hello(: this is my first post since I came to trinity but it's already the second last day of the programme. I guess its because I've had to much fun! no actually I only use the computer for msn, mugglenet, orson scott card, neil gaiman and freerice.com
I am so physically unfit! The last time I did any significant physical activity it was during tcamp, which was a month ago. I had rockclimbing this morning, and did... 2 and a half walls. My upper arms got tired really quickly, and so did my legs. meep. Will this mean I won't be able to do evac silver? Okay I shan't say this because yingling will get angry XD I think theory is okay-ish, and silver methods aren't as bad at bronze.
I miss yearmates! But I don't want to go home either. Because I like the lessons here, especially the creative writing, drama and sustainable future. Oh and the freedom to do whatever you want- I mean I am not made to do homework. I actually brought homework with me! And I did some okay... last week. I have to finish my tuition homework. And finish the library books that I brought along because they are due on the 18th. I left asimov's second foundation in a friend's room >( and she had to bring it back for me. WHY have I been so forgetful lately?! right there are other people looking over at my blogging, though by right I should not mind people looking over sine the whole world will be able to look when I'm done.

I live such a mundane experience. Am currently reading Mapping Human History by Steve Olson. It's taking me really long though >< style="color: rgb(204, 51, 204);">The realm of possibilities by David Levithan, which is love love love, and therefore I Love Levithan. Luscious, Lascivious, Lovely, Levithan. Go Read! and it's not just a gay book. It has glbt too, but THAT IS NOT THE POINT. THE POINT IS. GO READ LEVITHAN.

At school (again) because I needed some social interaction, besides talking to my sister, maid, parents, grandparents and grandaunts. I need to talk to someone my own age! Face to face. I didn't find the social interaction I craved, as I came outrageously, i.e. 1 hour, late. whoops. I mean the computer and telephone are wonderful technological marvels, but I need to see people. In the flesh. There aren't many people at school either, besides some juniors.

On another note, I'll be seeing a lot of people my age next week when I'm going for the trinity college summer programme thing. From 28/11- 16/12. So don't dial my home number, because I won't be there, and don't dial my handphone number unless you want to have long-distance bills. Messaging is okay, though(: as is email. I'm fairly sure I'll have internet access over there.

I. am. running out of things to say. If I miss youtube enough, I might go to the place in balestier tomorrow, pay $2, and check my email one last time. I hope there will be computers with internet in the airport, because I'll be spending an entire day travelling (12hrs) with nothing to do. My sister has kidnapped my mp3 player, and is hogging the nano, so I'll probably bring a cartload of books on the plane. I wishwishwish I had a kindle D:

decided to separate this from the kindle post because it would make that long and difficult to read.

right. oh more about tcamp, since you're swinging by: I think the last minute proposaling was very very worth it(: and the agonizing. [okay no more comment till later]

I am very proudly doing this on a school computer, because the internet at home got cut off :( the last time I had access to the internet was when I went to this internet cafe at balestier[sp?] shopping centre, which charged only $2 when I went for one and a half hours :D because the other place near city hall- something called stamford court- charges $3.50 an hour. You can't do gaming there though; not that they block it; but it's a house rule I think. haha does havencitystories count? Though admittedly it's getting boring. Why go to a cafe when you can go to school, you might ask. I can youtube to my content at the cafe, and I don't have to wear a uniform.

oh dear. I am sounding boring. Lately I've read-- A Haunted House by Charles Dickens, which was quite funny actually, but difficult to finish because of the language. Then I moved on to The Right Attitude To Rain by Alexander Mccall Smith, which started out longwinded and boring, but turned out to be quite a pleasurable read, and I'm glad chele recommended it to me.

I identify more with the protagonist, isabel dalhousie, a 38 year old philosopher, than with vicky austin, a teen, from the madeline l'engle books. This is very strange. Does it mean that I'm old?? Vicky Austin is someone that I would like to be, but she isn't a very realistic ideal of what I could be-- do you get that? Whereas Isabel Dalhousie is someone whose doubts I can identify with more. For a woman in her late thirties, you would expect her to be more sure of the decisions she makes, and of what she does, but she thinks life is filled with complexities and is sometimes insecure-- more like how I feel, actually. Because I'm writing this from the perspective of a young person, I still think most adults are confident, decisive people who know exactly what they want and what to do, so I don't expect isabel to behave like this. *rephrases* I am childish. Perhaps vicky is just not as emo as I am, even though the doubts she expresses are lesser than Dalhousie's in depth.

JEEZ I am not doing this properly. Right. Vicky is a thoughtful, precocious adolescent, and I should be thinking like her, but I don't. Isabel is a contemplative, almost dreamy middle-aged woman, but I think a lot like her. See? isn't that easier? No wonder I suck at english.

oooh I really have got to plug this: a kindle! it's this portable electronic reading device, that lets you store books, magazines, newspapers and rss feeds. (blogs) You download reading material from amazon.com, (paid for, of course) and then you can read it on your kindle, whenever and wherever you want! It's a great thing for people like geeru/ sydney/ crystal who can polish off books quite quickly, and you don't have to carry around a library of books just to keep yourself occupied. Say you're going on a long plane ride, or a holiday. It would be really easy just to download any book you wanted to catch up on, and read it on the kindle. You wouldn't have to limit the number of books you want to read to the number you can comfortably carry. It's like an ipod, just for books. And when you want to download more, or update your rss feeds, you don't have to connect it to your computer; it has this wireless system that doesn't depend on wi-fi called whispernet, which means you can get your updates wherever you are! [and even if you don't have working internet like me right now>( ]

the catch: it costs a whopping $400USD! Which converts to approximately $600SGD. *sigh* and it's not very pretty either :( Since you have to download and pay for every book you put on it, you have to own a credit card or have reasonable finances just to acquire a sizable amount of reading material. *awaits the day they make this work in libraries* You also can't whip out a book to share with a friend becauseall the books are stored in one device- unless they could make it infrared and you could send a book from one device to another...? Though people are worried about this infringing copyright laws.

ooh there's something very very important I have to announce to the world at large: I made vegan cookies! okay vegetarian because I'm not sure if the chocolate chips had milk solids or not. but still! I used melted olive oil margarine and soymilk :D and used isa's recipe from the post punk kitchen. (google it!) and they were good! right I think they're good because I made them XD but my yearmates ate them... and left 2 in the box. They were of a cake-y consistency and very soft, but very ugly, because the recipe said "drop" the batter on the cookie sheet but the batter was too gooey to drop, so I kind of squashed them on. Plus I wanted to make bigger, but fewer cookies to save time, so the cookies were very chunky and chocolate-chip laden. I used all-purpose flour instead of wholewheat, because the recipe said "oat flour" but I couldn't find that, until I realised that wholewheat was more or less the same thing. I can't wait to do something else! yumyum. I know chele had successful blueberry muffins (with fresh blueberries!) and andrea's banana chocolate cupcakes were really good... but I want to do something vegan, like vegan cupcakes.

right tcamp is over, and I suppose you'll be looking for something on that. I don't really want to say anything here (haha) because I don't want people to misunderstand things. But I enjoyed it a lot! Because the juniors really learnt stuff, and I learnt quite a bit myself. But if you check back later I might say more, after talking it over. (some more) >< but *** was a disaster *rants*

I might not update as often, because the internet at home isn't working and I'm at school now. but I still have to mark things at home, meep.

*sigh* we're going to get the progress reports tomorrow, and there's a nil chance of that school/ college place thing accepting me once they see it. I mean, even maddy gaiman, gets, I quote, an "impressive report card". I feel very inferior. This also means, as everyone knows, I have to work doubly hard in the holidays. (I always say this, don't I? scroll down for proof.) I found out lately that defeatist is a real word! oh dear.

I HATE the fact that I read so slowly. I mean geeru can read 2 terry prachetts a day. After school. Charisse read DH in 6 hours. I got it on saturday morning and was only sobbing on sunday night and finishing off the rest on monday morning, in time for sihui to borrow it. And take something quite recent-- Water for Elephants, by Sara Gruen-- I started this tuesday afternoon, and was only done wednesday afternoon. It's not even moderately thick! (although the font is small) I mean in primary school I used to be able to polish off books of this thickness in an afternoon, and now I take an entire day. >( I think I have selective memory, heh. I take so long to read because I pause in between for breaks to take my mind off reading and taking in information to think about the issues involved and how I feel about the book. I think I only finished Water for Elephants this quickly to return it to sydney so I can get what she calls "the gay book" from nat. Gosh I don't even think those two events are remotely related. *groans* That's another reason why I take so long-- I lose focus! I stop and think about something else while reading the paragraph at the same time and then I forget entirely what I've read in the time I got distracted, and I have to reread the paragraph. Actually this happens only when I read some books, like asimov, or the non-fiction bio things that crystal once recommended. But still! It happened during the class party today when I was trying to read wicked, and usually I keep my focus when I read fantasy books. But of course it IS kind of difficult to concentrate when nice music is in the background(:

(/random: I think wicked [the book] has more sex in it than necessary, and suspect gregory maguire did it just to keep it in the adult, not junior fiction section. *is evil because I've only read a couple chapters*)

Personal Statement

I would like to join the Trinity College Summer Schools because I wish to increase my knowledge of humanities and to hone my writing skills. Even though I take three science subjects, it would make me an all-rounded learner to enroll in the Creative Thinking Summer School. The writing, critical thinking and planning skills taught will not only help me in my humanities subjects, but also in subjects such as English, Biology and Chemistry. These skills are invaluable in life, and might prove to be useful in my tertiary education. I am especially interested in the “Learning for a Sustainable Future” subject of the Creative Thinking stream, as I believe climate change will most affect the youth of the future and its effects can only be countered by sustainable energy and also political power. Currently at school, the concept of environmental change is very rarely discussed in lessons, and student-initiated environmental projects manage to persuade only a fraction of the school population. It would be fascinating to think about the possibilities that would arise if we did or did not consider the effects of climate change at work, in school or at home.
This year I participated in a Current Affairs Competition as part of the Red Cross Youth, which is my extracurricular activity at school. The information I learnt in preparation for this competition would come in handy when I learn about the political aspect of the Creative Thinking Stream, as the competition was on disaster preparedness.
I am also very attracted to creative writing and literature, and these interests coincide with the electives offered in the programme. I hope, in the course of this programme, to make creative writing and literature more than just my interests, and for them to be part of the knowledge and skills essential for adult life.

go forth and multiply! [it] I really don't mind if you copy, because I wrote this in 15 mins, and it isn't meant to be award-winning, so. I am highly ashamed of myself because I was supposed to finish this yesterday and I'm only done with it after wasting time playing around on the internet. feel free to r&r.

Neverwhere review! (the bbc tv series)

Even though I've only watched a couple episodes from the first few episodes, I don't really like it. I think there's a dvd version of it somewhere, the cover of which neil gaiman was plugging, and I have a feeling he didn't really like the tv version. Even though I like neverwhere a lot, (hence the rereading) the tv version isn't very representative of the book. The user who posted it on youtube even said it was "short-lived".
Firstly, in the book Richard Mayhew is supposed to have a slight scottish accent, in the show it isn't just 'slight'; it's rather heavy, to the point where it sometimes becomes difficult to understand. Maybe it's just me, being not used to various british accents and all, but I think for the show to be accessible to a wider audience the actor playing Richard has to speak clearer.
I quite like the casting of Mr Croup, though, and his voice; he rolls his Rs! And is malevolent :D When I was reading the book I imagined croup and vandemar to sound like snape or morpheus (in the matrix, not sandman) and the guy play Mr. Croup sounds like that!
Though vandemar has the wrong clothes because he looks like someone from Law and Order, back in the 90s, with a white shirt and suspenders, of all things. Speaking of costumes, the Marquis has this cloak (okay) a white flappy shirt (okay) a glittery vest (passable) and khaki pants that look like ballet tights. First things first. Ballet tights are perfectly acceptable on dancers, and serve a functional purpose. But the Marquis doesn't dance, and so they do not have a functional purpose. [right. stupid argument.] I suppose the producers tried to go for the tudor tights-and-bloomers look, but it doesn't work out! I feel like the Marquis is going to do a grande jete any moment, and pirouette arrogantly around richard, who can neither dance nor act.
I think I'm quibbling. The tv series was first aired in 1996, and they had different fashion trends then (the person playing door wears biker boots) and probably different lighting trends then too. The lighting in the series looks over the top, with most of the croup/vandemar scenes in green, and angel islington scenes in red. Oh dear. maybe it's just the video quality. I wouldn't mind just listening to the audio part; it would do very well as an audiobook, thought that rather defeats the purpose of having a tv show.

I haven't been posting for a long time, and now I should be doing something else.

I suppose I should say where I went after the eoys, as everyone seems to be talking about that on their blogs. Nat, michele and I went to kino, yoshinoya, Wh, body shop, gramophone, and borders. There. Done. I said it.

That sounded unusually off-hand and arrogant. But I don't feel like recounting everything because it is tiresome. Lately I've been avoid all things that require physical exertion. I've also been sleeping a lot, moving slowly, and consuming vast amounts of junk, and therefore I am sloth-like. I'm spending half my time on the computer doing stupid things, looking for work to do, and putting it (the work) off. I should be getting my butt off the ground and doing my personal statement and corraling logs but no I'm currently made little or no progress on both of those things. I'm making myself more miserable as I write this. Miserable like wallowing-like-a-hippo miserable. Not that eoy results help, though.

I think I'm satisfied, but not happy with, bio, chem and chinese zuowen, but not much else. I don't think mum would be satisfied with anything, and there is a very high chance I would be retained. I should also spend my post-eoy time revising things, so I don't get too lost next year. I can't get lost next year because it's the last chance I'll get to shove/nudge/heave my gpa up. I think I said that at the beginning of this year too as well.

Ooh I’m using a mac and this is a neat font :D didot, I believe it’s called. Right now I’m supposed to be studying for bio so I’ll do the genetically modified food part now and then 10 year series and maybe math at home. Actually it would be more appropriate for me to do this on the class computer; it’s kind of impolite to do it here. I’m trying not to have to use the computer at home, because it usually ends up in me playing hcs or doing something just as counterproductive. Although right now is a good time to attack people on hcs, because most irritating players are having their exams now, i.e. the “fear me” people. So they’re terribly loaded and no one else is online to attack me, which makes it very convenient to… farm gold. As you can see, I’m pretty obsessed. And I shouldn’t be!

I think because I talk a lot about obscure [?} okay not obscure, it’s just that people in my school aren’t into these things. Right I have to finish my sentence. Relatively obscure books/ musicals/ movies etc, I come off as being geek. Wait no I think crying one’s eyes out for dobby’s death practically confers geek status. And sometimes people equate being geek to being hardworking… and I very sadly confess that I’m not. ): It’s kind of sad that a lot of people don’t read. Take for example, my sister. She refuses to read anything that I enjoyed as a kid and instead gravitates toward things like the princess diaries and other things in that genre. Though I’m being selfish here, because I cannot impose my choice of reading material onto my sister, because she likes biographies: think Chinese Cinderella, and I don’t.

I sound very horribly like someone else. I ALWAYS sound like someone else, without even trying >:( remember last year I said I subconsciously was writing like N.G., or maybe even charisse--now I’m writing the way someone talks. I don’t even have my own writing style! Or rather, blogging style. Some people say this happens most when you’re reading other people’s writing and come off sounding like the person you’re reading, just because you are so influenced by that person.
I don’t think I’ll have a conclusion today, or end it properly, because I didn’t write conclusions for lit and I feel kind of sad): I sound like a blue frog. Or the frog that is blue. It’s time to finish because I’ve reached the end of the page, what with the wide page borders. “So long, farewell, aufwiedersehn goodbye.” * cue music *

Someone is having a private-ish conversation in a not so private place. I will resist the temptation to earwig.

I don't know what to talk about. recently I don't know what's come over me. I don't think I'll pass physics. or math. or bio. oh dear. I shall have to be expelled, since the chances of me passing philo are kind of low too. And physics is the subject that many people pass. My gpa is out of sight already (the wrong way) and so now you can very clearly see I'm ranting. Everytime the eoys come around, I have this impending feeling of doom, but this time the feeling is so encompassing and it's worse than past years. But I think the best thing to do right now (so close to the exams) is to work really really hard, so today I will try not to fail lit tomorrow.

I was browsing through neil gaiman's blog, and it says he's with the bbc world service, recording anansi boys! I mean even though anansi boys wasn't his best novel, I am very much looking forward to listening to it :D Because it will be broadcast on the world service! i.e. in Singapore as well. Plus I hardly get the chance to listen to audio books; they're expensive and I don't have premium membership so I can't borrow them from the library. The use of excessive exclamation marks very clearly shows that I am excited; haha and plugging again. It says 17 november 07, so I'm marking that date on the calendar. ohoh and 17th nov is a saturday, so it most probably will the airing at around 4-5pm local time, because that's when they have BBC world drama on. So tune in to 88.9fm at 4pm on 17th november people, for anansi boys : )

I sound like an annoying tv ad.

hi :D oh and correction: harry cannot be compared to esther, primarily because one is female and the other male, and secondly, they both have wildly differeing personalities, so.

What would make for universal and interesting reading would be book reviews: I've read Foundation by Issac Asimov and I'm halfway through From the Dust Returned, by Ray Bradbury. And I've (only just -_-") discovered that From the Dust Returned is a novel version of the picture book, the Haunting. (which I talked about a few posts ago) They're due on friday though, so I think I'll return them and borrow them at a later date to finish. Plus there are ONLY 2 translated versions of the play Spring Awakening in the Reference Library (grr.) and that means I can't borrow them or anything, which also means I'll probably have to go there for a couple hours after the eoys to read it on the spot. I like the translated full-length plays! because the musical is kind of lacking in dialogue-- how much can you fit in 2-3 hours, what with all the songs and dramatic moritz monologues. But I'm just quibbling, because I wouldn't have liked it so much without the songs. The text plays explain a lot that is not said in the musical, and you get to analyse a bit, when you stare at the page for a while. Urgh I don't like fangirling on my own; you don't have anyone to argue with/ extol merits of various songs.

There's something very very pressing in my mind and I hate hate it and I want it to go away so I ignore it, but it refuses to wish itself off. It's not homework or anything academically-related, because those problems are MUCH easier to solve. (I did math filing yesterday!) Whining isn't a very good thing to do. I have also discovered that I am angsty, seeing from harry's characterisation in Underwater Light by maya. I should focus on the things most important (i.e. the eoys) and not on anemone problems, however prominent they are. Because! it is vital that I don't fail anything this time, or my gpa will be more screwed than it already is.

It's kind of quiet here, at not peak-ish hours. I like it when it's quiet because you don't have other people looking over your shoulder (actually this shouldn't matter because a blog is public anyway) or hovering over you, waiting to use the computer. I haven't been writing properly for ages, so maybe that's why my language is... somewhat different from what I was writing before. I'm using non-committal words! Which implies that I am non committal as well, which is NOT GOOD, and not what potential employers are looking for.

I feel so idealistic, thinking about employers and jobs. It's not like I'm going to be really efficient and send in my resume to everyone who doesn't ask for O levels, (quite a few, when I went to look) but it's just that I would like a WEP that I'm going to look for myself. You know what, if you knew me irl, you would know that I don't really mean what I said. No, scratch that. I mean what I say but I won't actually do it-- take the proposed potter party, for example. I have big stupid lofty ideas but not the exact plans to do them, you know. Which will ultimately be my downfall, though "The last enemy that shall be conquered is death." Okay that last quote was really random, and not very appropriate, but I just want to show off that I remember it. Haha that last statement was REALLY tactful. Tactful is the wrong word! but you kind of ish understand me, right?

This post is going nowhere, I just felt like blogging and I did it! Just like yingling, who feels like blogging every week or so, and does it. Only my posts aren't as enlightening or philosophical, and of course you know I fib a lot. Sometimes I think writing things down and recording things is very useful, because it helps me think through things slooowly, because when I think things out in my head I go from point A to B to F, and I skip a lot of things on the way as a result. I don't... think it thouroghly enough, or in depth, but I go very far in breadth, which resulted in comparing myself to wormtail, and harry to *cough*esther*cough*.

Today's post wasn't about anything in particular, and I am assured by the fact that orson scott card doesn't exactly keep on topic either, on the "Uncle Orson Reviews Everything" section on his website. Okay now a lot of the computers are occupied and I suppose I have to scram. Making the font size 6 prevents people from seeing what you are really doing, which is a great, but not foolproof thing for shared computers.

Actually I posted the last post on sept 7th, not monday sept 3rd--- I wrote the post on monday, switched the computer off, and thanks to blogger's amazing autosave, monday's post was saved and I didn't have to write an entirely new one on friday. (I think it was most likely really late thursday night)

anyway, people seem to be posting quite regularly, and I feel guilty. (that includes neil gaiman and Viva La Vegan) But! seeing as I never keep my promises, I don't think blogging more often will help. case in point: I promised to talk about endings and stuff in the last post, but after rigourous self-censorship, nothing has passed the test! Therefore there most likely won't be anything about things past, or maybe just a very little bit.
I can't believe I was in The Room today (for the very first time), and I just sat there, staring at everything, the floor even. I feel like such a naive idiot. This so clearly proves that I am a groupie, and that I overcomplicate things. Though most of the time talking things out helps (a lot!) and then you find you aren't the only one who frets. Thinking of it now, I think I should have seen the post coming. As in if one just uses his/her logic and powers of elimination, it kind-of-ish fits. I think yearmates expected it more that I did, although I must admit I was surprised (in a good way!) and had a slow reaction time.
Oh I remember now! I. am. so. wormtail. Think about the things we have in common! I swear I have mousey tendencies-- the voice, nose, personality. _watch for my betrayal, people._
Today is a space day. because I am writing in so incoherent sentences, I have no choice but to paragraph every sentence or two, because no two sentences connect. I mean, I don't think I am even thinking about the same thing when I start the sentence and end it. I was primarily inspired to blog today by yingling :D and one must have inspiration to blog! and so I did, and the rest is history! woot. as you can see, today I am merely crapping. The last paragraph was practically filler.
okay I must must fangirl about the producers! watch it on youtube! "Springtime for Hitler in Germany, winter in Poland and France!" "if you've got it, flaunt it" "we can do it" ooh yayness.

yay okay my keyboard works now :D turns out that the batteries I was using were the used ones -_-"

right. in relation to saturday, don't read what I said the wrong way-- I mean it in a good way. Okay not "good" but a positive way. Do you get what I mean? I think I should just not say anything out here because... everybody's been through it/ going to go through it sooner or later (it depends who you are) and the people whom I need to say things to don't have to resort to reading it here; not that I'll stop saying things here, just that [this is understood!] I'll self-censor more. And also because everyone else is more or less using their common sense, and only saying what needs to be said.

Let's talk about something interesting! i.e. my sniffles. Last thursday I had a sore throat. I hate that part of getting sick because you feel a lot of discomfort when you swallow and somehow it gets worse if the weather is warm. On friday it got really sunny and hot, so I got very warm but didn't sweat and felt feverish (and delirious) On friday night I was really considering not going for pop, heh. But I went! With more than a couple panadols. Being in a sniffy, clogged up, and head-in-the-clouds state does not do anything for your level of alertness= a really dense me. Today it didn't really get any better and I had to skip math clinic-- which I wish I wouldn't have skipped because my math gpa is practically at a sub-zero level.



Spring Awakening! I especially like [Left Behind]. It was sung at moritz's funeral, where moritz was an angst-ridden teen who committed suicide. Spring Awakening freely explores the timeless theme of teenage angst, showcasing reality in its most raw form. Adapted from a book written in 1891, it clearly shows that the tumultuous emotions that youth today feel are not just a product of media influences in the 21st century, but a product of truths one discovers along the road to self-discovery. oh, and its themes are similar to the ones in The Virgin Suicides, a book and movie which I reviewed last year.
It's currently on at the Eugene O'Neil theatre on Broadway, and has plans to start a US national tour in Fall 2008. The producers also have intentions of launching productions in London, Tel Aviv, Germany, Austria, Sydney, Spain, Japan, the Netherlands, and South Korea. The London and Sydney productions will open in 2008. So. for me to watch a live performance asap, I have to go to London or Sydney next year, or the US national tour. I've watched the entire thing already on myspacetv, but there is NOTHING like watching a musical live. rawr. maybe if I go to Sydney I'll go watch phantom too and see if anthony warhol is as good as cat extols. But it would be even better if it could go on an international tour and I could fangirl with people in person, instead of trying to squee with people living on the other side of the earth, and waiting an entire day for their responses because of the stupid time differences. I've been trying to get people to watch it on youtube/ myspacetv, but it hasn't been catching on. ): (probably because fangirling about musicals is such a geek thing to do.)


I think I'll talk about chalet and related things tomorrow because I need to ruminate, and do what sihui calls emo-ing.

I have something to say! Something revolutionary! Something which has never been disclosed to the public! Something to do with onions, dartboards, and meerkats!

Unfortunately, this is not the place to say it, and probably not mine to say. HAHA. *compares self with rita skeeter* Speaking of Skeeter, life would be a hell of a lot easier if I were as thick-skinned as she is. Then I wouldn't wallow, be poseur-goth or immature. For some reason a part of me thinks I just put the opening paragraph there to make people read this potentially long-winded post, because everyone knows deep inside what I am going to say anyway, and would believe it better if it came from the mouth of a different person.

sorry my keyboard died --i'm using the onscreen one--will continue with working keyboard

more than two weeks since I've last posted! I should do this more regularly. I think I promised a lot (book reviews, etc) haha so I suppose I have to pay my debts.

oh recently I've read The Illustrated Man by Ray Bradbury, and it's good! I mean I've never read ray bradbury before, despite the fact that many writers strongly recommend it. It's generally a collection of short stories in the SF genre, (squee!) written in the 1950s. It's interesting to see what people think would happen 50 years in the future, 50 years ago. I am kind of attached to fiction written/ set in the late 20th century, because it's sometimes kind of romantic [in the frankenstein way] and carries a sense of nostalgia. Things happened more slowly then, without the conveniences of the internet and mobile phones. Although I technically can't feel nostalgic about things that happened before the 90s because I wasn't born then, there is a greater sense of relation and identity than novels set in today's context.
And then I found out that Dave Mckean[sp?] did a collaboration with Ray Bradbury to illustrate The Homecoming, which got my stamp of approval(: Dave did lots of collaborations with Neil Gaiman in writing the Sandman series, the cover illustration for Coraline, the movie Mirrormask and the children's book, The Wolves in the Walls. The Homecoming is meant for children, yet is dark and beautifully haunting. The blurb goes so far as to call it whimsical; but I prefer to be cool and say it's gothic. XD (it does have gothic elements)

"And my junk is you" -Thea, from Spring Awakening

I would be lying if I said I wasn't emo after that. I am making this an issue! which is bad bad bad but I can't help it. I think some people are taking it very well. Yeah I agree with yingling in the sense that not everyone can be a good actor. (me included) Tomorrow is our first training without the ma'ams, and for some reason it has only sunk in now, partly because last week was kind of stressy, what with chem, math and all. I have a feeling it'll be kind of shaky at first but of course yearmates we can do it! Though it'll be weird not to see the ma'ams at training.

Outbursts are terribly inconvenient that they come at times when you most not want them to come, and when you will them to come it doesn't last very long. Usually I skim through blogposts (I wish I could do that with frankenstein) so hopefully other people will do the same. I don't want to overanalyse things because sometimes it can be emotionally tiring and provoke an unintended flood. Observe that all these sentences are not connected or even remotely linked; no wonder no one comes to drop by, but I'm not complaining- I like the benefits that come out of a not-so-promiscuous blog. No really I'm not being sarcastic-- it kind of means that I have the liberty to write more heh. As in say things I wouldn't normally say if it weren't more public. Although I should still be on my guard and know that something posted on the internet is accessible to anyone that wants to come and not leave a mark.

I think today I'm just posting for the sake of doing so; listening to mugglecast's second book 7 discussion (!) and pottercast's first discussion as well. I can't get enough of discussion! because people in school are kind of tired of it/ getting tired of my fangirling XD / have too much work on their plate (I should do something about my mountain of work actually) I like amy winehouse by the way, she has an amazing voice and a old-school style not unlike nat king cole (she's influenced by tony bennett, who sounds like nat king cole) and isn't afraid to not sound like other artistes her age.

It's been a long time-- 12 days! since the last post. I have so many things to talk about. but probably I'll end up talking about none of them and doing a dumpy plugging post on the latest book/ movie [insert pop culture offering] I haven't been posting lately because of cac and the stupid last minute things; most of the time I spent on the computer was on chempt/ editing other people's things/ my things.

Firstly, a press release! not that it would need one, of course. More like an official statement. Because when something happens I go blogsurfing to see what other people thought, you know. So, I'm of course disappointed and I'm really sorry to let all of you down. I know I should have done better; should have worked earlier, made eye contact, but what's done is done, and I'm trying to do a post mortem of it all. (like what some people did; trying to stare down the poster and someone's comics XD) but yeah it's important to do it when things are fresh. I feel kind of liberated, actually, and after wallowing a little it's not so bad. And don't blame yourself when it isn't really your fault. (I'm talking to you, not myself XD)
On a lighter note, I got to say hi to some people! and scope out the standards; things we're up against; also had some experience with my self-discipline (or lack thereof) and persuasive editing. also... human relations haha. and learnt from the juniors as well. I don't think this will have any significance, though, but someone links me, so. I mean if you want more specifically feel free to comment/ tag /email :D
Plus I got to know people better through it all; thanks to everyone for supporting and helping in any way(:

today I will be filling this space with... rambly things!
I think our year should spread the load a little? Actually yeah we've tried to do that already- but based on our numbers I think the load will be easier. Although due to my position what I'm saying or whatever I put here, won't relatively have much weight. Honestly that also leaves for less self- censorship but of course I should be mindful on what I put here because anyone can read it. Today I went rather dr phil on some people, reading too much into what is to come and I think I dug a little too deep into the emotional black hole. This comes from being hypersensitive and reading too much Frankenstein, where shelly gets exhaustingly poetic, and where victor can rant emo-ly for almost one chapter... but I digress. We have vowed to improve relationships with the jellybeans and I hope that will go well because it is vital to have trust on both sides and not witch.

okay the spicegirls!


OotP review continued! right lets skip skip skip to the part right at the end- you know when harry asks luna about sirius? and when luna is putting up lost notices? and then luna says something along the lines of- "things you have lost may turn up when you least expect them" ( I forgot the exact quote) but she was saying that as a metaphor to her lost shoes/items but also as a reference to sirius, because harry was, at that point, highly distraught about his death. But but at the end of the 5th book it doesn't play out that way, with luna saying that they (her mother and sirius) were just hidden behind the veil, with an implication that they would return. In both scenes, there are ideas that sirius is still alive in some form, although coming back as the form of a ghost would be highly unlikely, when we see harry talking to nearly headless nick at the end of book 5. In the movie, though, the implication that sirius would return is more certain, possibly to enlighten movie-goers who haven't read the books, but also, could it be a subtle hint as to which character gets a reprieve in book 7? Because if they put this teaser scene in the end, might it be significant in later books/movies? (Pirates of the Caribbean 3, anyone?)

Oh and in the scene where sirius dies, do you remember bellatrix saying 'avada kedavra' and then sirius falls over? If you didn't know what avada kedavra meant (i.e. the unenlightened movie-goer) you wouldn't have known sirius was about to die or have understood the gravity of the situation, but probably when harry starts to yell hysterically you know. But in the time frame between sirius getting hit by the curse and harry yelling, you think sirius was just hit by a normal spell that is reversible, because in movies, (especially fantasy children ones), everything becomes right in the end. I think this is very good for people, because it then encourages them to read the book :D and be enlightened.

I was also quite mad when they didn't blow up the huge ministry of magic statue. After they spent so long doing a pan of it when harry goes for his hearing, you might have thought it would become significant later in the movie, but noooo the blowing up doesn't happen, only the glass tiles shatter and harry gets covered in dust- not as dramatic as I had hoped. I mean the statue is symbolic of racial equality in the books, because the magical beings are all looking adoringly at the wizard in the middle, because some wizards think they are better-off than half-bloods. This would add so much more depth and significance to the movie as this prejudice mirrors the prejudice we have today, and is, in a way, a political comment. *end review*

p.s. please don't spoil me before the 21st!

I watched it!!! though spoilers abound so I'll make it highlightable below, but because I have these irritating blue curly things I have to bump the review down so that people who haven't watched it don't spoil themselves by accident. In the meantime, I'll entertain you with some moderately emo stuff.

cac is in two weeks! *panics* we have made... moderate, though very slow, progress. We've done the content to put on the poster, but not the poster itself. The poster is the most most important thing because if we don't have anything to show for our efforts, they won't have anything to mark. I mean if you look at the fa people, they're (kind of) worried and they're 5 weeks away from the real thing, but obviously it's different skills they're working on and it's a different kind of panic but still I think I should have greater progress. haha I'm being obnoxious, not mentioning yingling and khaingzin but they're yeah working hard as well. (this sounds like an afterthought) and we've heard a little from other schools too.

Review!! *Spoiler Alert* yeah I watched it :DD haha repetition for emphasis. I likedliked what David Yates (the director) did with the opening scene; it was so big picture and different from other opening scenes and artsy (a little) and epic;- remember harry playing with his wand under the covers? (okay that sounds wrong) But yeah it was macro to micro when previously it was micro to macro.
The dementor thing was good(: and harry's surprise that mrs figg was a squib was played out fairly well. BUT I was kind of miffed they didn't put dumbledore's howler to petunia in it, though it couldn't have taken more than 3 mins [?] or so to develop that plotline and the connection, because it is so vital that the movie-goer realises that petunia isn't as ignorant or one-sided as she seems. Rawr. I mean if they really didn't have time, they could take away the small "harry being emo" part on the hogwarts express which is so useless. As in we already know harry is angsty and mad and all, you don't have to emphasise it so much; and harry isn't the only one being frustrated either- look at ron and hermione. *end of spoiler*
It's getting late, will probably post more later. (I usually don't keep this promise)

I've been reading The Curious Incident of the WMD In Iraq, and it's a parody of Mark Haddon's A Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time. It's like the british version of the farenheit 9/11 reader, featuring tony blair. It's a much more enjoyable and easier read than the Farenheit 9/11 reader, with the book structured like a novel, with a rising action, conflict, climax and all. (though it might seem a far stretch to some) I also like the humor in the book, which is british-y and mostly centres on the assumption that tony blair is stupid. (like christopher in A Curious Incident) So actually the jokes aren't that witty, but the author references a lot of songs, not all which I know about.

I went to look for this song that tony was supposed to have listened to in his youth- he was in a band- it's called Smoke on the Water by Deep Purple. It's very old-school, the kind of rock featured in the School of Rock, and mr m izar played the guitar bit on the last day of school last year. haha 210 people might/might not remember this. We also sat in a circle and sang avril lavinge and backstreet boys, if that jogs your memory. (how embarrassing for me to mention all this) /end digression.

It's been some time since I last posted. I mean I didn't even notice a month passed. I suppose that's because I've been rather apathetic these few days. Today I went home with nothing to do, since I quit german (my grades, duh) and I was/ am feeling bored. Even though technically I'm supposed to spend this time getting my grades up, and being on top, but how much more on top can you get? Not that I'm really on top but I think when I had things on I had more motivation to do homework, and now it's like- can I have something to do? Actually I should really pick up tips from felicia and mug, say chinese, over twice or something. That would really make a difference. Actually though really the point is for me to plan my afternoons properly, now I've got all this spare time, because a lot of times I find myself thinking of what to do next.

I have nothing to talk about, because I have blocked all thoughts from permeating and distracting me. Usually when I have nothing to do I burst into "What is this Feeling?" out of tune, and irritate cat, who's sitting beside me, or whoever happens to be around me at that time. I like wicked and it's songs- I've almost got the lyrics down pat. Though my initial thoughts right after I saw it were that wicked was very... shallow, and its plot was weak in some places, and was a tad cliched. But of course I was converted by nat, crystal and chanel, who were squealing all about it right after and who can resist fangirling?! Although deep down I still feel wicked has a larger fanbase than phantom purely becase it is more accessible and american. [elitist!] Though when you think carefully, most musicals don't have a lot of depth. (how much depth can you fit in 3 hours?) They have great songs though, and dancing. I read the programme (yes I have it! squee) and it says the dancing in wicked was choreographed by a tap person. They weren't as technical as compared to phantom, or say, chicago, but very showy and dramatic. I mean very appropriate for wicked, what with green elphaba and all. And its props are the best of all the theater things I've seen, with the gears and trapdoor and the part in "Defying Gravity" where elphaba is raised by a harness. Before watching wicked I thought it was a rather low-profile musical (a huge understatement!) and nothing to yell about but "I have been changed for good!" ohoh and Oliver Tompsett is a much better Fiyero than Adam Garcia (who was incidentally in Cyote Ugly), as seen from the vids on youtube. Though I was sad that I didn't get to see Kerry Ellis as Elphaba ):

ohoh I can compare this for english but I am spending too much time on the computer, and might post later/ in a long time

HI. you must thank oh great cat for motivating me to blog. XD because I was saying she wasn't updating, and then she said I don't update very often myself. (yeah you might notice I never usually do successive posts.)

I want want want to watch hellboy 2!!!! *fangirls* Guillermo del Toro and Guillermo Navarro are working on it, and they worked on pan's labyrinth! (which is rated >:( but I watched on the flight to wales :D) I mean I've seen shots of the set on neilgaiman's blog, and the style/ makeup is so much like the faun in pan's labyrinth! And I loved the cinematography and art on pan's labyrinth, so I'm kind of expecting something similar in hellboy 2. Even though it's rated, you MUST go watch it by whatever means possible, because the story is so invoking, and yet has gothic features, plus the emotion of Ivana Baquero, who plays the protagonist is so real and tangible that I was so moved and almost cried, only mrs [P] rama was having her breakfast right beside me. I know pan's labyrinth is so last year, but it's still good and won 3 academy awards anyway, and therefore is definitely worth watching.

I envy maddie, neilgaiman's daughter: she gets to go to premires, visit sets, get previews of whatever he's writing, and maybe is even his muse! (as seen in the afterword of one of the sandmans) she's guest blogger now, and is so cute and funny- I hope she gets to write when she gets older; she's only 13 this year and incredibly lucky.

hi uh because I haven't updated for at least a week plus now, I suppose I have a duty to post, like when I set up his blog, I had the responsibility to post. osc says family first so uh you had the kid, you are primarily the kid's parent above everything else and you have a responsibility to your child. The above analogies are not interchangeable by the way, I mean, if you happened to be thinking so. I just put it down because I happened to think of it and now I really think that this is the worst way to start a blogpost but an absolute space-filler.

I am back from camp! Which was fun and made me think a lot. I mean a whole lot. And I went home and thought and thought and thought until dinner and didn't write anything down. -.-' I mean when you think you tend to think of things that relate to each other right, so say you think of school you think of homework and the next thing you know you are thinking of... something entirely unrelated. And I am a person that gets distracted easily, so I didn't really reflect on depth but breadth, which is not my objective at all. I am trying to think of more important things and give not so important things (relatively) like the bombshell that dropped (from heaven/hell I don't know) less attention. I am very appreciative and greatful for the fact that the ma'ams made the effort to make it fufilling for all of us, so thank you :D But the most important thing is to keep it going, and not let go/ forget/ give up halfway there, if you know what I mean. But being a terribly idealistic poetic person, some more sensible and down to earth people might think otherwise, and I will not fault you for making an incredibly sane opinion.

This is just to rant, so smart people will skip this paragraph and go straight to the next one, which is of a more pleasurable nature. BAH I absolutely have to make myself get a better gpa next semester or I will be skinned alive by the teachers, my tuition teachers or my mother, whoever sees me first. Of course the ideal solution is to lock myself in a room so that no one sees me, but then I would run out of things to read or surfaces to scrawl on, and will perish silently. I have so many things to doooo. and deadlines to meet and people to make happy, though I realise I really have nothing to complain about when I see other people, so I should sit quietly and finish whatever I have to do so I can watch ootp and read deathly hallows without guilt, and without wallowing like a fat hippo in the mudpool of self-pity.

oh wales. Things I thought about away from the computer.

Mr l c p: mind the gap! (neverwhere reference)
crystal/me: squee!
mr L: good omens!
crystal/me: double squee!
nat: *rolls eyes*
Mr L: klingon!!
someone: my dad watched star trek.
Mr L: naruto!
chanel: *screams* (she ships Mr L/ DS by the way, both bio teachers with initials)

Ms t b c: Aren't you glad we watched wicked instead of avenue q or equus?
me: (in a presumably low voice, muttering) BUTbut equus is!! (you actually considered equus?! and failed to choose it?!)
Ms T: yes, nicole?
charisse: *giggles* YES nicole?
me: um yeah uh wicked was good. definitely. [BUT not as good as equus could have been!]

The above is... clique-ish, geeky, and cheese.

Being at home is really getting to me. After two whole weeks of being surrounded by tons of people, staying at home alone with no one to talk to is VERY boring. Actually, I should get a move on with my work, since after this week, I'm not going to be very free. You know when you really have nothing to do when you start planning your day around what is on tv- there's CSI today :D
I kind of miss big brother on uk tv- it practically showed every day, and people followed it fairly closely, judging by the amount of coverage it received by trashy newspapers. I have also very sadly found out that I had spent only half of the money I brought, and could have bought more stuff >:( like um the gap shoes! or the primark things that were so incredibly cheap: 2 pounds for a pair of sunglasses, 7 for shoes- about $6 and $21 respectively. I shouldn't be judging the worth of my trip by the amount of things I bought though, but by the experiences I had. And sometimes I feel I spent my time thinking about the wrong things, and so I remember those things, but not the valuable bits. For example, in dalefort, I was mulling over stupid stupid witching (what do you get when you put 39 hormonal females together 24/7? much like big brother, in a way.) and making them into issues of loyalty and assertiveness - but what are the chances of working with these people again anyway? And the teachers could see quite plainly through our petty rivalries and very sensibly not make it an issue. I suppose these things happen quite often on overseas trips and to not carry it over to school life is a smart thing to do.

I'm back! (and missing wales LOADS)

Chanel very nicely sent me the wicked soundtrack and I want very much to start listening to it now but my sister has the radio turned up ): I have the uncontrollable urge to sing along!! "No one mourns the wicked..." "Loathing, unadulterated Loathing" and then very soon the fangirl squeals will start. I MISS FANGIRLING, something we weren't short of on the trip. Though we mostly stuck to our cliques during the fieldtrip, we still got to know each other to some extent.
I absolutely hate singaporean weather. When I came back, it was so incredibly humid and warm- 30 degrees, imagine! I wouldn't have minded trading windsor weather for muggy tropical afternoons, although the warmth is condusive for growth- it turns out we have a much greater variety of species in mangroves than on the welsh saltmarshes.
Back to fangirling, in london especially, we talked about good omens and neverwhere- "mind the gap" and fed ducks in hyde park (not st. james', sadly) And I bet you never knew mr l i m cp liked neil gaiman. (but him liking star trek isn't that surprising)

now that it's over, I have math, english, and chinese pt waiting, not forgetting c a c things D: But I have a nat king cole tape to keep me sane and nostalgic. though I technically am too young to be nostalgic about the 1960s.

first things first: JORDIN WON! Finally, an american idol I am satisfied with. (although I think doolittle shouldn't have been voted out) I knew during career ed (a free block), an hour after the show was over :D because wencen was nice and went to find out when physics pt-ing. I liked blake when he did the maroon 5 thing though, partly because I like that song so much and I liked to see it not mangled. In my personal opinion, the guys were not as good as the girls this time, because I was gunning for stephanie or geena to get into the finals, but not phil or sanjaya to get so far. OSC doesn't like the whole idea of american idol though :/ he thinks it is a very commercial thing and the contestant with gimmicks and is popular gets to win, but not the contestant with the best voice. He also didn't like what the record companies did with mcphee's album because they made it sound very pop-ish, copying from artistes with the highest record sales, resulting in her not sounding anything like herself on american idol. -think 'somewhere over the rainbow'

secondly, my mum and sister just left for my sister's school trip, which reminded me to pack early (i.e. today/tomorrow) for wales because they found out at the last minute that the luggage couldn't close properly and had to switch their stuff to a new one. I will miss them, because my sister isn't coming back for 12 days and I won't see them until after wales. They left at 10.40, and they were supposed to be at the airport at 11, which also reminds me not to pack last-minute and make sure everything is ready, which I very rarely do X) but if I don't the consequences will be mine (and a lot of other peoples') to bear, so.

Trying trying very hard to be focused and work on physics so that it can pull the unsatisfactory mya mark up. Will probably post tomorrow so that I have a lot for you to chew on as I won't be posting very much when I'm in wales- we only have internet connection for the first 6-7 days I think, so maybe I can post then.

Osc: If you're a Harry Potter fanatic -- and what sensible reader isn't? -- you might enjoy The Great Snape Debate, a book that can only be purchased at Borders.

I'm going to buy that asap, and I am very happy that osc supports jo. :D :D all the more you should like harry potter.

Today I will plug plug plug since my life is kind of dumpy right now, and not very interesting.

I ship bean/petra!=pean?[ew.] or betra [odd.] it is so incredibly sweet, and a lot like the canon pairing harry/ginny. Though I think not many osc fans ship pairings because the books are quite plot-based, and one tends to focus on the themes and major issues at hand. And bean/petra have weathered many hardships together and they are the only people that genuinely understand each other, just like in Kathy/Tommy in Never let Me Go. (you should read that) Sometimes I find it surprising that osc can write fairly good fluff, since most of the Worthing Saga was smut, and the fact that he is a guy. (okay I'm stereotyping) So I'm kind of on Shadow Puppets right now, after a short break from osc because his stuff are quite intense and sometimes emotional, and after reading one, you feel a little drained and in great awe-- this 'whoa' sense like after you've been though a 360 degree roller coaster.

= I am very happy that blogger automatically saves posts now, so that my long lovely posts don't get accidentally deleted.=

I read in Two Caravans that chickens are bred in masses, and they are housed in a large warehouse-type thing (illegal, of course, but cheaper for major supermarkets) the lights are turned on 24/7 so they don't sleep and continue feeding all the time, making them nice and plump for human consumption. The food they have is nutrition-rich, making them weigh more and sell for a higher price. In the crowded space they are in, they are packed shoulder to shoulder, such that they can only waddle a little and shove their way to the feeding tubes. As a result, they have little or no physical exercise and underdeveloped muscles, with brittle bones. This makes them all the more easier to catch them and stuff them, sometimes on top of each other, into crates for transportation. Feeding on large quantities of food results in them producing great amounts of excrement. Because they are packed so tightly within these warehouses, the excrement forms a layer on the floor, and the birds have to wade through it as when one cleans the warehouse, one has to first remove all the chickens. During their short lifespan of five weeks, they live in these unsanitary conditions but do not fall ill because of medicines in their food supply.
One can only imagine how other livestock are treated, just to supply the needs of human demand and excessive consumption. The fishing industry is also not spared because most companies fish from unsustainable sources, and the fish are killed at increasingly younger ages to meet worldwide demand. Their short lifespans only allow them to grow to a certain weight before they are harvested. These are one of the reasons I chose to go veggie, and perhaps you should consider changing your diet to save your environment. Having one less meat product every week may not seem much to you, but if done on a large scale, the demand for animal products may eventually decrease and the overwhelming amounts of natural resources used to sustain these industries may decrease as well. For more information, go to The PB&J Campaign.

its been what, three weeks? an mya hiatus, even though I've been spending lots of time online anyway. I did really badly ): rawr though it was expected due to my lack of effort. I haven't told my parents yet, though I plan to do so today, to get it over and done with. I think my mum would ground me for the rest of my life, till I'm thirty. This is exaggerating but I think she doesn't really expect this, explaining the serious punishment. I sound/feel kind of apathetic about the news though, I think mainly because it has happened so many times, and if I start to bawl over it, it wouldn't help because it would make me feel in more of a funk, and less motivated to start working again. (what mum would get me to do when she knows) Anyway, I did my cranky blubbering yesterday already, perhaps on a subconcious hunch that my results would be so bad. I saw a lot of people blubbering today and I distract myself by going to study german or reading my caravan book, primarily because I've been rather touchy lately and hypersensitive, i.e. prone to psyching myself into thinking blubbering would make me feel which I'm trying to correct. (I have no idea how)

On a lighter note, I've read three sandman graphic novels, Never Let Me Go or Alles, was wir geben mussten (translated, it means 'we must give everything'), Shadow of the Hegemon and In the Time of the Butterflies. I think I won't review the sandman ones, because I can't remember enough to review it >< but I especially liked a midsummer night's dream's neil gaiman's puck in dream country, I think, the one with the trio of short stories

This is is a long review I wrote on paper, and it made me very happy(: p.s. read ender's shadow first before you read this review or risk getting spoiled!
Ender's Shadow by Orson Scott Card
This is one of the few books that I have read that gave me the need to cry. (besides the time sirius feel through the veil) OSC writes from bean's point of view when telling the tale of ender's game, and so there is added suspense because you know what is going to happen. Bean's impoverished childhood makes him emotionally detached, but when he gets to battle school and know more about ender, he almost emaluates him through bean's idolatry. Bean's hunger for and ability to gather information results in him probing into the battle school system, and being able to log in as a teacher. However, he did not play the mind game, and so did not allow Jane to make a philotic connection with him, unlike ender did, and so the teacher know less of his personality. (refer to Xenoxide)
Ender has more emotional understanding than bean, having elements of Valentine's character. Ender is therefore better at leadership and has more likeability than bean, and also had more friends than bean. It comes not as a surprise that ender is chosen to be commmander of Dragon Army, and eventually commander of the fleet sent to extinguish the buggers. Bean is sharper and more intelligent than any of the soldiers, despite being the youngest, and this allows him to grasp new concepts quickly but still have time left over to study earth's political situation and discover locke and demesthothenes, peter and valentine wiggin. It is therefore almost natural that bean was ender's backup, ahould anything have gone wrong, and he also took the role of watching out for other players but still continued to execute ender's strategies when he was occupied.
Bean has the courage and determination to seem brave, despite knowing that the fleet sent to kill the buggers was real, and not just computer graphics on a screen. It made the xenocide all the more chilling, knowing this, with the added emotional attachment, knowing that the fleet was composed of real soldiers being led to their sacrificial deaths by a bunch of children. Towards the end, Bean senses Ender's disppointment and exhaustion, although he doesn't feel it himself. I admire bean for his tenacity and determination to get over his shortcomings, like his size and age, or losing it when he gets nervous (haha a lot like me), making the most of what he has and trying to help and support ender in any way.
Although it felt a little bad-fic-ish in the middle, when OSC was filling up battle school plot gaps, because it sounded very repetitive, this book complements Ender's Game very nicely, especially if you have read Speaker of the Dead or Xenocide. You also get to know why ender is able to develop a philotic connection with the sole surviving bugger queen in this book. I like OSC because he gives a lot of backstory, the kind of thing you look for in fics, just that this is written by the author himself and so is 100% official, and so ruthlessly destroys bad theories. There is MORE backstory in Shadow of the Hegemon, which is sitting very nicely in the school library, a 30-second walk from my classroom :D, just that I'm reading Neil Gaiman's The Sandman Dream Country now, and was reading bio pt things before and the book day book is next in line.

Sometimes I think that the only thing I am good at is reading books and then plugging them incessantly until I get to the next one, so I'll probably be a freelance writer and plug books/ movies/ theater for people, since working at the ST doesn't really appeal to me. Mum wouldn't be thrilled at this proposition though; she would like me to have a 'professional' job like medicine/ engineering/ architecture/ law etc, not some wishy washy sociology/ anthropology major- what I have my eyes on.

snarry games <33>< color="#009900">not very comforting for someone who is snarry-hungry, or would die if snarry wasn't administered in five minutes. Some people though, think snarry is wrong, especially oh great cat, wencen and siling. They ship drarry and d/Hr, which I appreciate as well, but there aren't drarry games or d/hr games, are there? XD Sadly, I've read one of the wartime ones, and I think it was overly dramatic and was not sufficiently clear, even though the comment-writers said it "gave them goosebumps". Maybe I should try the post-war ones.

eois are looming on the horizon, and that means less computer time, less reading, more mugging till your nose is shiny and your shoulders ache. I think I should have purpose. and be more discipined, by planning systematically and with sufficient self-control. I have lots of reading to do for bio pt, and I hate hate hate the language it comes in because I have to read every sentence twice, being the dense, slow reader I am. Unlike geeru, who can finish two terry prachetts in a day. Although terry prachetts are entirely different things altogether, I fell I lack the self-motivation to read about creationism than to reach for ender's shadow. [which explains a lot about leadership and the Cretaceous Whale Fish and the Greater Lemur Knut, but more in another post]

For the wales trip, I almost thought that you couldn't bring anything but a ziplock bag with you on the plane for all inbound flights to heathrow, (jkr was almost separated from her manuscript) but I just checked, and the restrictions are similar to the US ones, and they allow large hand baggage but you have to put all liquids in a pint-sized ziplock bag, with no bottle >100ml. *whew* I can occupy myself properly. The restrictions are very amusing: "Allowed: wedding cake, hat box, wedding dress" and the faq too: "I would also like to know what checks you make on all the staff working at the airport - how do you know there are no terrorists working in security? Or smuggling bombs on planes via the food that is put onto the planes?" I sound very free.

Went to do FA duty on Saturday for wrcd, and I very smartly forgot to bring my shorts, and ended up walking around with a very, um, transparent uniform ><>.<

read neil gaiman's a game of you, instalment 5 of the sandman series. However, it was a little disappointing because the story wasn't long/developed enough for me, and it left me wanting more details and background. But you can only fit so much into a graphic novel, so. Plus I think I have understood this book better than the rest I have read, and it wasn't as scary or violent as the other ones. I sound childish and wussy, but the last one I read (book 1 I think) was so haunting that it put me off sadman for a while. Tried to introduce sandman to shinyi and sarah, and I think they were a little into it for the first few pages, but the graphic-ness wasn't for them. It is also fairly diffcult to read in school without someone(a teacher ) peering over your shoulder and recommending you to the school shrink. Interestingly, I have a feeling that it would be perfectly acceptable for boys of my age to read this kind of thing :/ Though people in my school read animae, which is also graphic but rated nc-16, I think sandman would be rated R(A) because of nudity and violence. I shouldn't focus much on the ratings, and should focus more on the plot and things, which made me want to read it in the first place.

I am selfish, irritable, cranky, inconsiderate, self-centred, and in desperate need of anger management. I also felt like heaving this morning, and tended to scream at people more than usual.

I was thinking of having a harry potter release party either on the day itself (July 21st) where everyone gathers with coffee and cookies to read and then mass review after, or a pre-party a week before (July 13th) to coincide with the movie and to discuss theories or do readings (reading aloud of the various books in the series). Since most of the release parties are organised by major bookstores, and there is no harrypotter-fan community in Singapore that I know of, (I have no parties to go to!) it would be nice if I could do my own. If enough people are interested, we could even hold it in school or something- a bigger area for more people. (I wish!) In the meantime, it would be nice if people could second me on the ideas, or say which party they prefer. I 'll also be on the hunt for any singaporean fanbases, so see if they have anything planned. If nobody is really interested, the least I could do is a small gathering with people like sihui, siling, chele, geeru, charisse, crystal and other fans. Mugglenet is probably doing parties and even a tour (in the US D:) haha so I feel pretty left out.

AHHH!!!!!!111 I just wrote a very nice What will Happen in Harry Potter 7? review and internet explorer hanged and so it is all gone)): Note to self: always always save reviews at regular intervals. Anyway, in short, everyone has to go buy it. I mean it is absolutely imperative that you go buy it, because it has in-depth analysis of all the 6 books so far, suggesting what they think might happen in deathly hallows. And the sunday times review has not done justice to it AT ALL, because it is not written from a theorists' point of view. *is being elitist* Oh and don't worry about it spoiling you, because they only put what is most likely to happen from the evidence of what we've seen in the books, and we might not know if jkr will pull a dumbledore on us again. Plus it has already been proved wrong in predicting deathly hallows' release date, and therefore enlightens you to what is most plausible and gives you a little heads up on what to expect. Please please buy it from kino at $23.40, and support Mugglenet to let the great people there do their thing! *plugs* You can borrow it from me if you want a look((:

You know honestly I was very scared that we wouldn't win for ttime, because all the other schools were so good, and then jane had to call before they performed XD so I didn't know how/ what to say so that they would feel confident and smile and things. [this sounds like I don't think my year is good enough lol but just that the other people sounded as good as them] And I tried to be honest in the nicest way possible. Anyway, the most important thing is that our unit won both for song and dance, which proves the power of belief!(and really hard work!) I was really impressed by scrcy's tap-like thing they did though; they were very good technically, and with all the costumes and props, it stood out from other performances. I was sorry I missed dinner and all the crazy things yearmates were up to ): but it was very fun yelling my head off when the results were announced, and eating the juniors' cookies- I'll make vegan cupcakes the next time (I think/ hope/ wish) and be a groupie.

This is fustrating. Last night, right after phantom, I wrote a review and stupid blogger has deleted it): this is the first time it has happened to me, however, and the last few times the 'recover post' button has worked very well. Actually if I had a nice long review I should have been sensible and saved it as a word document.

Phantom was really really fun XD I saw cat and wencen, and they must have enjoyed it as much as I did. I sat right up in the first row and so I got to see everything close up, even the actors' expressions and acting and everything. Brad Little was brilliant as Eric/ Phantom; I liked his singing and this is the first time that I couldn't wait for him to get onstage. Rebecca Pitcher was, so far, the best Christine I've seen, I LOVED 'point of no return' and she's a lot better singer than emmy rossum, though emmy is a better actor. There was a live orchestra and they were great too- the conductor did a magnificent job, considering I sat right next to first violin.

The only downside was that I couldn't see the dancers' footwork because the stage was slightly elevated despite having watched the ballet all though the first "angel of music", but obviously in this case I shouldn't have such high expectations because the focus is on the musical, not the ballet. Not many people gave standing ovations, though, when they were so clearly due. X) I think because it's the first night, the tickets are usually given to the sponsor companies and the ticketholders get the ticket for free. Therefore the people are not big big fans and only go because they don't have to pay for it. I think that after this time, though, they will get to appreciate phantom more and maybe go for similar performances.

I'm at school now, waiting for yearmates to get ready for talentime. I really shouldn't be using the computer so this is goodbye.

so. This is my 100th post! I can practically hear the brass trumpets. In commemoration of this monumental event, I will put up an extra long ramble for you to mull over.

ecamp
I have to say it, and on here so I will remember and I won't lose it or anything.
I messed up a lot. Especially as welfare when at the beginning and I wasn't sure and things. This is going to be some specific post and I have a nagging feeling that you won't get the sarcasm, when used, at (in)oppurtune moments. A few hours ago, I had lots and lots and lots of things to say, so much so that I couldn't focus on anything, and now I don't know what to say (let alone where to start) so I will blogsurf for a bit and wait for it to come.
I think I should start with what I think of it overall. I think. that. [it isn't coming!] that we could have done better. (I always think that-_-") Been generally more self-motivated, louder, more optimistic. BUT how this happens I'm not quite sure. I suppose motivation starts primarily with a reason, a goal, and probably a plan. We have the goals and plans in the proposal on paper, but I don't think we have it in us, i.e. actually believe that camp is to initiate sec ones, make sec twos leaders, and so we must provide a suitable environment for them to develop/learn as much as they can. And therefore we should___. But sometimes having an argement that is, to some extent, too long-term, may not be effective because I use my 'work for greenpeace' argument to get myself to do my homework and it very obviously does not work.
At the same time, I also feel that having a certain sense of unworthiness is necessary (this sounds SM-ish) to keep one in check and not abuse one's power and authority. Then again, if the sense of unworthiness is outwardly shown, it creates a lack of trust for the person in authority and consequently a decreased willingness to listen. (I am thinking of the Hegemon as I write this, although it is a very far stretch.)
I was thinking, during camp, to do a sociological study of the roles of people in our camp, how they interact, who takes power and human nature or characteristics. (sociological is used to make myself sound like I know what I'm talking about, but I don't, so.) For example, in our year, group A always does ____, with group B not that into it. This occurs in every year, but there seems to be a maximum number of people in group A, and so in our year, the ratio of groups A:B is less than with other smaller years. This results in a general lack of effectiveness of the entire year, even though there is the requirem number, or even more, people into it. Of course these observations and inferences are not entirely reliable, considering my background (or lack thereof) of sociology, and that the theory is disproven as there are people who are categorised between groups A and B, and by that fact that I love, and am very comfortable being, a groupie.
This isn't as long a post as I wanted to write, but I think I should take the stupid theories thing slowly and not shock readers.

I must be the dumbest person on the face of the earth. I must live under a rock in a well a million miles from all humanity. Honestly. For me not to see my review in the papers, (granted, not everyone flips through the classifieds) and to not see, in big blinking letters, the words "4 Mar" at the top of my email, I must be a very blind person. I even replied and asked when I would see it in the papers! She must think I was a neurotic neophyte who walked around with her eyes closed. I have never had anything in the papers before, so I'm staring at the article fairly egoistically right now, a week after it is published. -_-" Oh and the said review is somewhere on here, so you can scroll around for a bit. *is being stupidly arrogant* And I've won a pair of movie tickets, to I'm not sure what, and I'm not sure when, as I haven't collected it yet. Does anyone want to come?

I've also just realised they've edited it a little, but I am still happy as long as my name is there. (they have rights to edit it, so.) I swear they deliberately made the picture of the book bigger so that my review would look longer.

D.S. and LCP are so mean! After all the anxiety of an interview, he wants to go through our bio journals?! Good luck ploughing though >20 journals, anyway. Go charisse! junru! hoongyan! gayle!

As of today, 8th March 2007, I am a miro/ouanda shipper. I am also a snarry, harmony and harry/ginny shipper. I like being a shipper! I like to read fluff! and this leads to the public proclamation that I declare myself a fangirl and a groupie! (of akaibatsu, no less) today I listened to saccharine-sweet duets and was extra and groupie-ish.

Neil gaiman linked this, and it's about two very emo sisters who get to go on a tour of the entire US, visit colleges, book signings and comiccons [twice!] (amazingly big conventions for geeks in general; kol and mugglenet have been known to visit/participate) >:( This is very unfair as all of this is parent sanctioned(!) just because the siblings, Sky and Winter, are homeschooled. Sky is fourteen and Winter eleven (or around that) and they are very into manga, graphic novels, and this tv show called veronica mars. But it doesn't really matter because their dad is a writer and they have these crazy opportunities to meet new people, go to conferences with authors and visit museums, so the fact that they don't go to school school is negligible. I. am. jealous.

The interview was okay, and better than the others I have done (I hope) though I was a little worried; {right wait I always am anyway} because I was first. Naturally I told everyone else the questions and wished them luck while I got away with my burden relieved and much less wriggly. I wish everyone else the best of luck. :) I should go do something useful, like googling the lit poems or the ecamp item or at least go to sleep early.

pffft. I am the first to be interviewed. At least I'll get it over and done with quickly. Being last means having to wait in agony. I suppose.
The purpose of this post is solely to bump things down, and I hope it will serve its purpose by being empty, but full of purposeful space for my mighty Purpose. I don't like leaving empty spaces though; empty spaces on paper mean wasted paper-> unneccesary comsumption-> climate change. If everyone left a wee bit of empty space on their paper, one entire piece of paper will be wasted, and soon enough, millions, which will result in worldwide forest destruction. Empty spaces on a webpage, however, mean entirely different things, which will be discussed in later posts.

Meet the Austins by Madeline L'engle
This is more family centered than the Time Quartet*, and more suitable for younger readers. As an older reader with a more concrete mindset, and not the impressionable person I was, I approached this book with many paradigms. The Austins believe very much in God and His presence, and this plays a large part in keeping the family together. The theme of religion is more significant in this book than her others, perhaps because God played a large role in L'engle's life, and she wanted an opportunity to showcase this. [Meet the Austins] emphasises the importance of strong bonds between siblings, as well as the trust and respect for one's parents. When the book was written in the 1960s, the family unit was still significant in American history. This is before the advent of modern communications, as well as working parents and overscheduled children, bringing us to an era when peace within a family was more importance than the peace within oneself. An in-depth narrative of life at home, including details one can almost only experience first hand, suggests that L'engle grew up in this kind of family, and her family is part of who she is today. Comparing my life with Vickys', the protagonists' , Vicky, without the influence mass media has on us today, is more innocent, and has a firmer sense of belonging to her family and faith in her religion. However, the questions she has while growing up are not very different from mine, reminding us that self-doubt and a less definite view of the world are not only problems adolescents of today face.

* A Wrinkle in Time, A Wind in the Door, A Swiftly Tilting Planet and Many Waters

I think my clauses are wrong.

I just might have a chance to watch equus. I think. IF I get accepted for the wales trip, IF the teachers agree to watching a play and IF they consent, also considering the price. (the cheapest tickets are 19.50 pounds, around $60) If price is most important, othello/ the merchant of venice is 5 pounds ($15) but you have to stand. I would like to watch the mousetrap, a mystery play by Agatha Christie, Chicago, Fame, Les Miserables, The Monty Python(!) a Misummer Night's Dream, Phantom, Macbeth, Cabaret, Dirty Dancing and so forth. Oh and they have 43 applicants, but only 40 slots, so they are still holding interviews ): Three people won't be hard to squeeze, won't it? I don't know what to say for the interview, but I'll have lots of time to prepare- I'm the last! So you see I'm counting my eggs before they hatch (again) But this time hopefully it's safer because there's a higher chance of getting in. For Boston summer school its on a first -come- first serve basis, (rolling basis) so I'll have to write out my personal statement soon, photocopy my results, and get the financial bit down and send my application. I can reject the application once they reply without having applied for the visa or anything, so I suppose I can decide later. Ohoh and Crystal, charisse and junru signed up- so I know I won't be lonely but then again, making new friends is also very fun if I go to boston. Yes, I am a very undecisive person.
I swear the first thing I'm going to get is a lunette when I get a credit card.
I will be a good and undistracted person by doing math, german and chinese, so that my mum won't nat, and so I have a nice gpa.

I'm at school to watch the tt people and then after that I'm going to go to the library in takashimaya to mug math and german and maybe meet hoongyan. I might have a dairyqueen and then go to moelc for german. I haven't come in a week (to blog) and I suppose you can tell.

Mum wants me to go to Boston University's Summer Challenge Program during the june holidays. I 've printed out the application and everything and mum is really bent on me going but it might clash with trainingcamp, and I'll miss a bit of school. But even after I send in the application I still have to see if they accept me or not, so. Plus it costs US$3000 excluding spending money and airline tickets, compared to the Wales trip which is $3000 sing (around US$2250) with everything included, and which I also signed up for. But the summer challenge thing sounds really fun- you have 2 seminars in a day, get to stay in a real dorm and even get to see fun things like Shear Madness and explore Boston yourself. There's a lot more autonomy and space to do your own thing, get to know other people and experience what university might be like. But for the Wales trip I'm with people I already know (no one would know me if I went to boston) The topics of study are more relavant to what I'm doing in school, and there is a lot more fieldwork and out of classroom exposure involved. Of course, mum would prefer me to go to both, but that= a lot of money. She doesn't usually pay any consideration to this in my argument. Also, she thinks that Boston isn't safe enough to be on my own, so she, my sister and my dad are all coming along if I go. This is an incredible statement that is all encompassing and I feel my wallet burning as I type this. Oh jeez I sound stingy and miserable but they have to pay for accomodation, food, plane tickets etc and it adds up. I should get the estimates and maybe she'll relent. But I can't help planning for my trip ( if I ever go) - planning where I'll visit, what I'll do, what I'll bring; what it would be like staying on my own for two weeks. I don't want to get my hopes up and the more sensible half of me says no anyway, but if I get all psyched up or psyche myself up, I'll be really disappointed if I don't get accepted. ( you have to write a personal statement in your application)

it's been 12 days. 12 days! procrastination gets the best of me at times. And it is not a good time when my printer is throwing temper tantrums. i.e. now D: aop

Mass swim today was fun! I forgot how great swimming could be- I haven't been swimming in ages, unless you count kayaking in obs. There were little flies all over the place- they buzz around and land on your shirt in masses. Especially on my bright green buckle shirt- somehow they didn't land on the new dark green one. They are tiny brown dots with even tinier wings, and some have developed enough to become red and have wriggly legs. When you dust them off your shirt, they fly a distance away and come back, so you have to pick them off individually and squish them, when they subsequently leave yellow slime on your shirt and fingers. But it was okay after mass swim, because they all drowned in the pool and left little fly corpses floating around. I stayed for mass aquarobics, which was relatively easy to get a representation point :D and we did a lot of splashing! The people who participate in house activities are usually house comm members, and not many non-comm people were seen. (except sec ones) :(
[pfft. I want to SLEEP. stupid printer.]
drowsiness-> lack of vocabulary-> excessive use of smilies; although I've been up later and written a more credible blog post. lousy stamina.
The Worthing Saga was very lovely and very human; more so than ender's game. It, apparently, stemmed from one of the first SF short stories that osc wrote. It is more science fiction than fantasy,but I still like it lots. It was also the only decent osc book (besides ender's game) that the school library had, besides this long series about american beginnings or something like that. The Saga explores issues of human ethics, especially in the case of Jason Worthing's, the protagonist's, mind-reading abilities. I plan to borrow xenocide from the library after school on friday to keep me alive and sane, and will probaly lend the worthing saga to charisse. This review significantly diminishes in quality compared to luna's, even though this is thicker.

July 21st 2007!!!! omfg *hyperventilates and possibly ceases breathing* Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows will be released at 12.01am (new york time I think, so around 12 noon the same day in Singapore) in addition to the release of OotP on July 13th Friday (in Canada, the US and in the UK), = a harrypotter summer! It's on a Saturday so I have the weekend to read it. But it'll probably be in term3 with lots of pts, SAs and whatnot so I have a feeling it wouldn't be such a good idea. And harrypotter fever would practically end by 21/7 , for good )): All the hype would be from friday to saturday of that week, and it would ebb before the next week is out. I honestly did not expect it to be so soon, and I have a feeling I would miss listening to theory discussions on mugglecast, and what would happen to editorials?! I actually wanted it to be around june 2008 so that jkr would have sufficient time to do it up properly and we would have lots and lots of time to postulate. Also, I'm not sure if this is a wise publicity stunt by the publishers, because once the hype dies down, it would be difficult for sales to rise again. The sale of the book would have to compete with sales of the movie, as well as publicity, so there would be less net sales of the book even though there is greater hype. Some might argue that the movie would instead promote the book, since the movie is released earlier, and maybe persuade non-harry-potter readers but harrypotter movie-watchers to buy a copy.
I don't think I'll pre order; the last time I did it, the book came 2 days late, and I was spoiled by then ): I should get to writing an editorial, if I want to, really soon.

*faints* did you see dan?! dan radcliffe, I mean. the effects could be disastrous if someone were to mistake him for another dan. Dan in the nuddy! well almost. As in all the bits you're not supposed to see aren't there, so it's safe. Not recommended for those with weak hearts. He's very buff though, abs and all. Here's a look. Go to mugglenet.com or DanRadcliffe.com for more. I mean, he is advertising for a play on west end- "Equus", and it is for literary and dramatic[?] purposes, but the pictures are teetering on the thin line of what is trash and what is not. Honestly, it looks a lot like a publicity stunt to me, and less of cultured art, but I suppose the bottom line is ticket sales and "Equus" will obviously have no problem with that. Thank goodness young harry potter viewers or their parents haven't seen these, or there will have to be a new harry for movies 6 and 7. Dan isn't harry at all in these pictures- he looks really really different from GoF, OotP even. And his stylist did something to his hair! Which makes him look older and not that immature. But I have a sneaky feeling that he is not mature enough for this role (it involves him being undressed on stage with another teenage female actor, also undressed), and dan is only 17, so I don't know how the tabloids are going to interpret this. Personally, I think they are faint/heart-attack inducing and clearly very drool-worthy.

It's been a fairly long while, with the internet backed up and all. I'll go bug my dad about it. 12 days since the last post!
Luna
Luna, by Julie Anne Peters, is a literary fiction novel for young adults. Regan, a fifteen-year old girl, has a transgender brother, Luna/Liam. Regan wrestles with the burden of protecting her brothers' secret and is the only one who fully understands who, and why, he is a girl on the inside. Liam is a seventeen year old senior in high school who takes honour papers in Physics, while Regan has trouble figuring out Chem I and her lab partner. When Liam meets another TG, or transgirl, over the internet, he decides it is time to transition. That is, to become a girl on the outside. Will Luna manage to emerge from her chrysalis and reveal herself to everyone who accepts her as a boy? Regan struggles with her brothers' decision and his overeliance on her to keep him protected, all the while juggling school and her personal life.
In my opinion, Luna is ideal for young people to understand and empathise (not sympathise) with transgenders and their personal conflicts. Usually transgenders are regarded as outcasts, ostracised and discriminated against. Young people, especially Singaporeans, need to be more aware of their needs, and it may inspire teens with similar conflicts to come to terms with themselves, or if they wish, transition. I recommend this book to all teens, or maybe even adults who wish to identify with Liam, as it is an enlightening read.

Oh jeez that sounded like a school report. Charisse might be interested in this kind of thing though. You can ask me for Luna if you want a read(: I'm trying to read a midsummer night's dream now, but it is a little difficult with shakespearean language even though they have annotations and trying to make myself finish it before I go to borrow xenocide or an orson scott card. I sound juvenile and unappreciative of proper literature by not wanting to read a midsummer nights' dream. But I didn't read anything good, or rather, anything at all during obs and its taking its toll.
But don't get me wrong- obs was really really fun with things like mawpee and other stupid jokes. ohoh and on the first night there was a moth on the wall, and eliza was like: what if the moth flies into your mouth? you get butterflies in your stomach! and if this is a _ what is this_ jokes. obs was different from training camp in the sense that it wasn't so rushed, and I gained a lot more personally than bonding as a group. Chu Ai (my instructor) was also very nice, explaining the purpose and objectives of every activity, and structuring what we gained and learnt; naming the things we felt- I can't say this- naming like in Madeline L'engle. So now I know exactly what I have been through and not this blurry mess of feelings right after. I miss my bunk and the people in my watch and trying really hard. So now I've got to put the things I am facing now into context- eg homework- and get as much out of it as I possibly can. (as much as I put in) Oh and I have to say thankyou very much to everyone who encouraged me like jan and andrea and meijia and bubbles and jiayi and fiona and wanting and aeva and yenlin and the rest of my watchmates. This sounds like the bleeding emmys.
Ahh I cant wait for december boys and stardust and coraline and ootp and ooh romeo and juliet the ballet!! next month yay and we must never forget phantom.
ps mum went to rain's concert last night. I wonder what bella would think.