Guillermo Del Toro isn't directing Deathly Hallows!!!!!!!!!! *sniffs* *whines* *is positively whimpering* WHY DOES HE HAVE TO PUT THE HOBBIT BEFORE DH??? I mean he's doing something for the hobbit instead, in 2009, which coincides with deathly hallows filming in 2010, and so he can't do it. >( WHY does the hobbit have to have a pan's labyrinth slant and not deathly hallows? DH is so much darker, more emotional and complex than the hobbit. I mean not that they're comparable in terms of literary value, but the hobbit is so not worth guillermo.

havent been blogging in ages, but it's just that I've been busy with something else :D which is more satisfying than writing entries. okay for 15 whole minutes, just to make a post, I'm just going to type what comes into my head. and it starts now!

I don't know whether to go back to nanyang this year or not. I haven't been back since sec one (or two). I don't think the teachers remember me anyway. But it's just that these people from p6 2004 are going for a gathering and stuff. And on half days I always only make plans on the day before/ day itself, so things end up clashing or I end up not going anywhere, both of which are not very ideal situations. So this time I should make plans in advance. Here are my options: with yearmates, with chele/ nat/ geeru, or with the nanyang people, who probably include jingles, cat, laura and lyn if they're back by then, shihui, or anyone else who's in her circle. But it also depends if yearmates want to have a yearmeeting or not. I can't decide! pffbt I always have to decide. It's always fun with yearmates. With chele/ nat/ geeru, I get to moan about sweeney todd or DH. And if I go with jingles, I'll get to meet nanyang people. Jeez this sounds like I'm picking sides, for goodness sake. If anyone concerned reads this, please take the preferences with a pinch of salt. Hang on. more like an entire salt shaker. This is the very reason why people don't talk about things like this on their blogs. They talk about how their day went, which is a very safe and diplomatic topic.

have decided that blogging is worth my while again!

I felt like I was being stalked. Like a deer in the headlights, I didn't see it coming.



What I think of the Elections: [Energy and Environmental Issues]

So. The republicans that I've looked up are romney and huckabee. They both want to "reduce energy dependence", i.e., reduce US dependence on foreign oil such as in Iraq. However, there is only a slight mention of alternative technology on Huckabee's part, and none at all on romney's; he even suggests offshore oil rigs as one of the solutions to the energy problem. This is very disappointing, when both candidates are not making a commitment to reduce carbon emissions, especially since the united states has relatively high emission levels, compared to countries with higher population densities. It is absatively [anansi boys!] necessary that the US takes drastic measures to reduce their carbon emissions, or the lives of all the living things on this planet will be endangered. But. this doesn't come as a surprise since those funding republicans are companies in the oil and coal industry, so OF COURSE the candidates cannot suggest for greater steps to be taken against climate change, because funding for their campaign is more important.



On the democratic side, things seem a little more optimistic, but more about them in another post. By the way, I prefer obama to win the primaries, but mum prefers clinton, partly because she is within hilary's range of supporters. (middle-aged women who are for feminism)

today was an interesting day. I'm just a little upset.

ms S P 1 c c a wanted us to write an essay about ourselves. This is what I really felt like writing:
Nicole is a common name. (at least in rgs) But I am uncommon! *cue cringe* I am interesting! witty! insightful! nice! [this word is neutral and all-encompassing] I like reading graphic novels which are actually graphic and dark. I like musicals like chicago, spamalot, the producers, wicked, spring awakening, grease, west side story, phantom, and a chorus line. I read SF! I listen to ACDC, nirvana and led zeppelin. Does this mean I'm obscure, and clever? Of course it does! Does it mean I'm obsessive? Hell yeah. Oh and by the way, I have lousy social skills. So don't talk to me, if you haven't noticed already. Did I tell you I read slash? I'm a snarry shipper! I also like exploring the dumbledore/ grindelwald relationship.

Some Things I Wrote in December:
There it was, The Tree. A gnarled, old, oak tree standing starkly against a background of azure sky. The wizened man with skin that had weathered a hundred winters was shuffling-- the result of arthritic joints. He gave a tired sigh. The end was near, and he felt it in his heart. The old man's movements were methodological and achingly slow, his breath coming in short bursts and a light film of sweat forming on his callused palms. There was a staff in his right hand, with elaborate carvings that seemed to move if you looked at it. The bottom of the staff had a carving of a birth in winter, above it, a young boy, and towards the middle of the staff, the image of the old man without a beard and with smoother skin. Right at the top of the staff was a crystal sphere, its insides filled with cloudy mist, which was forming and reforming into words and pictures. The mist was gradually coalescing into an image of the tree, in its wrinkled splendour. The old man's knees were bluckling under his own weight, even though shadows of his ribs protruded from his chest, and loose skin gathered around his knees and elbows. The knees finally gave way, and he fell, to the ground, crawling the last couple of yards to the tree's roots.

What Have I Read Lately?

not many fics. um Are We There Yet by David Levithan. The latest artemis fowl book and I forgot what it's called - nat don't kill me! um. um. reading the ibsen plays now, for lit. Will probably be reading the collection of short stories next, the one that sihui says is horrible. Things don't look very optimistic, don't they? But will probably be going to the library tomorrow to return the book I found at the bottom of the book/paper pile on my desk. I might be stocking up, because of the 8-book allowance, but might wait till the 31st to take full advantage of it. XD and I don't think I can stop myself from reading newly-borrowed books when I'm supposed to be reading the lit things. BECAUSE it is vital that I read the lit books well beforehand so that I know what's going on in lessons. sheesh this sounds very unlike me but it is imperative that I get a reasonable gpa, after the mess of last year. It's difficult not to carry emotional baggage over though, even though I'm not supposed to.

I stood someone up the other day, and now I think that someone is standing me up to take revenge. Which is well-deserved.

My butt hurts from sitting on the worn seat. *shifts paradigm* I have internet access today, complete with skype! Can't wait for training on monday, haven't had one in a long time. :D happy. haha I'm getting less and less eloquent as the post goes on.

it's the first day of school! and a long time since I've last posted because mum still hasn't called up the internet people. Facebook is very addictive. School today was uninteresting. I have made a dent in marking! One more person till everyone has taken it. Can't wait for thursday afternoon. Looking forward to ugly betty at 8pm and 1am. Not looking forward to math next week. Looking at the mess the study has become.

See! I can be succinct if I want to.

p.s. I think there are more important things than blogging, even though I just want to say that Are We There Yet by David Levithan is fluffy, but not in a bad way.

hello(: this is my first post since I came to trinity but it's already the second last day of the programme. I guess its because I've had to much fun! no actually I only use the computer for msn, mugglenet, orson scott card, neil gaiman and freerice.com
I am so physically unfit! The last time I did any significant physical activity it was during tcamp, which was a month ago. I had rockclimbing this morning, and did... 2 and a half walls. My upper arms got tired really quickly, and so did my legs. meep. Will this mean I won't be able to do evac silver? Okay I shan't say this because yingling will get angry XD I think theory is okay-ish, and silver methods aren't as bad at bronze.
I miss yearmates! But I don't want to go home either. Because I like the lessons here, especially the creative writing, drama and sustainable future. Oh and the freedom to do whatever you want- I mean I am not made to do homework. I actually brought homework with me! And I did some okay... last week. I have to finish my tuition homework. And finish the library books that I brought along because they are due on the 18th. I left asimov's second foundation in a friend's room >( and she had to bring it back for me. WHY have I been so forgetful lately?! right there are other people looking over at my blogging, though by right I should not mind people looking over sine the whole world will be able to look when I'm done.

I live such a mundane experience. Am currently reading Mapping Human History by Steve Olson. It's taking me really long though >< style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">The realm of possibilities by David Levithan, which is love love love, and therefore I Love Levithan. Luscious, Lascivious, Lovely, Levithan. Go Read! and it's not just a gay book. It has glbt too, but THAT IS NOT THE POINT. THE POINT IS. GO READ LEVITHAN.

At school (again) because I needed some social interaction, besides talking to my sister, maid, parents, grandparents and grandaunts. I need to talk to someone my own age! Face to face. I didn't find the social interaction I craved, as I came outrageously, i.e. 1 hour, late. whoops. I mean the computer and telephone are wonderful technological marvels, but I need to see people. In the flesh. There aren't many people at school either, besides some juniors.

On another note, I'll be seeing a lot of people my age next week when I'm going for the trinity college summer programme thing. From 28/11- 16/12. So don't dial my home number, because I won't be there, and don't dial my handphone number unless you want to have long-distance bills. Messaging is okay, though(: as is email. I'm fairly sure I'll have internet access over there.

I. am. running out of things to say. If I miss youtube enough, I might go to the place in balestier tomorrow, pay $2, and check my email one last time. I hope there will be computers with internet in the airport, because I'll be spending an entire day travelling (12hrs) with nothing to do. My sister has kidnapped my mp3 player, and is hogging the nano, so I'll probably bring a cartload of books on the plane. I wishwishwish I had a kindle D:

decided to separate this from the kindle post because it would make that long and difficult to read.

right. oh more about tcamp, since you're swinging by: I think the last minute proposaling was very very worth it(: and the agonizing. [okay no more comment till later]

I am very proudly doing this on a school computer, because the internet at home got cut off :( the last time I had access to the internet was when I went to this internet cafe at balestier[sp?] shopping centre, which charged only $2 when I went for one and a half hours :D because the other place near city hall- something called stamford court- charges $3.50 an hour. You can't do gaming there though; not that they block it; but it's a house rule I think. haha does havencitystories count? Though admittedly it's getting boring. Why go to a cafe when you can go to school, you might ask. I can youtube to my content at the cafe, and I don't have to wear a uniform.

oh dear. I am sounding boring. Lately I've read-- A Haunted House by Charles Dickens, which was quite funny actually, but difficult to finish because of the language. Then I moved on to The Right Attitude To Rain by Alexander Mccall Smith, which started out longwinded and boring, but turned out to be quite a pleasurable read, and I'm glad chele recommended it to me.

I identify more with the protagonist, isabel dalhousie, a 38 year old philosopher, than with vicky austin, a teen, from the madeline l'engle books. This is very strange. Does it mean that I'm old?? Vicky Austin is someone that I would like to be, but she isn't a very realistic ideal of what I could be-- do you get that? Whereas Isabel Dalhousie is someone whose doubts I can identify with more. For a woman in her late thirties, you would expect her to be more sure of the decisions she makes, and of what she does, but she thinks life is filled with complexities and is sometimes insecure-- more like how I feel, actually. Because I'm writing this from the perspective of a young person, I still think most adults are confident, decisive people who know exactly what they want and what to do, so I don't expect isabel to behave like this. *rephrases* I am childish. Perhaps vicky is just not as emo as I am, even though the doubts she expresses are lesser than Dalhousie's in depth.

JEEZ I am not doing this properly. Right. Vicky is a thoughtful, precocious adolescent, and I should be thinking like her, but I don't. Isabel is a contemplative, almost dreamy middle-aged woman, but I think a lot like her. See? isn't that easier? No wonder I suck at english.

oooh I really have got to plug this: a kindle! it's this portable electronic reading device, that lets you store books, magazines, newspapers and rss feeds. (blogs) You download reading material from amazon.com, (paid for, of course) and then you can read it on your kindle, whenever and wherever you want! It's a great thing for people like geeru/ sydney/ crystal who can polish off books quite quickly, and you don't have to carry around a library of books just to keep yourself occupied. Say you're going on a long plane ride, or a holiday. It would be really easy just to download any book you wanted to catch up on, and read it on the kindle. You wouldn't have to limit the number of books you want to read to the number you can comfortably carry. It's like an ipod, just for books. And when you want to download more, or update your rss feeds, you don't have to connect it to your computer; it has this wireless system that doesn't depend on wi-fi called whispernet, which means you can get your updates wherever you are! [and even if you don't have working internet like me right now>( ]

the catch: it costs a whopping $400USD! Which converts to approximately $600SGD. *sigh* and it's not very pretty either :( Since you have to download and pay for every book you put on it, you have to own a credit card or have reasonable finances just to acquire a sizable amount of reading material. *awaits the day they make this work in libraries* You also can't whip out a book to share with a friend becauseall the books are stored in one device- unless they could make it infrared and you could send a book from one device to another...? Though people are worried about this infringing copyright laws.

ooh there's something very very important I have to announce to the world at large: I made vegan cookies! okay vegetarian because I'm not sure if the chocolate chips had milk solids or not. but still! I used melted olive oil margarine and soymilk :D and used isa's recipe from the post punk kitchen. (google it!) and they were good! right I think they're good because I made them XD but my yearmates ate them... and left 2 in the box. They were of a cake-y consistency and very soft, but very ugly, because the recipe said "drop" the batter on the cookie sheet but the batter was too gooey to drop, so I kind of squashed them on. Plus I wanted to make bigger, but fewer cookies to save time, so the cookies were very chunky and chocolate-chip laden. I used all-purpose flour instead of wholewheat, because the recipe said "oat flour" but I couldn't find that, until I realised that wholewheat was more or less the same thing. I can't wait to do something else! yumyum. I know chele had successful blueberry muffins (with fresh blueberries!) and andrea's banana chocolate cupcakes were really good... but I want to do something vegan, like vegan cupcakes.

right tcamp is over, and I suppose you'll be looking for something on that. I don't really want to say anything here (haha) because I don't want people to misunderstand things. But I enjoyed it a lot! Because the juniors really learnt stuff, and I learnt quite a bit myself. But if you check back later I might say more, after talking it over. (some more) >< but *** was a disaster *rants*

I might not update as often, because the internet at home isn't working and I'm at school now. but I still have to mark things at home, meep.

*sigh* we're going to get the progress reports tomorrow, and there's a nil chance of that school/ college place thing accepting me once they see it. I mean, even maddy gaiman, gets, I quote, an "impressive report card". I feel very inferior. This also means, as everyone knows, I have to work doubly hard in the holidays. (I always say this, don't I? scroll down for proof.) I found out lately that defeatist is a real word! oh dear.

I HATE the fact that I read so slowly. I mean geeru can read 2 terry prachetts a day. After school. Charisse read DH in 6 hours. I got it on saturday morning and was only sobbing on sunday night and finishing off the rest on monday morning, in time for sihui to borrow it. And take something quite recent-- Water for Elephants, by Sara Gruen-- I started this tuesday afternoon, and was only done wednesday afternoon. It's not even moderately thick! (although the font is small) I mean in primary school I used to be able to polish off books of this thickness in an afternoon, and now I take an entire day. >( I think I have selective memory, heh. I take so long to read because I pause in between for breaks to take my mind off reading and taking in information to think about the issues involved and how I feel about the book. I think I only finished Water for Elephants this quickly to return it to sydney so I can get what she calls "the gay book" from nat. Gosh I don't even think those two events are remotely related. *groans* That's another reason why I take so long-- I lose focus! I stop and think about something else while reading the paragraph at the same time and then I forget entirely what I've read in the time I got distracted, and I have to reread the paragraph. Actually this happens only when I read some books, like asimov, or the non-fiction bio things that crystal once recommended. But still! It happened during the class party today when I was trying to read wicked, and usually I keep my focus when I read fantasy books. But of course it IS kind of difficult to concentrate when nice music is in the background(:

(/random: I think wicked [the book] has more sex in it than necessary, and suspect gregory maguire did it just to keep it in the adult, not junior fiction section. *is evil because I've only read a couple chapters*)

Personal Statement

I would like to join the Trinity College Summer Schools because I wish to increase my knowledge of humanities and to hone my writing skills. Even though I take three science subjects, it would make me an all-rounded learner to enroll in the Creative Thinking Summer School. The writing, critical thinking and planning skills taught will not only help me in my humanities subjects, but also in subjects such as English, Biology and Chemistry. These skills are invaluable in life, and might prove to be useful in my tertiary education. I am especially interested in the “Learning for a Sustainable Future” subject of the Creative Thinking stream, as I believe climate change will most affect the youth of the future and its effects can only be countered by sustainable energy and also political power. Currently at school, the concept of environmental change is very rarely discussed in lessons, and student-initiated environmental projects manage to persuade only a fraction of the school population. It would be fascinating to think about the possibilities that would arise if we did or did not consider the effects of climate change at work, in school or at home.
This year I participated in a Current Affairs Competition as part of the Red Cross Youth, which is my extracurricular activity at school. The information I learnt in preparation for this competition would come in handy when I learn about the political aspect of the Creative Thinking Stream, as the competition was on disaster preparedness.
I am also very attracted to creative writing and literature, and these interests coincide with the electives offered in the programme. I hope, in the course of this programme, to make creative writing and literature more than just my interests, and for them to be part of the knowledge and skills essential for adult life.

go forth and multiply! [it] I really don't mind if you copy, because I wrote this in 15 mins, and it isn't meant to be award-winning, so. I am highly ashamed of myself because I was supposed to finish this yesterday and I'm only done with it after wasting time playing around on the internet. feel free to r&r.

Neverwhere review! (the bbc tv series)

Even though I've only watched a couple episodes from the first few episodes, I don't really like it. I think there's a dvd version of it somewhere, the cover of which neil gaiman was plugging, and I have a feeling he didn't really like the tv version. Even though I like neverwhere a lot, (hence the rereading) the tv version isn't very representative of the book. The user who posted it on youtube even said it was "short-lived".
Firstly, in the book Richard Mayhew is supposed to have a slight scottish accent, in the show it isn't just 'slight'; it's rather heavy, to the point where it sometimes becomes difficult to understand. Maybe it's just me, being not used to various british accents and all, but I think for the show to be accessible to a wider audience the actor playing Richard has to speak clearer.
I quite like the casting of Mr Croup, though, and his voice; he rolls his Rs! And is malevolent :D When I was reading the book I imagined croup and vandemar to sound like snape or morpheus (in the matrix, not sandman) and the guy play Mr. Croup sounds like that!
Though vandemar has the wrong clothes because he looks like someone from Law and Order, back in the 90s, with a white shirt and suspenders, of all things. Speaking of costumes, the Marquis has this cloak (okay) a white flappy shirt (okay) a glittery vest (passable) and khaki pants that look like ballet tights. First things first. Ballet tights are perfectly acceptable on dancers, and serve a functional purpose. But the Marquis doesn't dance, and so they do not have a functional purpose. [right. stupid argument.] I suppose the producers tried to go for the tudor tights-and-bloomers look, but it doesn't work out! I feel like the Marquis is going to do a grande jete any moment, and pirouette arrogantly around richard, who can neither dance nor act.
I think I'm quibbling. The tv series was first aired in 1996, and they had different fashion trends then (the person playing door wears biker boots) and probably different lighting trends then too. The lighting in the series looks over the top, with most of the croup/vandemar scenes in green, and angel islington scenes in red. Oh dear. maybe it's just the video quality. I wouldn't mind just listening to the audio part; it would do very well as an audiobook, thought that rather defeats the purpose of having a tv show.

I haven't been posting for a long time, and now I should be doing something else.

I suppose I should say where I went after the eoys, as everyone seems to be talking about that on their blogs. Nat, michele and I went to kino, yoshinoya, Wh, body shop, gramophone, and borders. There. Done. I said it.

That sounded unusually off-hand and arrogant. But I don't feel like recounting everything because it is tiresome. Lately I've been avoid all things that require physical exertion. I've also been sleeping a lot, moving slowly, and consuming vast amounts of junk, and therefore I am sloth-like. I'm spending half my time on the computer doing stupid things, looking for work to do, and putting it (the work) off. I should be getting my butt off the ground and doing my personal statement and corraling logs but no I'm currently made little or no progress on both of those things. I'm making myself more miserable as I write this. Miserable like wallowing-like-a-hippo miserable. Not that eoy results help, though.

I think I'm satisfied, but not happy with, bio, chem and chinese zuowen, but not much else. I don't think mum would be satisfied with anything, and there is a very high chance I would be retained. I should also spend my post-eoy time revising things, so I don't get too lost next year. I can't get lost next year because it's the last chance I'll get to shove/nudge/heave my gpa up. I think I said that at the beginning of this year too as well.

Ooh I’m using a mac and this is a neat font :D didot, I believe it’s called. Right now I’m supposed to be studying for bio so I’ll do the genetically modified food part now and then 10 year series and maybe math at home. Actually it would be more appropriate for me to do this on the class computer; it’s kind of impolite to do it here. I’m trying not to have to use the computer at home, because it usually ends up in me playing hcs or doing something just as counterproductive. Although right now is a good time to attack people on hcs, because most irritating players are having their exams now, i.e. the “fear me” people. So they’re terribly loaded and no one else is online to attack me, which makes it very convenient to… farm gold. As you can see, I’m pretty obsessed. And I shouldn’t be!

I think because I talk a lot about obscure [?} okay not obscure, it’s just that people in my school aren’t into these things. Right I have to finish my sentence. Relatively obscure books/ musicals/ movies etc, I come off as being geek. Wait no I think crying one’s eyes out for dobby’s death practically confers geek status. And sometimes people equate being geek to being hardworking… and I very sadly confess that I’m not. ): It’s kind of sad that a lot of people don’t read. Take for example, my sister. She refuses to read anything that I enjoyed as a kid and instead gravitates toward things like the princess diaries and other things in that genre. Though I’m being selfish here, because I cannot impose my choice of reading material onto my sister, because she likes biographies: think Chinese Cinderella, and I don’t.

I sound very horribly like someone else. I ALWAYS sound like someone else, without even trying >:( remember last year I said I subconsciously was writing like N.G., or maybe even charisse--now I’m writing the way someone talks. I don’t even have my own writing style! Or rather, blogging style. Some people say this happens most when you’re reading other people’s writing and come off sounding like the person you’re reading, just because you are so influenced by that person.
I don’t think I’ll have a conclusion today, or end it properly, because I didn’t write conclusions for lit and I feel kind of sad): I sound like a blue frog. Or the frog that is blue. It’s time to finish because I’ve reached the end of the page, what with the wide page borders. “So long, farewell, aufwiedersehn goodbye.” * cue music *

Someone is having a private-ish conversation in a not so private place. I will resist the temptation to earwig.

I don't know what to talk about. recently I don't know what's come over me. I don't think I'll pass physics. or math. or bio. oh dear. I shall have to be expelled, since the chances of me passing philo are kind of low too. And physics is the subject that many people pass. My gpa is out of sight already (the wrong way) and so now you can very clearly see I'm ranting. Everytime the eoys come around, I have this impending feeling of doom, but this time the feeling is so encompassing and it's worse than past years. But I think the best thing to do right now (so close to the exams) is to work really really hard, so today I will try not to fail lit tomorrow.

I was browsing through neil gaiman's blog, and it says he's with the bbc world service, recording anansi boys! I mean even though anansi boys wasn't his best novel, I am very much looking forward to listening to it :D Because it will be broadcast on the world service! i.e. in Singapore as well. Plus I hardly get the chance to listen to audio books; they're expensive and I don't have premium membership so I can't borrow them from the library. The use of excessive exclamation marks very clearly shows that I am excited; haha and plugging again. It says 17 november 07, so I'm marking that date on the calendar. ohoh and 17th nov is a saturday, so it most probably will the airing at around 4-5pm local time, because that's when they have BBC world drama on. So tune in to 88.9fm at 4pm on 17th november people, for anansi boys : )

I sound like an annoying tv ad.

hi :D oh and correction: harry cannot be compared to esther, primarily because one is female and the other male, and secondly, they both have wildly differeing personalities, so.

What would make for universal and interesting reading would be book reviews: I've read Foundation by Issac Asimov and I'm halfway through From the Dust Returned, by Ray Bradbury. And I've (only just -_-") discovered that From the Dust Returned is a novel version of the picture book, the Haunting. (which I talked about a few posts ago) They're due on friday though, so I think I'll return them and borrow them at a later date to finish. Plus there are ONLY 2 translated versions of the play Spring Awakening in the Reference Library (grr.) and that means I can't borrow them or anything, which also means I'll probably have to go there for a couple hours after the eoys to read it on the spot. I like the translated full-length plays! because the musical is kind of lacking in dialogue-- how much can you fit in 2-3 hours, what with all the songs and dramatic moritz monologues. But I'm just quibbling, because I wouldn't have liked it so much without the songs. The text plays explain a lot that is not said in the musical, and you get to analyse a bit, when you stare at the page for a while. Urgh I don't like fangirling on my own; you don't have anyone to argue with/ extol merits of various songs.

There's something very very pressing in my mind and I hate hate it and I want it to go away so I ignore it, but it refuses to wish itself off. It's not homework or anything academically-related, because those problems are MUCH easier to solve. (I did math filing yesterday!) Whining isn't a very good thing to do. I have also discovered that I am angsty, seeing from harry's characterisation in Underwater Light by maya. I should focus on the things most important (i.e. the eoys) and not on anemone problems, however prominent they are. Because! it is vital that I don't fail anything this time, or my gpa will be more screwed than it already is.

It's kind of quiet here, at not peak-ish hours. I like it when it's quiet because you don't have other people looking over your shoulder (actually this shouldn't matter because a blog is public anyway) or hovering over you, waiting to use the computer. I haven't been writing properly for ages, so maybe that's why my language is... somewhat different from what I was writing before. I'm using non-committal words! Which implies that I am non committal as well, which is NOT GOOD, and not what potential employers are looking for.

I feel so idealistic, thinking about employers and jobs. It's not like I'm going to be really efficient and send in my resume to everyone who doesn't ask for O levels, (quite a few, when I went to look) but it's just that I would like a WEP that I'm going to look for myself. You know what, if you knew me irl, you would know that I don't really mean what I said. No, scratch that. I mean what I say but I won't actually do it-- take the proposed potter party, for example. I have big stupid lofty ideas but not the exact plans to do them, you know. Which will ultimately be my downfall, though "The last enemy that shall be conquered is death." Okay that last quote was really random, and not very appropriate, but I just want to show off that I remember it. Haha that last statement was REALLY tactful. Tactful is the wrong word! but you kind of ish understand me, right?

This post is going nowhere, I just felt like blogging and I did it! Just like yingling, who feels like blogging every week or so, and does it. Only my posts aren't as enlightening or philosophical, and of course you know I fib a lot. Sometimes I think writing things down and recording things is very useful, because it helps me think through things slooowly, because when I think things out in my head I go from point A to B to F, and I skip a lot of things on the way as a result. I don't... think it thouroghly enough, or in depth, but I go very far in breadth, which resulted in comparing myself to wormtail, and harry to *cough*esther*cough*.

Today's post wasn't about anything in particular, and I am assured by the fact that orson scott card doesn't exactly keep on topic either, on the "Uncle Orson Reviews Everything" section on his website. Okay now a lot of the computers are occupied and I suppose I have to scram. Making the font size 6 prevents people from seeing what you are really doing, which is a great, but not foolproof thing for shared computers.

Actually I posted the last post on sept 7th, not monday sept 3rd--- I wrote the post on monday, switched the computer off, and thanks to blogger's amazing autosave, monday's post was saved and I didn't have to write an entirely new one on friday. (I think it was most likely really late thursday night)

anyway, people seem to be posting quite regularly, and I feel guilty. (that includes neil gaiman and Viva La Vegan) But! seeing as I never keep my promises, I don't think blogging more often will help. case in point: I promised to talk about endings and stuff in the last post, but after rigourous self-censorship, nothing has passed the test! Therefore there most likely won't be anything about things past, or maybe just a very little bit.
I can't believe I was in The Room today (for the very first time), and I just sat there, staring at everything, the floor even. I feel like such a naive idiot. This so clearly proves that I am a groupie, and that I overcomplicate things. Though most of the time talking things out helps (a lot!) and then you find you aren't the only one who frets. Thinking of it now, I think I should have seen the post coming. As in if one just uses his/her logic and powers of elimination, it kind-of-ish fits. I think yearmates expected it more that I did, although I must admit I was surprised (in a good way!) and had a slow reaction time.
Oh I remember now! I. am. so. wormtail. Think about the things we have in common! I swear I have mousey tendencies-- the voice, nose, personality. _watch for my betrayal, people._
Today is a space day. because I am writing in so incoherent sentences, I have no choice but to paragraph every sentence or two, because no two sentences connect. I mean, I don't think I am even thinking about the same thing when I start the sentence and end it. I was primarily inspired to blog today by yingling :D and one must have inspiration to blog! and so I did, and the rest is history! woot. as you can see, today I am merely crapping. The last paragraph was practically filler.
okay I must must fangirl about the producers! watch it on youtube! "Springtime for Hitler in Germany, winter in Poland and France!" "if you've got it, flaunt it" "we can do it" ooh yayness.

yay okay my keyboard works now :D turns out that the batteries I was using were the used ones -_-"

right. in relation to saturday, don't read what I said the wrong way-- I mean it in a good way. Okay not "good" but a positive way. Do you get what I mean? I think I should just not say anything out here because... everybody's been through it/ going to go through it sooner or later (it depends who you are) and the people whom I need to say things to don't have to resort to reading it here; not that I'll stop saying things here, just that [this is understood!] I'll self-censor more. And also because everyone else is more or less using their common sense, and only saying what needs to be said.

Let's talk about something interesting! i.e. my sniffles. Last thursday I had a sore throat. I hate that part of getting sick because you feel a lot of discomfort when you swallow and somehow it gets worse if the weather is warm. On friday it got really sunny and hot, so I got very warm but didn't sweat and felt feverish (and delirious) On friday night I was really considering not going for pop, heh. But I went! With more than a couple panadols. Being in a sniffy, clogged up, and head-in-the-clouds state does not do anything for your level of alertness= a really dense me. Today it didn't really get any better and I had to skip math clinic-- which I wish I wouldn't have skipped because my math gpa is practically at a sub-zero level.



Spring Awakening! I especially like [Left Behind]. It was sung at moritz's funeral, where moritz was an angst-ridden teen who committed suicide. Spring Awakening freely explores the timeless theme of teenage angst, showcasing reality in its most raw form. Adapted from a book written in 1891, it clearly shows that the tumultuous emotions that youth today feel are not just a product of media influences in the 21st century, but a product of truths one discovers along the road to self-discovery. oh, and its themes are similar to the ones in The Virgin Suicides, a book and movie which I reviewed last year.
It's currently on at the Eugene O'Neil theatre on Broadway, and has plans to start a US national tour in Fall 2008. The producers also have intentions of launching productions in London, Tel Aviv, Germany, Austria, Sydney, Spain, Japan, the Netherlands, and South Korea. The London and Sydney productions will open in 2008. So. for me to watch a live performance asap, I have to go to London or Sydney next year, or the US national tour. I've watched the entire thing already on myspacetv, but there is NOTHING like watching a musical live. rawr. maybe if I go to Sydney I'll go watch phantom too and see if anthony warhol is as good as cat extols. But it would be even better if it could go on an international tour and I could fangirl with people in person, instead of trying to squee with people living on the other side of the earth, and waiting an entire day for their responses because of the stupid time differences. I've been trying to get people to watch it on youtube/ myspacetv, but it hasn't been catching on. ): (probably because fangirling about musicals is such a geek thing to do.)


I think I'll talk about chalet and related things tomorrow because I need to ruminate, and do what sihui calls emo-ing.