*sigh* we're going to get the progress reports tomorrow, and there's a nil chance of that school/ college place thing accepting me once they see it. I mean, even maddy gaiman, gets, I quote, an "impressive report card". I feel very inferior. This also means, as everyone knows, I have to work doubly hard in the holidays. (I always say this, don't I? scroll down for proof.) I found out lately that defeatist is a real word! oh dear.

I HATE the fact that I read so slowly. I mean geeru can read 2 terry prachetts a day. After school. Charisse read DH in 6 hours. I got it on saturday morning and was only sobbing on sunday night and finishing off the rest on monday morning, in time for sihui to borrow it. And take something quite recent-- Water for Elephants, by Sara Gruen-- I started this tuesday afternoon, and was only done wednesday afternoon. It's not even moderately thick! (although the font is small) I mean in primary school I used to be able to polish off books of this thickness in an afternoon, and now I take an entire day. >( I think I have selective memory, heh. I take so long to read because I pause in between for breaks to take my mind off reading and taking in information to think about the issues involved and how I feel about the book. I think I only finished Water for Elephants this quickly to return it to sydney so I can get what she calls "the gay book" from nat. Gosh I don't even think those two events are remotely related. *groans* That's another reason why I take so long-- I lose focus! I stop and think about something else while reading the paragraph at the same time and then I forget entirely what I've read in the time I got distracted, and I have to reread the paragraph. Actually this happens only when I read some books, like asimov, or the non-fiction bio things that crystal once recommended. But still! It happened during the class party today when I was trying to read wicked, and usually I keep my focus when I read fantasy books. But of course it IS kind of difficult to concentrate when nice music is in the background(:

(/random: I think wicked [the book] has more sex in it than necessary, and suspect gregory maguire did it just to keep it in the adult, not junior fiction section. *is evil because I've only read a couple chapters*)