>< accidentally closed the window on an unsaved post. tried to blogsurf for tt practice schedules to look for them but came up with nothing.
I don't really have anything to say, except it's been exactly a week since I've used the internet and since the last post. oh jeez I hope they don't lock me in.

It's been a month. or more than that. I never did nanowrimo. not even a word. I am supposed to be at home doing_ but I am procrastinating. I could do it here ( I'm at school) and email it back but my computer at home is still internet-less, so it wouldn't help much. and I can't use my grandaunt's computer because I cost her $98 for singtel dial-up since I started using her computer (about a month) my grandaunt uses it for an hour a week, maximum. She expects me to follow suit. My parents are procrastinating over the internet bill because it costs more to start up when there is a break in service because my mum forgot. My dad claims that she forgot to pay the bill and he doesn't want to pay the extra startup fees. Mum says that he uses the computer a lot and she hardly uses it, so it isn't fair for her to pay. they are both currently too busy to go to a singtel outlet anyway/ too jetlagged.
I don't know what to do at school. Everyone's on holiday but I came here for the internet access, since I am really really bored at home and my sister watches cartoons 24/7. It's 3 o'clock now. the classrooms are going to be locked at 4, and according to inet, some classrooms at dblock 2nd floor are open till 5, so maybe I'll go. But I won't need to use the computer that long, I think. This is getting nowhere and is nowhere near exciting soap opera material.
ooh I didn't mention where I went on holiday did I? I'm frankly fairly embarrassed of where I went, because people will think__. but I should forget about what other people think, shouldn't I? I wonder what people are doing now. I went blogsurfing and everyone seems to be, well, bored. [holiday destination] is around 13 hours behind singapore time, plus daylight savings, and it took 25 hours to get there, excluding transit time. you might be able to work out where I went. I bought presents! for people(: and heh more for myself ><
I'm supposed to be at home doing assesments and whatnot. oh and does anyone know what was studied for sec 3 lit this year? or at least the shakespeare drama. so I can read up on that, but I have a feeling crystal knows. There is nothing to dooo. except __ and_. they don't seem very appealing. I could go out, but I don't like going in school uniform, and I don't like spending money on my own ( I tend to be a little out of control) I sound irritating. Actually my room really needs a clean-up. And I havent put up christmas decorations yet. so I guess I can go home and do that. I could write a editorial!
Currently rereading eragon, so I don't get lost when I watch it. When I saw the magnet (that I bought from an esplanade movie shop), eragon looked very american and fake. so did the other characters. my dad thinks it is not worth watching since it's just like dungeons and dragons >:( he said this after watching the trailer.
I think I'll update soon, the next timeI come to school, or do a quickie on my grandaunt's computer.

I read the procrastinator's handbook, and it says it is important to know the reason of your procrastination. therefore I will have the following conversation with myself.
me: why do you not study hard?
me2: because I don't like to.
me: why do you not like to?
me2: I find doing my homework an unpleasant task. and overwhelming.
I have to have plans! a timetable! a goal! noble aspirations! right so plans: I plan to uh. I PLAN. to. read 5 zuowen a day, do my tuition teacher's homework every day. read a chapter of phys/bio/chem alternating with math practice, and make a dent in my nanowrimo thing. rewards! I am allowed to have an hour of goingout time for every hour I clock, provided I spend the full hour focusing and not thinking about funny things. (ie christmas! eragon! coraline!)

this has to be rushed. (again) I hate using the windows 98 computer and my parents still haven't paid the internet bills, so I'm at school!
The Virgin suicides is more of something that you can read once through without missing anything or having to reread it. I started on friday morning and finished by the time school ended, which helped me ease the distress caused by my um results. geeru currently has posession of the book, which is funny because it really isn't her type of thing, but she was desperate for something to read, so. and she has been absent from school for two days running, so I don't think I can lend it to anyone): unless the person offers to return it to the library by the 15th of november. I'll try to get the movie (even if it is rated) through the library- it is available for loan! It has fairly dark and mature themes though, even though it seems very trash, or rather a "provocative bestseller".
I feel like having a tea party! a proper one, the kind that laura would like. With sugar biscuits, cupcakes, scones with apricot preserve, and maybe finger sandwiches. And of course tea! fruit teas or english breakfast or earl grey but not green tea. I have to have paper doilies and pretty teapots and teacups. And we would have a theory discussion! haha or um fanfiction reccs. or snarry! <3 does anyone want to come? XD

thevirginsuicides it's very very cult. (not many people will warm up to it) and a little trashy, but not all the time, and very different from neverwhere/ things I've been reading lately. I stumbled upon it while doing my philo summative- the one on euthanasia, and went on wiki to look for the definition of suicide, which linked to the virgin suicides, a r-rated movie with kirsten dunst and josh harnett. So it turned out that the movie was based on a book, and I went to look for it. It's about four sisters aged 13-17, who are eventually driven to suicide. The book is taken from the point of view of neighbouring adolescent boys who are intrigued by the girls and their seclusion. It is the type of thing that adults say will "give you ideas", since the first sister kills herself at the age of 13 over a boy. 0_0 and the rest kill themselves partly because of the grief and partly because their parents have been overprotective. The author sets the story in the 70s, (I like things like that; see summer of the swans and dancing in the cadillac light) with the boys being middle-aged men recounting their experiences. It it a social commentary of suicides and the emotional/ psychological turmoil that teens undergo, and might not be appropriate for younger readers, and may not appeal to a lot of people.
more tomorrow.

inconsistency right so after kino crystal and I went window shopping, while geeru and michele were enjoying their purchases at coffee bean, and charisse mooched in kino for more reading. We discovered that prices in takashimaya decrease as you descend; the shops on the same level as kino were practically empty and had really really nice things with crazy prices and we looked pretty strange walking in uniform. So down we went, to moderately-priced stores- warehouse! and looking at shopfronts but stood out very nicely in a bridal fair which had a grey floor that was supposed to match the white on the dresses, I think. back to coffeebean and got a pink lemonade! which was surprisingly sour. well, just for me, because crystal finished half fairly quickly. and then off to hmv with michele, where I gawked at the prices (again), at austin powers goldmember, and at a $7.95 spirited away vcd. I finished off with a brisk walk back to the library at orchard to look for the virgin suicides/ a book to keep me sane, but instead met matthewchan and andrea/ laura/ mel(anie), though not in the same group. hightailed to bishan for my german results, but got to sleep in a darkened auditorium with __ in the background and no results. Mostly Martha was a very slow german movie (with subtitles) that I could sleep and still follow the plotline- my legs were killing me by now and sleep was excusable (.") and that was the end of end of eoys.

grr. emo rants up ahead. I smell like cheese. being a geek today, I went to the central lending library to look for the virgin suicides and spent 1/2 an hour sitting on the plush seats looking at the illustrated version of mirrormask, which came in a heavy books and art by dave mckean, with whom neil gaiman collaborated. It's just the story boards of every single frame, but it came with a foreword by you know who and email records of first drafts and everything. The footlong hardcover was too heavy to bring home, so I sat and read, which was nice to do when it was all quiet at ten in the morning. I went to search for the virgin suicides, and it turned out all copies not on loan were in the library at esplanade. all copies of anansi boys not on loan were there too. >:( so much for running all over for a single book. will probably go to the esplanade on wednesday to get that and anansi boys to keep me sane from rereading everything I have. left the library with sirthursday and neverwhere, and a reading of wolves in the walls, which is a picturebook for young children and could be lovely reading aloud. It took a lot of me not to sit one of the running kids in the library down and start reading, complete with sound effects. It must have looked pretty funny for a person my age to look at the section for junior readers for wolves in the walls and sirthursday. Actually it would be tons easier if I just bought everything I wanted in kino on friday with my christmas vouchers, but I wasn't sure if the virgin suicides and anansi boys were worth spending money on.

I feel fairly bored after eoys, and I must sound like that, but I have to catch up on tcamp, cap application and next year's stuff, because mum doesn't want me to fumble like I did this year and the year before that. Still keeping biochemphysicslit- will be a huge challenge to keep up. I have lots to catch up in terms of german and chinese><" which I cannot mess or I would be dead as a doorknob. starting off with the procrastinator's handbook, but neverwhere is a thousand times more appealing.

note to self: radishii [story], http://inkstain.inkquill.net/isf/archive/28/pariah.html ,
nanowrimo.org and I think I'll talk about thevirginsuicides, which turns most people off at first (haha me.)

Let me tell you all about friday! even though it's 1230(am) and I should be sleeping early for once. but this will be quick. <15 minutes.
I am typing on my grandaunt's windows 98 computer and it's very fun actually, with its supersized font and elderly- friendly giant mouse. Only fun when a report isn't due. The internet connection on the other computer doesn't work right now because my mum forgot to pay the internet bill --" or just another effective way of getting me and my sister off the computer for extended periods of time.
Friday was when the eoys ended! so after the drama at jblock, crystal charisse michele geeru and I went to subway, where we were promptly greeted by a whole bunch of rgs people. Which was good because the fastfood place beside subways was empty :D the fast food industry is a highly lucrative business and you don't know exactly what's in that burger so go underdogs! and places which still care about the health of the customer. But subways is in a way a fast food place, at least it has veggies that you can taste. after that we went to kinokuniya[sp?]! to browse and browse but at least michele and I got fragile things! by neil gaiman. Crystal and I went to look in the art section, and concluded that kino was where one could spend one's entire afternoon in.
>< eek this is pretty brief but will continue later.

I messed up geog. very badly. but I won't have to look geog in the face for the rest of my life! Actually 2 years of studying geog isn't very long, but I alwaysalways do badly in geog because I fail to memorise the diagrams properly and actually study, so it's all my fault. But geog would be pretty useful if I ever decided to work at greenpeace, for example, which I have considered doing. Because working at greenpeace without a geog alevel is pretty useless, because its all humanitarian issues and stuff. (. .) I don't even know what exactly is it they do [I am useless!], but they dabble in all kinds of things, especially environmental issues so obviously someone has to use geog. And my entire point of this is that I will never ever ever get a job involving environmental conservation because I am not continuing it for the rest of my secondary school life- and if you don't do geog in sec3 and 4, you can't do it in JC right? so yes, no more geog, unless I take humanitarian studies 101 or something in university. Butbut my gpa is much more important! and I don't really like geog, to be honest. You might ask, how can someone who is so into conservation not like geog?! honestly! but conservation is a weenie bit of geog and I find the rest of it boring): (sorry andrea and joyce) Though it is fairly easy to do the essay questions and mcq in geog, I always flunk the structured questions! the ones you actually have to study for -_-' at least there are no structured questions in history, which I initially decided on doing, instead of physics.
But I think I will adopt the very inconvenient method of trying to juggle tripscience lit for a month or two to see how I manage, and then switch to history if I suffocate. Mum firmly believes that I will have no life/ job /future if I don't do triple science, and what can I do, work in the ura? look at all the a*star people! they all major in biochemistry, biotechnology, [insert variant] No one majors in english literature or history! To which I go: "All those smiley people in the paper will become research assistants and have less of a life unless they take their major to the phd level, which takes a ridiculous amount of funding and time! I don't want to be a college student forever trying to pay for tuition and pass my finals!" you get the point. Although I obviously will not have the ability to go that far, much less get a scholarship from a*star, and I am thinking in extremes- I could stop somewhere in the course of getting my phd, get a job, and then continue.
>< its 1230 already and this teacher keeps on coming in to see what I am doing (I'm in 210) so wish me luck for math! and congruence and similarity and the crazy proofs and ratios.

I'm in school! and chinese is over. ovarrr for the rest of the year xD though my tuition teacher wants me to work on it during the holidays, so): will attempt to construct this post in 10 minutes. and speed-type. but usually hurried posts aren't that good. and are usually made of crap. I am being/ writing like my sec one self because I just wrote a very childish essay on the protagonist being sad with not being able to work with her best friend and then blaming the teacher for not participating herself, because the teacher rearranged the pt groups in class. Everybody is having hiatuses now because of the eoys, but I am not! well this is rather a semi-hiatus because I don't update as frequently, and my posts are much much shorter and shrink in comparison to charisses'. What's the plural form of hiatus? hiatuses or hiatri? horcrux/ horcri XD
I don't think I'll be applying for cap, even though I really want to, and even though i'm going to write the application samples anyway. Because I am too much of a wimp to ask ms ng for a teacher review. maybe I'll just tag on to somebody else's application and she can do it at the same time as that person and I don't have to go look for her! but with her review I dont think I'm going to get in anyway. I would like to do a cap RS on harrypotter and do a theory analysis- type thing. and write an editorial of my own! I'm not even sure that comes under cap rs but that's the least overwhelming thing; as compared to fps. seeing crystal rush her reading/ writing every tuesday has influenced my desicion to a great extent. or I can not apply for everything (and not go for the cap cluster activities) and just do rs on my own- on harrypotter editorials. a paring-theory editorial! lol
okay I've exceeded my tenminutes time limit- its 15 minutes now and I have to rush off home to mug for history and lit- will write more on friday.

hello. it is 4 am. I am rushing RS. It is a very unwise desicion to rush RS. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I am driven to my very extreme and am going to resort to cheap coffee to stay awake in school (and sleep in assesmbly). I hate windows 98 and my grandaunts' computer with big elderly-friendly font and funny layout and tempremental disposition. Though I'm using the normal computer now, which eases the stress just a little. I hope my printer dosn't bail out on me. If it does, tomorrow (or today, rather) I will be down with a serious case of sleep deprivation, and I will faint if I go to school. Or I will stab the printer in a fit of blind fury. With my pen. The last time it happened, I flooded it with praises of adoration in a bid for it to take pity on me and actually start working. The printer, as of today, is a living thing with moodswings.

I notice during math, while everyone is having those wavy square-ish chips, I am having my apple crisp granola bar. (very loserish, I know.) Which is one of the nicest granola bars there are- it's not crumbly, it fills you up nicely, and it smells very genuinely of apples and cinnamon. Unlike the atkins diet smores bars lying at the bottom of my fridge which do not remotely taste like smores; rather mashed cardboard with the barest hint of sugar. Why I do not eat crisps like everyone else: firstly, I tend to get broke quite often, and would rather spend my money on something more permanent, i.e. books/ cds etc. Secondly, crisps aren't exactly vegan with everything else added, and since I am in the transition stage of becoming vegan (more of that later), I do not partake of crisps. Although sometimes my human instincts get the better of me and I end up stealing laura's food.

lalala. Okay in reference to the last post, hardcore potter fans seem like a fairly small group of people. Those who fancy being hardcore, I have a couple of PotterPackages for your enjoyment.

The OxyCore(kol!) PotterPackage:
1. 3 episodes of Mugglecast/ Pottercast for your listening pleasure
2. 5 fiction links provided by crystal, sihui, geeru, charisse, and siling
3. A Harry and the Potters link for study breaks
4. a Spinner's End and The Underground Lake editorial
5. The Harry Potter series books 1 through 6 for supplementary reading

The Hardcore Potter Package: (for those who prefer a crash course in all things harry)
1. Jay Tryfanstone link
2. Episode 50 of Mugglecast
3. An editorial of choice (preferably on snape/hocrus theories)
4. The Harry Potter movies one through four for a summarised version of the Harry Potter series

PotterPackages provided (free!) upon request. I appreciate feedback on what should be taken out of/put in these packs.

I feel materialistic! Which is not a very admirable trait. But I have a inane desire to own certain things, i.e. 40s peeptoe heels of reasonable height, skinny jeans, tunic-ish top to layer with, and a dress. All these things require money, a holiday job might help. Anyone wants to hire an able-bodied youth with um 8 years of formal education? Or I might take a WEP, but not the 8am-5pm, 20th nov to 31 dec ones, even though the pay is enviable. I might just give tuition/ babysitting/ admin services/ I can even walk your dog for you! or sweep the floor, wash dishes etc. Anything that comes with a salary! Part-time preferably because of ttskit and other stuff. I feel awful, money-faced, and greedy. or thinking in extremes. I have not been acting very responsibly lately. And forgetting things. and I find my enthusiasm for anything waning, being lethargic for no reason at all. sm does not help and the prints won't go awayyy. I have devised a system where 1 hour of study time can be exchanged for 1 hour of going- out time, in a valiant attempt to cajole myself to study properly and NOT FAIL. Any study strategies proven helpful are welcome. I don't know what to talk about. I am just wasting space. and I have to come up with things for my cap application that ms ng probably won't recc. though nothing has been inspirational of late and my vocabulary is decreasing so I'd better hurry off and do those vocab mcq books that we used to do in p6 but I personally find reading more effective in increasing one's vocabulary.
ohoh you have to see the official OotP stills on mugglenet- umbridge resembles a certain Josephine Queen. haha immature me. and there is no one particularly drool-worthy, unlike GoF ): dan looks horrible and is at his worst- I really hope his acting skills haven't disappeared with his locks.

Hello. I'm just blogging for the sake of doing so. German Oral on thursday was not very nice. the end. I really hope I pass the written test and babelfish has been very helpful in my revision :D I really should stop sleeping in class. I sm because of that, and because of other things and I really shouldn't wallow like a hippopotamus. I like sm-ing. It helps with anger management and keeps me from wallowing too much and hopefully will give me a reasonable gpa that I won't get killed for. But I'll sm myself to death first and so it'll be a death of honour and I'll die with dignity. I sm and it doesn't show! Icing it helps, to all sm-ers out there. I would like to know if you know what sm is! (I didn't leave a typo- it's not sms)

Since mugglecast has all these live stuff like Lumos2006 and live in vegas that I never get to go to, I was thinking of having a hp hardcore gathering in singapore! We could have a book reading like what mugglecast did- everyone brings their copy of a hp book and gets their chance to read an excerpt, complete with voices and sound effects. Or we could have a theory discussion(!) on topics like snape and horcruxes. Or even a movie marathon and critique after- I'll bring chips and salsa and crudites. And because of a high turnout (in a turquoise moon), we could hold it at the national library as part of literature awareness x) Though I don't yet know of any hardcore people who would come- except crystal, geeru, etc. I could look for mugglecast listeners in singapore though. But it wouldn't be as much fun if the people who would come didn't/wouldn't talk/ backed up theories properly.

eoys in three weeks. and after that, lightningonthewave! and yearouting hopefully(:

ohoh before I forget: a veryvery belated happy birthday to ceiling, sihui, jiaying and cherie((: Feel free to do anything you want to me if I've forgotten anyone.

I've just finished American Gods. This is about Shadow, an ex-convict, who meets Wednesday on a plane heading home. Wednesday strangely knows all about him, perhaps more than Shadow does himself.
It was a pretty long stretch of 3 or so weeks- I started on the monday of the school holidays, and today is monday of week 2. I'm writing this late, so it will turn up as tuesday on the post heading. Getting to savour the book really slowly made me appreciate it more in its entirety and the vast depth that Neil Gaiman went into, and the magnitude of the story. This also applies to its themes of gods and belief, which are very universal, despite the title of American Gods. It is seemingly disconnected when you first start, but in the end all the knots get tied quite neatly, so you have to read the uninteresting parts first before you can understand what happens next. It is slightly haunting, but he brings in a more fantastical, yet philosophical side into his writing that is not seen in things like Coraline or Smoke and Mirrors. Like all other Neil Gaiman books, this is best enjoyed on a comfy sofa on a rainy afternoon, or in a toasty bed in the wee hours of the night. This is what Neil Gaiman has to say about his novel- be sure to check the reseach section- I found several drool-worthy diners on the Roadfood link. What if American Gods were used as literary text? See what a lit teacher says. I would never ever sleep in a lit lesson again if the teacher did this.

I've recently been on a book-movie spree: Coraline, Ootp, Eragon and Artemis Fowl are all coming out soon! I know for sure Ootp is out in the states July 13 2007. Coraline is going to be voiced by Dakota Fanning yay but the release date isn't confirmed. OH stardust is out on march 9th 2007. His dark materials: the golden compass on Nov16 07. Spiderwick Chronicles on christmas day 07 (children's fantasy not unlike others; for younger readers) Hairspray on dec21'07 (musical on broadway) I need funding/ a job- I won't stick watching Ootp late on dvd):

The break between new posts are getting longer and longer): and will be getting longer as exams are imminent. Please bear with me as I attempt to rush my revision in 5 weeks- if I fail, many many people will be after my blood, skin, bones and flesh. Deadlines are horrible things. They tug at the corners of your mind; always there to remind you that you haven't done your homework. A deadline is the slimy monster in your dreams that you manage to escape from- only to find that it is waiting for you the next day. Escapism is only temporary and stalls the problem instead of solving it; the deadline will always be there; lurking in the the depths of your conciousness; permeating every dream and haunting your waking hours. I sound very dramatic. mwahaha. beware the deadline!

It's late. I should go to sleep soon. I will type really quickly! And mooch a little till I find something to talk about.

The reason why I don't really talk much about what happened today etcetc and more about "ooh mugglecast!" is because I don't really want other people to know stuff. Like the angsty stuff people moan about- "I hate you" "today sucked" etcetera. Not that I have anything against them, but these people have the courage to rant openly, and I respect that. I don't have that kind of courage, because I am eternally reminded that my blog is for everyone to see, and that means everyone. For example, if I said " you%#@*" someone else may read it and think it is him/her, and will therefore result in a misunderstanding. Secondly, I believe in a polite policy and that also means no words that rhyme with witch. (I have never found a need to call anyone that anyway) And also I have met loads of flamers on forums who talk like it's the only word they know, as well as fics written by people who have a very limited vocabulary, so you don't have to see another person like that here. I know someone who is supposed to be a role model (noodle for short) and noodle goes **** left right and centre on noodles' blog, and I don't know what kind of image noodle's showing to people who don't know noodle in person.
Back to angst. The feelings I feel that make me mad occur because of either rgsrcy-related problems, family problems, or school problems, all of which I feel are too personal to be put here. Firstly, I am very aware that many sagas can happen, have happened, or are happening right now because of things people have said on their blogs. I am also aware that inter-unit spats can happen because of what people say, and are best to avoid. And school problems are entirely my fault.

I think I said too much. And I feel like barfing because of the comp. I can't/don't want to sleep today because it's so late that it doesn't matter if I sleep or not. I have problems keeping on track, and I keep digressing. I felt oddly lonely today and yesterday and the day before and flat. I need a shrink. Or a yearmate. Or my blue nicole teddy that I just can't find. Everyone seems to be ranting. This technically isn't ranting because of the fact that it is so randomised. I think the only think I am good at is being random and longwinded and fibbing and making up stuff. Which aren't usefull skills unless you work in the advertising industry, or the government. Can someone call me? I need a lovely long telephone conversation. Oh and it would be cool if you haven't called before. Maybe I should call someone. But everyone else is doing something. And I am doing nothing. I wonder how this might look to somebody else. I am not trying to be funny or anything on purpose. I have the right to post this on my blog because this blog is mine and you don't have to read through all this crap because I have a feeling ( and you should too) that everything from this sentence on is pure and utter nonsense. I absolutely cannot write a personal exposition keeping on topic and on point and making it have unity and coherence. I am trying to make this as vague as possible so that a therapist won't think I need to have a pill anything or that I've been shooting up or anything, but this is so incoherent that I probably have. This is exactly how I'm feeling right now and you can probably guess. You know how Sally in Peanuts offers therapy for 5 cents? I wish somebody else did.

I'm at school now and it isnt a very convenient time to be using the computer. I feel sick. um as in not *coughsneezehackwheeze* sick but 'im feeling funny' sick. though I wish I had a tummy ache to take my mind off the real sick.

I got 25/30 for math, which is what I got for the last test. (quadratic graphs I think)and it comes out to be 83.33333 percent on my calculator. and 25.5 is 85%. hahaha I think I'll go get myself an icecream or something since I expected to do a little better and could have put in more effort- though I was doing math all through the national day holidays. At least I passed geog. Which isn't really something to be happy about, since I could have gotten better marks if I had studied properly. and not blanked out): I hope I do well for history.

Speaking of academic stuff, I went to the mit talk yesterday after school and um it was mainly to dream a little bit (well a lot, considering what you need to get in) and to see what it was like, since I was all over the bio lectures they posted on the web. There were many foreign students there, and it seems they really plan ahead and know exactly where they want to go, which made me feel very guilty. 14 is not young to start planning for your college education, and there is some extent of planning need to get in to mit, or any other reputable instituition. Considering the chances and criteria, there is practically a 0% chance I'll get in, so yeah my head is in the clouds and I don't know where my feet are going. It seems like you need:
1. consistent academic records (nil)
2. a leadership position (none to speak of)
3. participate in a international competition like the math/ chem/ bio/ physics olympiad (nope)
4. play a musical instrument/ dance/ theater/ sport (I have a GRADE 2 in violin and very limited dance background)
writing this has made me sicker.

FA comp tomorrow- goodluck esther jane siling :D dont freak, yeah(: and even though lots of yearmates can't be there, we will still be supporting you in our hearts! haha it sounds like mouldy cheese.

I apologise for my absence. It has been a depressing week-> pts, tests, getting back tests, etc. and on top of it all, I got sick. Running a temperature puts you into a very surreal mood, especially on monday when I had pe. And you're into 'I have to take more liquids' mode and feeling fairly sleepy, so getting to sleep on time isn't a problem((: And when you're learning bio and sick at the same time, you're more worried about who might catch what you've got than how feverish/delerious you are, which is good. Having a fever makes one do stupid things. I drank so much water I had to pee almost every hour! --" It started with a sore throat on friday and today is wednesday and I'm fairly ok! yay but I'm still sniffling.

Thankyou everyone for all the birthday smses/ tags/ presents/ cards :D and happy birthday to all august babies! My birthday didn't exactly come smack in the exam period, this year- a first! I got a blackforest cake with lots of cream, and if I get at least a 85% for math (I reallyreally hope I do!) I 'll go get myself a spicegirls cd. Yesyes the spicegirls are so 90s, but um retro is in! i.e. spicegirls are in! This is not a very convincing argument. Or I'll go get anansi boys/ thursday for my reading pleasure during the september holidays, even though the september holidays are for mugging. Because I can't afford christina aguleria[sp?] , Panic! at the disco, Snow Patrol cds etc.

I apologise for the brevity of this post, but history is tomorrow and I cant fail so I'll update after that. yearmates are love!

I'm the only yearmate online. Because everyone is at pop chalet! (except me juan yruoxi wruoxi yunhan hweefang) They're probably still awake and playing mahjong/taitee/watching a movie or something. *sigh* I really really really wanted to go for pop chalet. But mum says I have to stay home and study and that it is 'uncontrolled' and 'far away' since there aren't any adults present and it is in pasir ris.- I live in Newton. 60 noisy people will be carted away in the middle of the night by demented psychopaths who want to suck your blaahhd. I missed pop chalet last year so next year will be the first time I go for pop chalet- if I ever will be allowed to. Come to think of it, pop chalet is like an enormous sleepover for the entire unit heh. But I think mum has reasons and my non-existent gpa is very valid evidence. I also have a severe lack in responsibility and general sanity; therefore mum doesn't really trust me to get home in one piece. (and with a sound mind)

ndp! <3210! Some people demonstrated excessive public displays of affection. tsktsk. and some other people got a little wonked. 'little' is an understatement. Public displays of affection (pda for short) put me off to an extent. I mean go ahead and do your thing, but not in plain view of everybody who pass by. I lose my appetite over these things. -_-" It corrupts little children- when I was little, I used to see people snogging in movies and in public. It was kind of weird for me- I tried to snog my year-old sister. It gives kids the wrong idea of how they show their affection to others and also seems as if these people are oblivious to whoever's around them and their personal (dis)comfort.

Today I learnt how to play taitee! ( I never know how it's supposed to be spelt) From bubbles adele and sheepoling. It's a lot like poker, except that you get more cards. Because speech day goh ended at 1230, our year slacked and finished the pop presents till 3. I helped joan write the ma'ams letters and it was fun((: and we apologise if we were in any way repetitive. I tried to learn how to play mahjong, but all I can grasp is that it's a lot like poker, which involves getting the right combination of cards (or tiles) by putting them down/exchanging some with other people. And we sang highschoolmusical numbers which I almost got sick of, as well as the tear-inducing popitem song:D and then everybody went to the chalet, with pillows and snuggle toys in hand.

German test today was, shall we say, not very pleasant. As always. I find that escapism helps with someone as sensitive as me. Having an eternal apathetic expression helps you feel apathetic towards what bugs you, as well as ensuring that you don't blubber at any moment, however inconvenient. I should have stayed awake in lessons. I should have studied harder. I should have just paid attention. Not that saying these things now will miraculously help me get a higher score, but maybe it'll help me not fail for the next test/end of year. I can't afford to fail anything anymore, but I just did today. this is stupid and pointless and will not amount to anything substantial. Back to being apathetic, there are also many downsides, many of which I experienced today. Firstly, you tend to be very irritable, which is ironic because being letting things get to you as much. Secondly, having a 'whatever' attitude may result in a lack of responsiveness, espcially when being called. Thirdly, one may appear to others as being aloof, arrogant, and way too uncooperative to work with, resulting in the genral lack of apathy towards you. (i.e., 'daoing') Therefore, I conclude that being apathetic will not solve the problem at all, so please do not try this at home.

ohmygoodness neil gaiman has sexual references in stardust and smoke and mirrors! That means it has content not suitable for my level! I won't read neil gaiman anymore and persuade others to boycott his literary works, including his website and livejournal, as well as any short pieces in anthologies. Why wasn't stardust marked nc-16 in bright red letters? Why was I allowed to borrow it from the library without being arrested? Why isn't kept, well guarded in a Restricted Section, and why wasn't I asked for my I/C? I am not even supposed to mention this here because neil gaiman's writing is too mature for my young, innocent, 13 year old mind. I am also revealing private information that I shouldn't. But I will go to all odds to make this clear to all young people out there: Neil Gaiman corrupts. Do not read.

Pop is tomorrow! or should I say- pop is tomorrow)): it is very very very quick. And i don't feel worthy of ___. jiayou yearmates for goh!:D

It's been some time. erratic blogging schedule.
a chorus line!

The singing's reallyreally good, but there's not much dancing in this number. According to wiki, it's the 4th longest running musical behind cats, less miserables and the phantom respectively. And it's coming back to Broadway soon! I want to look for the dvd, but in the meantime, I'll keep myself satisfied with the stuff on youtube. (Most of which are amateur high school productions; don't bother looking at those.) To be honest, I've heard of A Chorus Line but didn't know what it was about till I wiki-ed it. Oh there's a 1985 movie so I'll try to look out for that. It reopens this year on October 5th at the Gerald Schoenfeld Theater- haha I don't know where that is but yay it's opening again:)

lollipop
This Saturday! Which is so incredibly fast... this year I have more faith in the year that is taking over, and they are worth leading the unit- haha probably because I know the ma'ams better. I, however, am not exactly ready for leadership- wait scratch that- not ready AT ALL, emotionally, and in terms of my ability. I think some of my yearmates would be very suitable for *ahemahem* posts; and I hope that they get the acknowledgement that they deserve. I am sorry yearmates, for missing so many goh practices, it's just that mum's been putting the pressure on me lately to study 24/7 to be able to manage triple science (hello, if pigs could fly) and she's convinced that having once a week trainings are a bit too much. I know perfectly well that that was not an excuse, and I should take responsibility and start scoring reasonably well so that she will be assured that I can manage. About CAC, jiaying seemed like she really wanted the lanyard, but if it demanded the kind of effort RS demands, I think that we, as yearmates could help share the workload and make it easier for the people participating. I feel like having a syf gathering. and am thinking of trainingcamp, of all things. and how the sec1s haven't had an overnightcamp before. but I have faith! and hope and love and joy.

lightning on the wave's been getting draggy. and I'm only on chapter 18 of book 1! I will have patience and persevere. andand you absolutely have to go take a look at the fall/back to school catalogues of delias, urbanoutfitters and target.

last training!
You know, I don't particularly feel blubbery or anything, which is very weird, since last year people were wiping their eyes on their sleeves left right and centre. And last year we were all in a much subdued mood. I have a feeling it's the sugar in the cake. Or something. Maybe we were all spiked! And tomorrow we'll wake up drunk. I mean I was blubbery last night because of stuff which were not exactly related to __. I think I'm getting off-topic. Today we learnt lots of new cheers, songs, chants and war-cries! (though no rain dances) And we were very very high:D and happy and today we also had our last firstaid lesson with the sec4 ma'ams- we haven't had fistaid since before sfa (as far as I can remember) I don't think the fact that the ma'ams aren't going to be back anymore has set in properly. It might get settled in comfortably after pop though, and goh. andand jiayan was a l33t i/c! we were stalkers today heh.

Mrbrown went to the ComicCon! pfft. kol and mugglenet were there, okay. though they probably didn't go to those booths, since middle-aged adults tend to be interested in video games, i.e. rpgs and whatnot with great graphics etc. I wanted to go to the ComicCon! Its a convention in SanDiego for nerds. and people go there to talk to other geeks. Though it would be lovely to meet other harry fans and discuss theories! and probably get to meet jick(creator of kol) if I get lucky.

Something that I found today:
MerLarry
MerLarry's characteristic 1960s Jaqueline Kennedy coif is what makes her such a fashion icon. She is trying to bear the weight of her hundred and fifty years but has self-doubts, in particular, her personal gender issues. The mermaid-like curve of her body is partly why she thinks she is overweight, but the caricature looked so well on MerLarry merchandise, that her manager thought, "Why not?"
MerLarry has a human-like face, with the slight curves in her fish's body bringing out the shine in her red and yellow scales. Her triangular, neon green fins might now be serving a mere aesthetic purpose since she spends most of her time on land. Her big 'do used to be the most popular fashion in her time, but she was convinced that it is as timeless as Jackie O., although her critics call it a 'mushroom head'. Constantly petting her hair and applying hairspray in liberal amounts, MerLarry is self-concious and wants to look her best for the press always. Her buck teeth are almost concealable after years of botched-up dental surgery.
Often seen commenting on the latest trends, MerLarry has her own fashion line. She has embarked on a quest; to get everyone to wear her clothes, which will hopefully boost her self-esteem.
MerLarry is technically a fantasy character- she has a quest, self-doubts, and is a mythical creature; though it doesn't really fit the fantasy genre in terms of language and style, but whatever. It is a parody of whatever you like- Singapore's national icon, Anna Wintour, or even today's celebrities. (everyone who is anyone has a clothes/perfume line.) Chimp might have preferred it if I were to change 'personal gender issues' to 'sexual orientation', but I wanted to keep it PG-13. R&R if you feel like.

Haven't blogged in a week- is that good or bad?

In general, please don't call people names. Support your assumptions with evidence and elaboration and don't jump to conclusions. Everyone has a right to say whatever they like, and you can choose whether to take offence or not. You don't have to see each other every day if you don't want to, and you don't even know them/him/her/it personally. And if you don't like what she/he/it has said, you can go wiki your thoughts and cite sources etc but don't say anything without doing your homework first, or you're just as good as a flamer.

yearmates post a lot about rcy stuffums, and I don't usually do that because anyone might be able to visit your blog, and also because I have a very short attention span and I tend to blog about whatever I am doing at that that moment. For example, kol, fanfiction, crystal/geeru asking me to go to sleep etc. Though if you have noticed, these also include things that I am blubbering about. If you want me to talk about something, tag/msn me so I have sufficient inspiration to keep this blog going. I am sufficiently longwinded to write in full detail about anything, which should logically mean that I could keep this going by myself, but the things which I think about are too boring/ordinary to be mentioned, for example, my sister's squashed doughnut from xiamen. I should learn to keep my entries short and succinct so that I will have a higher viewership. Like people who go " It's all your fault. Why do you have to do this to me?" =end of entry= They convey their emotions of angst effectively in two sentences.

rhd
Bhangrarobics! [sp?] loong and other dancey people had a lovely time. I did too! I have a feeling old ladies do this. Very bollywood((: It was fairly sunny, and everyone had worked up a good sweat. Then we had food, where we mostly slacked and ate lots of bad stuff (that were also vegan, which was ok) Went upstairs and tried to look for devil's curry, which crystal recommended but mush and I couldn't find. Masala tea was very nice-smelling-a lot like herbal tea with milk. Then the performances, where almost everyone used highschoolmusical so our ndp item has to be revamped): or onelove, which we also have. The dances were ok, though I especially liked the second last performance because it had the most technique and genuine dancability but not as much relavance, so they didn't exactly get any prizes): but __ won! woot. and I like someone's shoes :D and I know why we couldn't have goh prac today.

delias
delias's fall catalog is out! ((: You absolutely have to take a look. They have very retro-inspired stuff, especially from the 60s- think audrey hepburn. And very english too. Delias is based in the US, so you have to order online, and that means you need a credit card (which i don't) and I dont think my parents are willing to pay for the stuff): But the clothes in singapore are very... for lack of a better word, boring. I mean they all look the same, and everyone wears the same thing (except Frau Ostlund) And it's fairly difficult to get anything that looks like delias in singapore stores. The fall catalog also means that summer wear is on sale! and I <3 their swimwear. also try urbanoutfitters.com for neat stuff((:

I should start having headings to my posts so it'll be easier to find later.

ocw: introduction to biology fall'04
Today I was wandering around ocw (OpenCourseWare by mit), looking for a break from lightning on the wave, and I found an introductory biology course which has video lectures! Which is the closest you can get to actually being at mit, and I wanted to experience it for myself. The lecture is sbout an hour long, and I have broadband, so it might be a little difficult for dial-ups, if you want to download it. I watched Genetics I, becuase my sister was interested in it but just listens for the fun of it, and it was fairly comprehensive and understandable. This is like the one class that I know I wont sleep in x), because the teacher/professor was being fun and interesting, and of course it's something I'm interested in. It is somewhat of a prerequisite to have studied genetics in high school/secondary education, and he takes it for granted that you know all this stuff already. I have a basic grasp of what he's talking about, and he didn't go into anything too complex, so it was ok. haha but the funny thing is I feel comfortable in the class and I wouldn't mind actually taking it, as an alternative to bio lessons at school. But yes I know being too specialised too early isn't good because you need to have a broad idea of what is happening; and what if you change your mind and don't like it etc. This lecture talked mainly about what the professor thinks defines biology today, and he did an early introduction to genetics with gregor[sp?] mendel, was a bright young thing, how he was pressed by society to do his experiments and he didn't do it all alone, and he discussed allelles[sp?], the dominant and recessive gene and after that a little of chromosomes. Did you know that 'chromosome' translates literally into 'coloured things'? 'chromo' is like um 'monochrome' I think, and it generally means 'colour'. And it was just because they didn't know what the coloured things that the dyes revealed were-_-" I mean narrow Xes are very interesting to look at and postulate about. On the discussion forums, there were some people who were actually serious about the course and are doing the readings, the assignments etc. I'm just watching the movies. lazy me. But there is a LOT of reading to do in most of the courses I've seen (even in hiphop study!) so there is preparation you need to do before/after the class. Plus the fact that there are 3 lectures per week, an hour each, and 2 sessions of recitations per week.- i dont really know what recitations are. But its more than what we get for school, with all the homework to do, might be kind of difficult to manage. That's considering the other courses you have to take (I dont know how many) and the work you do to pay for your tuition and the housework, etc that you have to do regularly. Am I overreacting? haha or am I fairly accurate?

other emo ramblings
I feel like I am the dumbest person in the whole universe. Even if you delve into the far reaches of the galaxies, you'll never find someone who is slower than I am. I will be exercising greater self-censorship, and no, you won't find the confessional tell-all that you will be looking for, which also will not be invsible. Though somtimes I might decide to put what I am feeling into cryptic, hopefully undecipherable, heat-of-the-moment haikus, in a bid to vent my fustration. I feel sad. and stupid. and unaccomplished. I and I know the exact reason why- I don't do the work. I am just an emofreak who knows how to bawl her eyes out and drown in her pool of self-pity and sorrow and not do much else. and that is why I am pathetic. rahh this is starting to look like a cry for attention, but what I really want is a solution to my procrastination. The realisation of how these scribbles would look like to ## ####### is just starting to dawn on me and I am exercising this last scrap of self-discipline to end here.

A Dream.

My thoughts are dancing among the moon and stars
Sometimes running freely like children
They are rampaging buffaloes that my concience lassoes.

My mind is like a clattering movie player
Memories are the worn tapes;
The emotions are the edges of the negatives.

I am a dam about to burst
The raging waters are a whirlpool
The channels are sealed.

I thrive in the dark of the night
Waiting at the witching hour
For a knight in shining armour

My conciousness in the world of flying cars
My heart riding in a horse-dawn carriage
My body in a SUV.

Analyse! and you will see. R&R if you feel like, though it is very incoherent. Let me know what you come up with! :D

*breaks into a fit of tears* syf is over! have been blubbering for the most part of my weekend and being an emofreak. and also because I'm pms-y, but nevermind. there should be nothing worth sniffing about anymore. stop being a wimp, nicole. I met nice and fun people((: and um pro people like fiona and deborah and her yearmate! and alisa, chantel, samantha, stella, stephanie, teresa, weiting and peixuan! And I got to know my yearmates a lot better. There were a couple of times when I wanted to cry but didn't- you know when you get all choked up and the tears come but you blink them away? because yingling told me to stop looking miserable(: I'll miss drinking bottles and bottles of water. (and peeing afterward) I'll miss ironing my uniform at unearthly hours of the morning. I'll miss changing in parkmall/ junction8/ plaza sing and doing funny things in otherwise public places. I'll miss gingerbars! and how they tasted like ginger snaps with lime. I'll miss getting sunburnt. I'll miss getting sore heels, cramped toes, sore arms, and a little armpit abraisions. I'll miss the cheers! (mich might like the banana one) I'll miss the sirs and ma'ams. I'll miss the crazy people [valerie!]. I'll miss marching into flies! (even if that only happened once) I might even miss the veggie-free nuggets and fish burger lunch. What with everything going on, thank goodness I have monday to do my homework. I think I'll start crying like farah did right about now. I am emotionally unstable! I am going to go blogsurfing to see if there is anyone who is as emo as me. I am considering leaving the melted plastic on my boot in rememberance of syf. ( I cant get it off anyway lol)
yet another person is appalled by your lack of censorship charisseD:
I watched a musical just now! with audrey hepburn and fred astaire, both of whom are great dancers/singers. and I forgot the name of the musical -.-" though I saw it advertise in today's paper- the lifestyle section of the sunday times. The film was of very poor quality): but it was a lovely romantic thing, so it came out fine. though it hasn't got quite that much depth as my fair lady, audrey hepburn played out her role as the innocent girl quite well. (I like her ponytail!) But the worse thing were the long ads that came out at inoppurtune moments, though the film, with the ads, was 2 hours long, compared to my fair lady, which is at least 3 hours without ads. somehow this time audrey hepburn ends up yet falling for someone who is way too old for her- I have no idea how fred astaire could do his tap solo, and lift audrey when they were doing their ballet- like thing. he has crow's feet and a receding hairline, for goodness sake. and there was a younger love rival, too; why couldn't she pick him?! but if that happened it wouldn't be as heart-melting as it was meant to be. oh and there was this other middle-aged woman, who was audrey's mentor in the show, and she danced almost as well as her, but has ballroom training, unlike, audrey, who (I think) has had ballet training. There's a lot more emphasis on footwork than in so you think you can dance- that had a lot of fancy music and tricks.
charisse: the devil has come and I really really don't mind a T :D
and yingling, cheer up ok? (: your yearmates are here for you(:

http://ocw.mit.edu is a great site to visit! It is an MIT open courseware network, which means that all of the materials in the course are uploaded onto the website. Which is really really cool because then I get to read all about stuff like anthropology and whatnot. And sometimes they have videos of the lectures, and the lecturers do neat class experiments. The lectures are in fairly understandable language, which also means I can do class research here, or read when I don't understand things. Have I mentioned that it's free? And you don't have to register or anything. Though obviously you don't have course credits, or access to MIT faculty. But what the heck, it's great! I would like to go somewhere like MIT when I go to collage, but they say it's pretty competitive. I mean I would like to be able to hope that I can get into MIT for as long as possible, since I currently don't exactly have stellar time management/discipline skills, you have to have all these other extra-curricular points to get in, and of course they pick candidates from all over the world, so yeah, chances are slim. I would like to have my bubble intact for as long as possible, thanks.

I just ate something vegan suitable, and I am considering becoming a vegan- that means no consumption of animal products at all. For example, no butter or dairy, and sometimes no wheat/ gluten. (why?) After reading about dan piraro's veganism at bizarro.com, he has proved that humans are not anatomically made to eat meat. Animals raised on farms are ill-treated and abused, and in the process of obtaining products like fur, animals are inhumanely given a slow and painful death. Being dumb and innocent, I wrote something about chickens living in cramped coops should be made to run free. In today's enviroment, to do that would make your company suffer serious losses. Therefore the solution is to become a vegan. However, there are a few tiny problems:
1. Being vegan means no Ben and Jerry's. I am selfish enough to put myself above poor cows being milked dry. BUT Ben and Jerry's is a enviromentally sound company, and they might use milk from cows living in green pastures. So Ben and Jerry's might be allowed in my diet, though the vegan mom/ dan piraro doesn't eat ice-cream.
2. Being vegan also means no Carls Jr. Or poached fish, meepok, ipohhorfun, pizzas, or generally any kind of food that I indulge in and makes me happy.
Maybe I could be a part-time vegan on weekdays. But its difficult to go vegan in our school canteen): there isn't exactly much choice. And I dont feel like packing lunchboxes, but the easiest vegan thing to do is a peanut butter sandwich. I dont' feel like going all vegan-mumsy and doing cold soba with edamame at 6am in the morning. A part-time vegan sounds good. Maybe I could live on vegan snack bars. Or Odwalla smoothies!

Mugglecast's second live podcast is on August 2, in New York City! And OotP is said to be released on July 13th, 2007 (7/7/07 would be a nicer date.)

lalalala.
You've gotta look near and far
You've gotta look here and there
You've gotta look everywhere
To find three presents for the sphinx.
-The Backyardigans
The backyardigans is a cool show on nickjr! I watch nickjr! The backyardigans airs weekdays at 1.30pm on Nickelodeon. Its a musical-type show where these kids have an adventure in their backyard. And the dancing is choreographed to dancers, and then shown to animators as a reference=great dancing. and the thing is, it looks great even on short, fat creatures with stumpy legs. And the kids who voice the charaters have very good voices. So watch the backyardigans on cable, even if its the only preschool show that you'll watch!

I feel stupid. but a little better after reading charisse's 'feel happy and positive' thing. She sounds a lot like motivational speakers. I am a diplomatic person. And therefore will not take sides in the ___ saga. And i am not worth commenting on it anyway, since I have little social experience, and socially inept. But I hope I won't be swayed by popular opinion, i.e. "everyone has done it/has one, why dont you?" Lots of teen advice websites, advocate 'not everyone has done it; say no' etcetc and i hope that works for me because sometimes i have problems staying true to myself. Pardon the teen queen cliche, but I 'm worried about that being a factor in the decisions I make. What if the choice I make isn't right for me? But because of that, I end up afraid to make any choices and let things happen in its way, and then I dont get what i would like because someone else has made the choice for me. -_-" ^-^ ._. @-@ >_> [/random] anime smilies are cool. By the way, I think the "say 'no' to drugs" campaign doesn't work because the cnb knows nothing about teen psychology/doesn't bother to get a teen counsellor about how difficult it is to say 'no' in today's society. At least the teen pregnancy people in the states know about this.

I have procrastination issues. I can't do my homework. at all. I shouldn't be saying that I can't, because then I really can't. I should be saying "go do your homework now, you insignificant flea. stop playing kol and go do your pt/anthology/everything else that you haven't done. go do your homework NOW." and i do that in my head, which doesnt really help much because of the fact that i have a weak concience[sp?]. My sister says that she does homework so that she can do whatever she wants later. Which doesn't really work for me because I think I will never finish my homework completely because there will be always more to do. And so there won't be a 'later'. I mean how can you stick doing homework when there's the computer on? I have to do reasearch on the computer, which makes it worse. I cant do homework on the computer, because there's always kol and whatnot with their ever so seductive wiles. They say breaking down a large task into smaller tasks helps. So I break my anthology into 5 different poems. I have problems even finding one that i like, and is appropriate.

Which leads me to the fact that I am indecisive. I worry about the choice that i will make, and if that is the wrong choice. "A poem!" you might say. All this worrying about choosing a poem. Crystal has tremendous self-disciplinary skills. She is doing her FPS, and has probably finished all the rest of her homework. I feel sick, feeble, and dumb in comparison. I have not much time to finish my homework, and put the deadline in my head in an attempt to get myself going, but no can do. I have a limited vocabulary to express myself. ohmygoodness this makes me think of german, and chinese. Don't get me started. Though chinese has been easier with many (you don't want to know how often) tuition sessions. I mean tuition is like the only time in the whole day that i do any work. I think I need yelling. Could someone yell at me please? I mean I could ask my mum to do that and start her off very well by showing her my physics paper, though she has yelled at me already today for leaving things at the very last minute. Help, anyone?

You must think I'm crazy, airing my weaknesses and all that jazz for all to see, like my smelly sweaty bootsocks. I used to think that telling everyone about every single inch of yourself made you vunerable to judgement, especially if you put your rants on a blog on which everyone in the whole wide world can see, especially people like ma'ams and juniors, or your teachers, your parents, your sister(so that she can rat on you to your mum) or anyone else that is capable of subjecting you to social torture. But sometimes sharing your problems with other people might get them solved faster, and it makes you feel a little better by writing it all down and generally identifying the problem.

Ben (of mugglecast) is against blogging, and Brookers (of youtube) is against v-logging because they think writing your diary for all the world to see is boring (right, a lot of paraphasing there, but you get the general idea.) but telling everyone what you have for lunch today isn't exactly interesting either. So I try to make my content less about myself, and more about what i think of things, like movies or books (Stardust was great!) to not get people bored of my life. I write for an audience and maybe sometimes for myself->< make that most of the time. But i am aware of the people who are reading this, though more often than not, I tend to bore the pants off people with my language, and fewmets, that i put here. Most of my friends' blogs tend to be one-paragraph, 'I hate you' ones or 'my day rocked' ones which is perfectly fine, but not very interesting.

I sincerely hope that this post doesn't bore the pants off you, and will not put you off the blog forever. Please stay.

ps: I have been peeing a lot because of syf. lmao. see what x says about our drill standards.

its late as usual, and im sitting here, at 1.43 am typing at the keyboard. I should get my homework done. and my boots polished. (for tuesday) and do all the things that I was supposed to do but forgot. been blubbering like an idiot, or being on the verge of doing so for a little of the weekend and therefore it wasn't really a pleasant one. my punctuation skills have been conveniently lost during the space of two blogposts and i can't be bothered to put them back. I feel like an emofreak. i am an emofreak. but not the 'go away I feel like a loser' type, but the 'blubber sob sniff no I'm fine' type. which generally makes people go away again, but anyway. I mean i don't mind people talking to me. so don't take this as a bright red warning sign, or anything.
I hate my writing. I tried copying someone else's style, but it didn't really come out right. like the first one had an effect, but the second one didn't. maybe i should publicise more and let people R&R and see how they feel. I can't publish on fictionpress or anything, because i dont like writing fiction.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ECA6-5XkPU
I dont know how to put the video in>< but its of a guy on 'so you think you can dance' - the second season! ROTFLMAO. 3mins plus but worth the wait. I am going to learn how to dance like him. woot.

I feel intimidated by Charisse's long posts. Therefore today I will be giving you, the reader, a 500-word entry.

I painted my nail today. My thumbnail to be exact. With my sister's purple glitter-comes-with-Sabrina's Secrets polish. She is at the glorious age of 10, one of the pre-teens mattel targets. Since it came with a magazine, it was bound to be of cheap, of low quality and everything else besides. But being a polish n00b, I thought all types of nail polish are equal, and I learned later on that some are more equal than others. So i unscrewed the bottle, and got the excess polish of the brush, as you're supposed to, and proceeded to paint a steady stroke down the middle of my nail. The first stroke was all right, but subsequent strokes made the polish clump and spread unevenly. By this time, stray bits of glitter/nail polish had got on my cuticle and the skin surrounding the nail. The nail polish looked thin and translucent, and I decided to wait and do another coat. The second coat was no better than the first, with it drying in random places and also because my stingy self refused to reload my brush with somemore. I patiently waited for it to dry and tried to scrape off some of the polish from my skin.

Back to the low-quality part. I know this is lousy nail polish because of the way it clumped and the way it gave my nail a very rough texture afterwards. (Or was it the glitter?) Compared to other painted nails i've seen, my thumbnail looked horrible, even worse than when 5-year-olds paint their nails pink and it comes off all chipped - that's only a couple days after ther nail has been painted. Or maybe the polish has been stored for too long without being used and it decided to clump by itself. And um I have been apprehensive about using nail polish because people said it was noxious (moxious!) and nail polish was like car paint.

And cheap bottles of nail polish are made by cheap companies who have no regard whatsoever about the health of the consumer; only the number of bottles they sell and put cheap, possibly life threatening toxic substances in the nail polish. Cheep! But I can't afford nail polish made by companies who actually take the lives of their consumers into consideration, eg revlon or somthing like that.

Cheap companies should think of it this way: if your customers use your nail polish and they die, there won't be anyone to buy your products anymore! However, since cheap nail-polish consumers aren't dropping dead everywhere, I have come up with the perfect biological analogy! Take, for example, the influenza virus. It sucks the life energy out of people- ok fine, uses their vampire- like qualities of taking over the host cell and its nucleus and making it produce many other baby viruses, which will in turn, infect other people. But if they kill the host organism too fast, it looses the ability to infect others and dead cells cannot make other baby virus-things, and therefore the whole virus species dies. I know 'species' is the wrong word, but you get the gist, don't you? And like viruses, who dont have to feed, cheap companies are maniacally obsessive about making more bottles of nail polish, but the poison in the polish poisons the consumer bit by bit, and doesn't kill them straightaway. They dont mind if their consumers die; therefore they are not human and viruses aren't technically living organisms.

I think cheap companies are run by "the man" anyway, and he isn't even remotely a human being. As a disclaimer to all, I speak about cheap companies in general, and not specifically about the company who made sabrina's secrets nail polish, so please dont sue me. Though it would be awfully exciting if it ever will happen, and i would gain press publicity! Which might probably lead to a published book! (yeah, right) or at least more tags on my tagboard.

yay! Word says i have 680 words in this entry! Though it might be thrown off by the grammar errors and odd hyphenated[?] words, it has to be at least 500. ohoh this is funny.

What do elephants use as tampons?
Sheep.
Why do elephants have trunks?
Because sheep don't have strings.

I am taking a quiz at quizfarm- on what you would like to major in. So i answered all the lovely questions, and here comes a 'tiebreaker'.
1. Learning about the environment, organisms, animals, genes, atoms, chemicals or the Earth sounds fun.
2. I'd love treating people with health problems and taking care of them while they are sick/injured.
you have to choose either one! ohmygoodness. you know, a year or two ago I would have picked #1. ahh but because of akaibatsu i have a different opinion! I really love both. I would like to be a researcher and then participate in volunteer work at the side. So that would mean I should pick #1. well actually the results will come out in order of percentage so that means whatever major is #1 will come out really close to #2.

You scored as Biology/Chemistry/Geology. Related majors that match your highest scored category: Animal Sciences, Biochemistry, Biology, Chemistry, Dietetics, Ecology, Environmental Science, Food Sciences, Forestry, Fisheries and Wildlife, Genetics, Geography, Geology, Marine Biology, Microbiology, Neurobiology, Nutrition, Pharmacy, Pre-Med, Psychology, Zoology. Consider all majors in your OTHER high scoring categories. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal. Biology/Chemistry/Geology 94% Nursing/AthleticTraining 94% History/Anthropology whahaha blogger had a wonked connection. anyway, Spring is when life takes the reins from the jolly old man and lets the deer run free among our souls and hearts and fills the empty glasses of eggnog with our wildest dreams and fantasies Only Summer will know if they ever will be real.

Spent yesterday kol-ing; I'm at level 9 but I still have all these quests to finish! and i don't even know how to do the strange leaflet or the orc chasm quests, I suffer from a lack of muscle and moxie so i cant adventure in the goatlet and keep losing hp but I can adventure at the hippy camp! herbs and tofu are l33t. and im a pastamancer so that means pasta! yayness. and stir-fry. I think I would like to ascend as a seal-clubber- muscle is a very useful attribute to have. As for the quests, I know you can check kol wiki or colfront, but that just spoils everything- i go to the forums instead, and only to kol wiki when I'm really really desperate.



You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

I went to the science centre website because the holidays were getting boring and since the last time i went, they were renovating the place, so I wanted to see what it looks like now! and they have this scientific discussion thing- it sounds like mugglecast where you just bounce ideas off other people and well just talk a lot. and they happen to have a discussion on friday! on um well here's the introduction.

9 June 2006 Prof John R "Jack" Horner Museum of the Rockies, Montana State U*** Can We Make a Dinosaur, and if so, How Would We Do It? : *** One of the America's best-known paleontologists, Jack discovered his first dinosaur fossil when he was 8 years old. He has made some of the most important, recent dinosaur discoveries, theorised and written several books about them. He served as a technical advisor for such movies as "Jurassic Park - The Lost World" and "Jurassic Park III". While suffering from undiagnosed dyslexia, Jack said that his brain worked best when it could "hunt, poke and dig around" through science. It was through digging around that Jack made his first great discovery. Most recently, Jack discovered the largest T. rex to date at 10-13 tonnes, with 5 other T. rex fossils in the Hell Creek area in Montana. Jack had suggested that this ?King of Dinosaurs? was really more of a scavenger than a predator.

I think i am cheating posting quizzes and text from other sources and all. anyways, it would be a nice thing to go to- to listen to since i dont think i could contribute very much ><" the only interesting discussions I have engaged in lately are things like harry/draco crabbe/goyle pairings, and its either that or fetishes. so yeah, this will be a very interesting change. but the thing is, attendance is by invitation only, which means I have to write in and request for one. it is not stated when the discussion is held but it says 'in the cool of the Singapore evening' so it would probably be at night. the science centre is far for me and i dont think mum would enjoy fetching me there and back, and going back by myself is out because my parents are of the protective kind. maybe i'll email and ask for a time and place, and see if the folks agree.

Charisse likes my blog! to be more specific, the last entry. but those are generally very rare entries created under pressure, in this case, the fustration of being bored. today there is a general decrease in pressure, because tomorrow i have math remmedial and i havent done the practice miss lim gave when school ended, and then after that is chinese tuition. and i havent done my teacher's homework either (to memorise zuowen) Therefore i cant say im bored, but i am under pressure of a different kind. I am not complaining about the nature of the homework, or the volume, as math and chinese are two subjects that I did terribly in, i.e. failed. but there is no compulsion to do the homework, just like i had no compulsion to blog for the past week.

I feel very stupid and gutless and tired right now. and not very well read. feel like ponning math remmedial>< its a quarter to 3 (am!) but i just had a very interesting discussion with charisse- i think she has written something about __. whatever i write at this hour is like the trash i came up with yesterday. and i really should be sleeping now otherwise math remmedial tomorrow will not be very pleasant.

I will attempt to make a long entry today. siling said today that i was very injury-prone; I am actually. I have a peeled scab on my right elbow that is a lovely pinkish colour, an equally pinkish patch of skin on my left knee, and a cut on my right hand, with a winnie-the-pooh band-aid on it. The band-aid is smaller and much less boring than the normal skin-colour ones, and I used a winnie-the-pooh band-aid to make my cut seem more interesting and because this band-aid is smooth and gel-y and because my holidays have been very boring and this was a futile attempt to make it seem like I have actually got a life. The band-aid i have on my right hand has the words 'disney' in disney font; Piglet holding a rake with a couple of fall leaves in it and a blue-green background. I got the cut while I was fumbling along in the dark while trying to creep back into the room i share with my sister in the middle of the night. and the two abrasions on my elbow and knee I got from tripping while getting off a bus last friday when i went to borders and geeru went " all limbs intact?"

I have been a bad girl and I have been picking at my scabs. [/random] "I'm a good girl, I am" - Eliza Doolittle, My Fair Lady [random] I pick pointless quotes. But what else can you do when it is itching like crazy and the scabs look ready to fall off themselves? siling syays I am a naughty girl for picking my scabs. but my last bit of scab got scratched off in the car. There was an almighty tearing sound as it happened, and owch. But all that was under it was a bit of pinkish skin just like the skin around it. A bull's eye, if you will. A very pink 'eye' in the middle, light pink, almost whitish skin surrounding it, and brown around the edges. rated nc16 for graphic-ness. well actually it wasn't that bad; I have seen worse.

as for the cut on my hand, a scab simply refuses to form while whitish plasma oozes out with no absolute effect, so I decided to plonk a plaster on it, in an attempt to protect it from infection. I wish i could replicate the spell that snape uses in hbp to heal draco's sectus sempra wounds in a flash. The first band-aid i put was a normal squarish one with a tiny pice of white gauze in the middle and transparent sticky stuff surrounding it. It was touted as being waterproof and allowing for respiration, so why not? unfortunately it almost fell off during drill today, what with the sweat and heat and all. Despite my futile attempts to get it to stick by prodding it, It was hanging off by one edge by the end of training and i decided to end its miserable life by tearing it right off. Which was a bad decision as it needed all it had to keep sweat and other debris from getting into it.

This is a rubbishy and not very interesting entry. Please forgive me for these fewmets but i need an outlet for my um something that is not exactly fustration but nevermind.

P.S. Watch high school musical! even though it isnt showing in theaters. it has great dancing, singing and all that. finally, a musical that is appealing and accessible (not if they dont show it in singapore) to young people!!

I apologise for my absence over the past few days. I have watched 3 dvds since the start of the holidays and I will give my reviews!

Tim Burton's The Corpse Bride

This macabre fantasy was almost what I expected after watching some of it during comp studs- I say 'almost' because after the beginning, it wasn't quite the eloquent tale that I had in mind. There wasn't much characterisation and a lot of plot development; created, of course, with today's viewers in mind. My dad thought that it was a purely gothic movie, possibly c-grade, but after watching it, he changed his mind so I give it plus points for that. I liked the musical numbers- especially the beginning and the part when victor first enters the land of death. Oh and the dvd has this thing where the take out the vocal bit, and then I put on the subtitles, and it becomes karaoke-ish! And it was fun to sing along to. The special features were a refreshing change from the sparse low-budget mirrormask , especially when they showed how much work was put into the puppet and costume-making. Ohoh and the frame-by-frame manual animation was cool too. The dvd also had a feature where you could see the actors voicing out the roles, and it is a split screen with the animation on one side and the actors on another.

I'm going for syf tomorrow and tomorrow the singapore idol's 1st Group of 7 Gals of the Top 28 will be at j8 at 4! not that they're that, well appealing (is that the right word?) yet, but it would be nice to get to meet some of them. The holidays are getting very boring and dvds don't seem to do the trick. Have lots of homework to do (still) but miss procrastinator is getting very insistent at times :( but I've been practising li3 jie3 wen4 da2 so yeah. I should be doing my filing and whatnot- read through the mark haddon book for ideas for anthology and due to lack of aptitude, have not been able to analyse or even understand most of the poems :( maybe I need crystal's help. or even felicia clara tan's. *sigh*

I apologise for my absence over the past few days. I have watched 3 dvds since the start of the holidays and I will give my reviews!

Tim Burton's The Corpse Bride

This macabre fantasy was almost what I expected after watching some of it during comp studs- I say 'almost' because after the beginning, it wasn't quite the eloquent tale that I had in mind. There wasn't much characterisation and a lot of plot development; created, of course, with today's viewers in mind. My dad thought that it was a purely gothic movie, possibly c-grade, but after watching it, he changed his mind so I give it plus points for that. I liked the musical numbers- especially the beginning and the part when victor first enters the land of death. Oh and the dvd has this thing where the take out the vocal bit, and then I put on the subtitles, and it becomes karaoke-ish! And it was fun to sing along to. The special features were a refreshing change from the sparse low-budget mirrormask , especially when they showed how much work was put into the puppet and costume-making. Ohoh and the frame-by-frame manual animation was cool too. The dvd also had a feature where you could see the actors voicing out the roles, and it is a split screen with the animation on one side and the actors on another.

I'm going for syf tomorrow and tomorrow the singapore idol's 1st Group of 7 Gals of the Top 28 will be at j8 at 4! not that they're that, well appealing (is that the right word?) yet, but it would be nice to get to meet some of them. The holidays are getting very boring and dvds don't seem to do the trick. Have lots of homework to do (still) but miss procrastinator is getting very insistent at times :( but I've been practising li3 jie3 wen4 da2 so yeah. I should be doing my filing and whatnot- read through the mark haddon book for ideas for anthology and due to lack of aptitude, have not been able to analyse or even understand most of the poems :( maybe I need crystal's help. or even felicia clara tan's. *sigh*

went to borders today! and got The Talking Horse and The Sad Girl and The Village Under the Sea by mark haddon, which cost $17.80. which unfortunately left me broke. But i though it would be good for anthology and then i could share it with people! Mark Haddon is the author of The Curious Incident of The Dog In The Night-Time and this is a book of poems. crystal and geeru were enchanted by the selection on display despite their low budgets and we browsed through something by sophie dahl (I thought she was a model :/) and she tried to keep up with her grandfather by publishing a book. and it had quirky humor- i think like the type in terry prachett and it also had whimsical illustrations! but it was a little chick lit, and some good writing, but none of roald dahl. but i shouldn't be expecting that anyway, since sophie should be original and try to set herself apart from her grandfather. I find it very coincidental nowadays because remember last year i wrote on my deleted blog that i wanted to read and write more? and now im surrounded by people who do just that.

being surrounded by people like crystal, geeru, michele and charisse make me feel like we are socially inept. as in we are isolating ourselves from the rest of the class (i think) and this is not helpful with class bonding!- which is what our class comm is trying to accomplish. but the problem is, i've got to know geeru, crystal and michele better by sitting next to crystal and working with michele and geeru in my geog pt group, and have come to realise that they were not the annoying, socially inept people who read books all day that i thought they were at the beginning of the year. (although we are still socially inept, and geeru is annoying) and i have a very stong feeling that most of the class feels that too. even though not everyone has the same voracious appetite we have for books, we still talk about normal school stuff like everyone else does, (though with a warped sense of humor) and have the same homework problems that everyone else has and therefore are perfectly ok to talk to. but sometimes it might be our fault that we dont talk to people. and i come back to the point that we are socially inept! but really i think i should talk to the class more and attempt to make conversation with people who start ones! and maybe start a few of my own. and I shall try to convince crystal too.

pleasepleaseplease sign cherie's petition! she petitions to have 'so you think you can dance' in singapore and i think so too because we do not have an active professional dance scene here except for sdt, which does mainly modern. but we could have one of the choreographers from sdt be a judge on the show! woot. but there are so far onlyy 4 measly signatures- how can that make a proper petition?! YOU can add your name to the list.

came back from aids candlelight memorial-- my lightstick is still glowing! went to the website and it said that it is being observed simultaneously in 300 cities all over the world. Not many people turned up though- lots were from rcy. me and sihui sat right in front- and we both fell asleep ><" i am now more aware of aids and the social/political stigma attached, through the political stigma might have existed more in the 1980s, when aids first began and people didn't know how it was transmitted. though i think more publicity is needed for the memorial and for people to come out of their own enthusiam! but now i think too much publicity would result in a high budget, something which they cannot afford.

siling: you were a very nice evac partner too!
nicoleL: whahaha yes i am!

speaking of accred (which i know was a long time ago) i thought i would get armpit abrasions from being carried so much by hweefang, ruoxi and yunhan>,< only very hardworking footdrill people get armpit abrasions lol. anyway i had more body aches from 2.4 --i got 16.08! which is ok. you think of funny things when you run.
getting along with hbp- wonwon has been snogging lavender and harry's 'insides are like a raging beast' when seeing ginny snog dean. i wouldnt want harry as a boyfriend becasue he thinks of ginny very posessively! 'she is mine' yadayada. and voldemort is posessive too- with his hocruxes and all. i mean i wouldnt want to feel like im being, well owned by someone. harry learns more about voldemort and there is much more characterisation in this book than in other book- jkr 'showing' how voldemort is and his weaknesses and strengths. and showing is always better than telling, but then jkr has to make comprimises in plot, which make it a less engaging read. im reading it slowly and limiting myself to 2 chapters a day so i have time to think over and analyse things.

watched mirrormask- something my dad borrowed. Its a relatively dark fantasy that came out in september of last year. Well ochre, more like. The most part of this film is set in a brownish fantasy world with Helena, a 15 year old girl who works in a circus. This is a British film with american producers (Jim Henson- they did the muppets) which gives a fairy-tale, traditional feel. Helena is tired of working in the circus and wants to have a real life instead. I relate to her very much because although she fights with her mother, she still loves her a lot. One night, she dreams of a fantasy world where the Black and White queens reside. she has to save the white queen by finding the charm that will set her free. It is a dark fantasy with a jazzy soundtrack that is unique to the movie- i want the soundtrack!- as compared to the epic symphonies of more popular fantasies like harry potter or the lord of the rings. It is, quite surprisingly, a low-budget movie with many special effects. I am not used to movies of this scale but the small group of cast and crew gives it a sense of closeness and intimacy. I expected a lot more on the dvd- more cast interviews and the like, but due to the lack of budget and publicity, I dont think there were enough stuff to put in. Stephanie Leonidas plays Helena, and i must say she did a fairly good job of portraying Helena's emotions and i can relate to her on a very grand scale. See the website at http://www.sonypictures.com/homevideo/mirrormask/title-navigation-3.html

off i go to mug german): I have a very high chance of failing.

haha my posts are irregular and long like a piece of toilet paper and also like.! charisse is lucky. not that i um.[/random]

finished ootp! and now i have a better understanding of what actually happened in the hall of mysteries. (correct me if the name's wrong) and before that, i could not empathise with harry's feeling of isolation at the end of it all- as in i understand his sense of loss for sirius, but not of the great burden because of the prophecy- his knowledge of having to defeat voldemort. and yes i know the prophecy does not have to be fufilled, but voldemort thinks that it does have to be fufilled, and has already fought harry so many times so harry doesnt exactly have a choice. and when having such a large task of killing the being that is responsible for all the terrorism the wizarding world has suffered, there is great personal stress and responsibility. and the parallels jkr has made are quite obvious, as well as her political stand- fudge in ootp?

Began hbp and understood importance of the unbreakable vow between narcissa and snape- laura of mugglecast thinks that snape is working more for himself to survive in the war- haha like mr mizar's reference to LKY during the war when he worked for the japanese. maybe snape does not want to commit himself to either side- i forgot when snape did the unbreakable vow-
pg 41 of the bloomsbury edition states: "'will you carry out the deed that the dark lord has ordered Draco to perform?' There was a moment's silence. Bellatrix watched, her wand upon their clasped hands, her eyes wide. 'I will,' said Snape."
the 'deed' is the killing of dumbledore but we dont know at this point. Bellatrix is still astonished that snape has done this to protect draco as she is suspicious of his involvement with the order and she is 'wide-eyed'. Snape is comtemplating in the 'moment's silence' and continues, afraid to blow his cover in front of narcissa and bellatrix. but isnt it a large promise to make since dumbledore has said that snape has pledged alliegence to him? i read an editorial and the writer thinks that the series is a large red herring and snape, instead of voldemort, is the antagonist. which is weird because since harry is the protagonist, he has to go fight voldemort, who will be the antagonist. and at the end of hbp, we know that harry is going to find the horcruxes (not horcri) which contain bits of voldemort's soul, not snape's.

ah well. will continue reading with my piece-of-ootp bookmark from bookday(: though i didnt manage to find which page it was cut out from. and i got it from BooksActually! which had all kinds of neat stuff on display (poetry grids!) which i didnt have money to buy): and if anyone wants to know, BooksActually is at 125A Telok Ayer Street Singapore 068594

took some tests on tickle and re-activated my account. andand hoongyan is a level12! but hasnt got an ascension. I am a mere level 7 on kol and trying to do the goblin and crypt quests :(



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its been a long time, and it was a relatively small margin! (of defeat) yay!

song review! Red Dress by Sugababes I like the fact that the song is catchy and upbeat- like their other stuff like push the button! and although it was a earworm for sometime and i was annoyed because I couldn't get the lyrics, I appreciate that they actually took time to write their lyrics- symbolic reference of 'red dress' and it's a lot less literal than other stuff. plus the fact that they can actually sing properly, unlike other girl groups. And someone called amelle replaced mutya but i personally think mutya is better. and i got caught on sugababes since 'too lost in you'!

About my progress in Ootp, I think Harry has a lot of angst and takes it out on Hermione and ron. and sometimes I think his temper tanturms are justified because he was under a lot of stress compared to the last 4 books and a lot more is at stake. but i think he should get an anger management book (like I should) because he is, to some extent, like James in the Pensieve- he believes that it is ok to take his anger out on anyone just because feels that he is the only one who can do better at defence against the dark arts- james thinks its ok to tease snape because snape is, well, being oppressed, and he is popular but snape is not. But i agree with hermione that harry is insensitive when dealing with cho and does not understand her feelings, but to be honest, ron does have the emotional capacity of a teaspoon.

I flunked physics. i know the maximum im going to get is 5 anyway. and no its not because the paper was too hard or i didnt study enough, it was that i didnt have time. and i owe crystal a great many things for attempting to wake me up. and the thing is, I slept at 10.30 last night, of all nights, and i slept. that is how stupid i am. and the most annoying thing is that physics was something that i had been spending time on all weekend, and which i finally understood, and it was the only paper i took since p4 that i was sure that i would have a good chance at. pfft. mum is going to be mad at me again, and my gpa is probably going to be a maximum of 2.0, what with german and all. maybe i was overconfident. but its nobody's fault but mine anyway, and i shouldnt get too worked up and should focus on studying for math and chinese. and crystal said yeah right im going to study all weekend with the alluring computer with its kol, fanfiction and everything else. self-discipline is something that I seriously not have, along with a proper sense of hardworking-ness. i can almost picture mrs quah's evil smirk when she sees my paper. I am officially miffed.

on top of everything, i lost something. my freaking carelessness. and i have been looking all over for one whole week and i still cant find it. grr >< I must be the whole person in the entire__ to have lost it. this paragraph is a waste of space since you dont know what i lost. but some people do! ok right rants can go crazy sometimes. and although it might help in finding the lost object if i publicised it here, but i dont want some people to know i have lost it. unless of course, you have guessed already.

raah mum wants me to take three sciences, and two humanities. thats english+ chinese+ amath+ emath+ chem+ physics+ bio+ history or lit+ geog+ german(if i dont quit that is) = 10 subjects. and i was thinking that chem and bio + lit and geog would be a good choice since it says on the paper that only one humanities subject is allowed for people who are taking 3 science subjects. according to my abilities (if i have any) i dont think i can do physics. honestly. and since i havent decided my career choice as of yet, i think i would take lit and geog. grr i am uninitiated in this subject- does everyone take triple science? am i setting my sights too low? because crystal is taking all the science subjects, and all three seems like a very popular choice. speaking of subjects, i have looked at this college handbook that prepares you from the ninth grade (now) and you have to take the sats, and advanced placement courses if you want to get anywhere decent. maybe im thinking waay too far ahead. but college sounds fun doing the classes you like and the things you are good at, living away on your own and meeting all kinds of people.

tatah. and maybe my views on politics later.