic ideal of what I could be-- do you get that? Whereas Isabel Dalhousie is someone whose doubts I can identify with more. For a woman in her late thirties, you would expect her to be more sure of the decisions she makes, and of what she does, but she thinks life is filled with complexities and is sometimes insecure-- more like how I feel, actually. Because I'm writing this from the perspective of a young person, I still think most adults are confident, decisive people who know exactly what they want and what to do, so I don't expect isabel to behave like this. *rephrases* I am childish. Perhaps vicky is just not as emo as I am, even though the doubts she expresses are lesser than Dalhousie's in depth.

JEEZ I am not doing this properly. Right. Vicky is a thoughtful, precocious adolescent, and I should be thinking like her, but I don't. Isabel is a contemplative, almost dreamy middle-aged woman, but I think a lot like her. See? isn't that easier? No wonder I suck at english.